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[Guest guest]

JMCADY: you didn't sign your name so I will call you JM. The only way I

know how to get over an obsession is cold turkey. Three days of Liquid

protein drinks only.

I could never taper off anything. I cold turkied Cigarettes too.

Fay Bayuk

**300/170

10/23/01

Dr.

Open RNY 150 cm

[Guest guest]

JMCADY: you didn't sign your name so I will call you JM. The only way I

know how to get over an obsession is cold turkey. Three days of Liquid

protein drinks only.

I could never taper off anything. I cold turkied Cigarettes too.

Fay Bayuk

**300/170

10/23/01

Dr.

Open RNY 150 cm

[Guest guest]

Hello All!

OK ... this is fessing up time for me ... and it's very hard ...

I'm doing this in the hopes you guys can offer some compassionate, yet

constructive direction for my situation. I'm also doing this to " get myself

out of the closet " and admit to this weakness in the hope that I can gain

some perspective.

I've taken a wrong road in my nutritional direction and want to get it back.

It started a couple of years back when I found out about Sunspire candies

(the ones that look like M & M's). I laughed at first, but now ... now I need

help.

I eat them ALL the time. They have become like a drug to me. No kidding ...

I know all the outlets in the area that sell them. I'm eating them before

breakfast, on my way to and from work, throughout work and now for the

really scary thing ... I eat them when I wake up at night ... and this makes

me REALLY SCARED! Even when I was super obese, I NEVER did midnight eating

.... NEVER ... NEVER!

My messed up " obese " mind thinks I need them, but I know sure as h*ll I

don't. The truly serious thing about this is my constructive/healthy eating

has become messed up because of my choice.

If there is any good news in this, I still maintain an awareness of what I

should eat ... protein first ...I take my vitamins and I exercise 3-4 times

a week at CURVES, BUT eating the candy has sullied my need for real food. I

don't binge -- still get the full feeling. I don't eat other sweets or heavy

fats, BUT these silly little things have gotten a hold on me and I need to

shake them off. I currently weigh 164 pounds at 5'4 ... this means I could

stand to lose another 30 pounds for my stature.

So I've been looking at what's REALLY going on ... (behind the Sunspire

candies...)

In a nutshell ...

1. I am facing a total life change in the next couple of months. I am moving

to Utah to be with my boyfriend and pursue a life and marriage with him. I'm

leaving a good job, my family and friends. Currently no job prospects ...

this in itself would send anyone to the wrong kind of food!

2. My sister is an epileptic. She had brain surgery about a year ago and it

has changed her -- mentally and physically. This surgery was to eliminate

her seizures ... it made it worse. She depends on my elderly parents to help

her. I could stay, but I cannot put my life on hold. I've done enough

" holding " due to my obesity.

3. Elderly parents ... need I say more!

I'm going to see my therapist this week ... haven't seen her in over two

years ... she's going to get an ear full.

Thanks for reading ... I know we all struggle ... we will for the rest of

our lives ... we've been given a gift, but still we remain " fragile " in many

ways ...

Thanks so much!

[Guest guest]

Hello All!

OK ... this is fessing up time for me ... and it's very hard ...

I'm doing this in the hopes you guys can offer some compassionate, yet

constructive direction for my situation. I'm also doing this to " get myself

out of the closet " and admit to this weakness in the hope that I can gain

some perspective.

I've taken a wrong road in my nutritional direction and want to get it back.

It started a couple of years back when I found out about Sunspire candies

(the ones that look like M & M's). I laughed at first, but now ... now I need

help.

I eat them ALL the time. They have become like a drug to me. No kidding ...

I know all the outlets in the area that sell them. I'm eating them before

breakfast, on my way to and from work, throughout work and now for the

really scary thing ... I eat them when I wake up at night ... and this makes

me REALLY SCARED! Even when I was super obese, I NEVER did midnight eating

.... NEVER ... NEVER!

My messed up " obese " mind thinks I need them, but I know sure as h*ll I

don't. The truly serious thing about this is my constructive/healthy eating

has become messed up because of my choice.

If there is any good news in this, I still maintain an awareness of what I

should eat ... protein first ...I take my vitamins and I exercise 3-4 times

a week at CURVES, BUT eating the candy has sullied my need for real food. I

don't binge -- still get the full feeling. I don't eat other sweets or heavy

fats, BUT these silly little things have gotten a hold on me and I need to

shake them off. I currently weigh 164 pounds at 5'4 ... this means I could

stand to lose another 30 pounds for my stature.

So I've been looking at what's REALLY going on ... (behind the Sunspire

candies...)

In a nutshell ...

1. I am facing a total life change in the next couple of months. I am moving

to Utah to be with my boyfriend and pursue a life and marriage with him. I'm

leaving a good job, my family and friends. Currently no job prospects ...

this in itself would send anyone to the wrong kind of food!

