Re; a lesson learned

May 18, 2003

I was so excited that I felt that my pancreatitis was far behind me. I was

wrong! I did way too much and had a large flare up. It has taken me 5 days to

recover. I have learned that I need to rest a great deal and do little things

around town, rather than running around like the Energizer Bunny. I have also

learned that my actions are very self centered when I run around and get

sick, because everyone around me that loves me is affected. My children, the

most, because then I can't go to their school plays and songs.

It is going to be hard for me to make this change. I loved living in

the world of denial. My Chronic Pancreatits is here to stay, it's just now I

have to learn how to live inside it's boundaries. I know I can do it. All I

have to do is think about the pain and nausea that I have endured this week

and it puts me back to thinking things out. DR. Haluszka did a wonderful job

to relieve my symptoms, but he didn't cure me. I guess I felt so good that I

thought he had cured me. Deep down inside me I have always been looking for a

cure, I was determined that I was not going to live like this for the rest of

my life. If I eat what I am supposed to eat and rest when my body is tired I

can live a very nice, hopefully, pain free life. Thank you for listening to

me. It feels good to be able to write and know that someone out there may

have done the same thing. Maybe they too had taken a long time to figure this

out.

.....Paget

May 18, 2003