Re: Vampire Mirror Syndrome -

[Guest guest]

wrote:

>

> Hi All!

Hi !

> I have posted more than a few times to this list. Some of you have

> been kind enough to reply to personal requests and to those who have

> thank you. I have made all of my contacts, some have provided phone

> numbers for me to speak with. I have done just that too; called and

> asked all kinds of questions. The questions pop into mind often

> times after posting to the list. I realize everyone has probablely

> agonized over this very, very personal battle. It was excruiatingly

> difficult for me to talk about my true weight.

How long has it been since I matched the weight on my driver's license ?

? ? Longer than I can remember!

> In my head I could

> easily be deceptive about my weight. I had the body of someone who

> weighed 175 lbs (just a little overweight), that was until I looked

> in the mirror and saw with my eyes. So the choice was easy --- just

> don't look in the mirror.

That was me and still is, except now I'm curious to see if my profile

has changed any, whether some of the fat really is leaving yet, so I

look in the mirror more now.

> And I didn't until I had ballooned up to

> 312 lbs. I am little over 5'8 " tall. I still avoid mirrors, but I

> know in my head now what I look like. Is anyone else this vain?

Vain? I thought it was depressed, myself. No way did I want to see

what I *really* looked like in the mirror.

> I hope some of you will give me the opportunity to befriend you. I

> am taking this one step at a time. I don't want to intrude on anyone.

> Everyone that post real regularly seems very candid in the war

> against weight. PLEASE LET ME IN!!!

You're in, you're in, just by posting!! This isn't a closed group.

It's an ever changing group, that gets larger every day. There are a

*lot* of messages so sometimes people miss a message that should have

gotten a reply. Just keep posting! Lots of people are reading what you

post.

Hugs,

> Hopeful,

> A-J