2. My sister is an epileptic. She had brain surgery about a year ago and it

has changed her -- mentally and physically. This surgery was to eliminate

her seizures ... it made it worse. She depends on my elderly parents to help

her. I could stay, but I cannot put my life on hold. I've done enough

" holding " due to my obesity.

3. Elderly parents ... need I say more!

I'm going to see my therapist this week ... haven't seen her in over two

years ... she's going to get an ear full.

Thanks for reading ... I know we all struggle ... we will for the rest of

our lives ... we've been given a gift, but still we remain " fragile " in many

ways ...

Thanks so much!

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 3/17/2003 4:35:02 PM Pacific Standard Time,

loriowen@... writes:

> I, too, most go cold turkey. It seems the first 3 days are horrible.

Day Four - feeling just as bad as Day Three. I have now promised myself that

if I can abstain for two weeks, I can have a girl scout cookie (wouldn't you

know it, 14 boxes which I had ordered weeks ago were delivered to the house

yesterday). Hopefully, but the end of two weeks I will be so in control of

this addiction that I can just say no!

Kate

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 3/17/2003 4:35:02 PM Pacific Standard Time,

loriowen@... writes:

> I, too, most go cold turkey. It seems the first 3 days are horrible.

Day Four - feeling just as bad as Day Three. I have now promised myself that

if I can abstain for two weeks, I can have a girl scout cookie (wouldn't you

know it, 14 boxes which I had ordered weeks ago were delivered to the house

yesterday). Hopefully, but the end of two weeks I will be so in control of

this addiction that I can just say no!

Kate

[Guest guest]

JM,

I, too, most go cold turkey. It seems the first 3 days are

horrible. The longer I am off the stuff the better I feel. I have

discovered something strange though. I am a chocoholic at heart.

Somehow it helps knowing I can have that chocolate protein shake. If I

add 2% milk to it, it is absolutely heavenly. I don't necessarily get

the sugar buzz but my chocolate craving is usually satisfied.

Lori Owen - Denton, Texas

CHF 4/14/01 479 lbs.

SRVG 7/16/01 401 lbs.

Current Weight 335

Dr. Ritter/Dr. Bryce

On Mon, 17 Mar 2003 13:39:50 -0500 JMCady writes:

> Hello All!

>

> OK ... this is fessing up time for me ... and it's very hard ...

>

> I'm doing this in the hopes you guys can offer some compassionate,

> yet

> constructive direction for my situation. I'm also doing this to " get

> myself

> out of the closet " and admit to this weakness in the hope that I can

> gain

> some perspective.

>

> I've taken a wrong road in my nutritional direction and want to get

> it back.

> It started a couple of years back when I found out about Sunspire

> candies

> (the ones that look like M & M's). I laughed at first, but now ... now

> I need

> help.

>

> I eat them ALL the time. They have become like a drug to me. No

> kidding ...

> I know all the outlets in the area that sell them. I'm eating them

> before

> breakfast, on my way to and from work, throughout work and now for

> the

> really scary thing ... I eat them when I wake up at night ... and

> this makes

> me REALLY SCARED! Even when I was super obese, I NEVER did midnight

> eating

> ... NEVER ... NEVER!

>

> My messed up " obese " mind thinks I need them, but I know sure as

> h*ll I

> don't. The truly serious thing about this is my constructive/healthy

> eating

> has become messed up because of my choice.

>

> If there is any good news in this, I still maintain an awareness of

> what I

> should eat ... protein first ...I take my vitamins and I exercise

> 3-4 times

> a week at CURVES, BUT eating the candy has sullied my need for real

> food. I

> don't binge -- still get the full feeling. I don't eat other sweets

> or heavy

> fats, BUT these silly little things have gotten a hold on me and I

> need to

> shake them off. I currently weigh 164 pounds at 5'4 ... this means I

> could

> stand to lose another 30 pounds for my stature.

>

> So I've been looking at what's REALLY going on ... (behind the

> Sunspire

> candies...)

>

> In a nutshell ...

>

> 1. I am facing a total life change in the next couple of months. I am

> moving

> to Utah to be with my boyfriend and pursue a life and marriage with

> him. I'm

> leaving a good job, my family and friends. Currently no job

> prospects ...

> this in itself would send anyone to the wrong kind of food!

>

> 2. My sister is an epileptic. She had brain surgery about a year ago

> and it

> has changed her -- mentally and physically. This surgery was to

> eliminate

> her seizures ... it made it worse. She depends on my elderly parents

> to help

> her. I could stay, but I cannot put my life on hold. I've done

> enough

> " holding " due to my obesity.

>

> 3. Elderly parents ... need I say more!

>

> I'm going to see my therapist this week ... haven't seen her in over

> two

> years ... she's going to get an ear full.

