an odd change

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Hi Janet and other MGB friends,

Thanks to you and the others who have posted to me on this topic. I love the

support on this list!

My doctor has a whole chart that I made for him showing my many, many

different diets with/without exercise, and the results. He knows I have been

dieting (sometimes losing but ALWAYS gaining it all back, plus) since I was

about 14 years old. What he doesn't seem to understand is the terrible agony

it has always been to be on a diet. Each and every day of every diet I have

ever been on has been terrible. It has been a continual, minute by minute,

struggle with myself. I have never enjoyed a diet in any way, and I have

always been devastated when I have inevitably gained all the weight back and

more. Even before I decided to have the MGB, I had decided that I would

probably never, ever diet again because of the physical and mental agony it

causes me, and also because I have no hope that I could ever keep off any

weight I did lose, and I'm sure the yo-yoing up and down is extremely harmful

to my health (not to mention my soul).

Since I saw him I have thought of so many things I could have said to him, but

I was really taken unawares by the things he said to me because he had been so

totally supportive and excited about me having the surgery just a few days

before.

Well, I need to let go of my sad and upset feelings about this. I know this

doctor will take good care of me after the surgery, and as someone said to me,

he'll probably see how well I do after the surgery and start referring his

other obese patients to Dr. R!! And his comment about me being intelligent so

I could surely lose the weight through diet and exercise was really

ridiculous. I think he meant that I could understand the principles of

nutrition and weight loss, but then why couldn't I do it earlier in my life?

I'm not any smarter now than I ever have been.

And if it only took intelligence and motivation (like my doctor said) to lose

weight, then everyone who posts on this list would be so thin you wouldn't be

able to see them if they turned sideways!!!!!

Thanks my friends,

Sara

Janet Whitaker wrote:

> Hi Sara, Try to remember your Dr is just human.He probably wants to make

> sure you have tried all nonsurgical methods first.I do not know if you have

> done this, but until I wanted this surgery,I was not forthcoming in my diet

> failures.So,just fill him in, and if he already knows,well just tell him

> your convictions.He'll follow,it is your turn to lead. Big Hugs, Janet