>

> Thanks for reading ... I know we all struggle ... we will for the

> rest of

> our lives ... we've been given a gift, but still we remain " fragile "

> in many

> ways ...

>

> Thanks so much!

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

> Homepage: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Graduate-OSSG

>

> Unsubscribe: mailto:Graduate-OSSG-unsubscribe

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

JM,

I, too, most go cold turkey. It seems the first 3 days are

horrible. The longer I am off the stuff the better I feel. I have

discovered something strange though. I am a chocoholic at heart.

Somehow it helps knowing I can have that chocolate protein shake. If I

add 2% milk to it, it is absolutely heavenly. I don't necessarily get

the sugar buzz but my chocolate craving is usually satisfied.

Lori Owen - Denton, Texas

CHF 4/14/01 479 lbs.

SRVG 7/16/01 401 lbs.

Current Weight 335

Dr. Ritter/Dr. Bryce

On Mon, 17 Mar 2003 13:39:50 -0500 JMCady writes:

> Hello All!

>

> OK ... this is fessing up time for me ... and it's very hard ...

>

> I'm doing this in the hopes you guys can offer some compassionate,

> yet

> constructive direction for my situation. I'm also doing this to " get

> myself

> out of the closet " and admit to this weakness in the hope that I can

> gain

> some perspective.

>

> I've taken a wrong road in my nutritional direction and want to get

> it back.

> It started a couple of years back when I found out about Sunspire

> candies

> (the ones that look like M & M's). I laughed at first, but now ... now

> I need

> help.

>

> I eat them ALL the time. They have become like a drug to me. No

> kidding ...

> I know all the outlets in the area that sell them. I'm eating them

> before

> breakfast, on my way to and from work, throughout work and now for

> the

> really scary thing ... I eat them when I wake up at night ... and

> this makes

> me REALLY SCARED! Even when I was super obese, I NEVER did midnight

> eating

> ... NEVER ... NEVER!

>

> My messed up " obese " mind thinks I need them, but I know sure as

> h*ll I

> don't. The truly serious thing about this is my constructive/healthy

> eating

> has become messed up because of my choice.

>

> If there is any good news in this, I still maintain an awareness of

> what I

> should eat ... protein first ...I take my vitamins and I exercise

> 3-4 times

> a week at CURVES, BUT eating the candy has sullied my need for real

> food. I

> don't binge -- still get the full feeling. I don't eat other sweets

> or heavy

> fats, BUT these silly little things have gotten a hold on me and I

> need to

> shake them off. I currently weigh 164 pounds at 5'4 ... this means I

> could

> stand to lose another 30 pounds for my stature.

>

> So I've been looking at what's REALLY going on ... (behind the

> Sunspire

> candies...)

>

> In a nutshell ...

>

> 1. I am facing a total life change in the next couple of months. I am

> moving

> to Utah to be with my boyfriend and pursue a life and marriage with

> him. I'm

> leaving a good job, my family and friends. Currently no job

> prospects ...

> this in itself would send anyone to the wrong kind of food!

>

> 2. My sister is an epileptic. She had brain surgery about a year ago

> and it

> has changed her -- mentally and physically. This surgery was to

> eliminate

> her seizures ... it made it worse. She depends on my elderly parents

> to help

> her. I could stay, but I cannot put my life on hold. I've done

> enough

> " holding " due to my obesity.

>

> 3. Elderly parents ... need I say more!

>

> I'm going to see my therapist this week ... haven't seen her in over

> two

> years ... she's going to get an ear full.

>

> Thanks for reading ... I know we all struggle ... we will for the

> rest of

> our lives ... we've been given a gift, but still we remain " fragile "

> in many

> ways ...

>

> Thanks so much!

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

> Homepage: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Graduate-OSSG

>

> Unsubscribe: mailto:Graduate-OSSG-unsubscribe

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 3/18/2003 12:15:30 AM Eastern Standard Time,

kateseidel@... writes:

> I have now promised myself that

> if I can abstain for two weeks, I can have a girl scout cookie

The point is that you were not able to have just one. You can promise

yourself that the cravings will lessen. That is what addictions are all

about. Those of us who are addicted, whether it be to sugar, drugs, alcohol

or whatever are unable to limit our intake.

Just my 2 cents.

Fay Bayuk

**300/170

10/23/01

Dr.

Open RNY 150 cm

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 3/18/2003 12:15:30 AM Eastern Standard Time,

kateseidel@... writes:

> I have now promised myself that

> if I can abstain for two weeks, I can have a girl scout cookie

The point is that you were not able to have just one. You can promise

yourself that the cravings will lessen. That is what addictions are all

about. Those of us who are addicted, whether it be to sugar, drugs, alcohol

or whatever are unable to limit our intake.

Just my 2 cents.

Fay Bayuk

**300/170

10/23/01

Dr.

Open RNY 150 cm