Re: Morbid obese on the inside

[Guest guest]

I wonder if I'll always be " MO on the inside " .

:

God willing, you will always be MO on the inside. After 3 1/2 years, I

still am and it keeps me humble. I don't ever want to forget where I

came from. I keep a before picture on me in my pocketbook, not to show

off to anyone, just to remind me from time to time how far I've come.

Also, want to congratulate everyone for their three days of protein. I'm

going to " detox " starting Monday after Easter. Just don't have the

wherewithall to start something like that before a holiday. Still have

that old thinking I guess. I know if I would have joined all of you that

if I decided to partake in a treat or two on Easter Sunday that it would

probably make me feel ill and it's the first Easter in over six years

that Tim will be home to spend it with us and I don't want to spend it

dumping. : ) Though it would have been nice to detox with the rest of

you, I know that I won't be alone when I go through the " cranky " stage

with all of you out there.

Hope everyone has a wonderful holiday.

Regina

[Guest guest]

I wonder if I'll always be " MO on the inside " .

:

God willing, you will always be MO on the inside. After 3 1/2 years, I

still am and it keeps me humble. I don't ever want to forget where I

came from. I keep a before picture on me in my pocketbook, not to show

off to anyone, just to remind me from time to time how far I've come.

Also, want to congratulate everyone for their three days of protein. I'm

going to " detox " starting Monday after Easter. Just don't have the

wherewithall to start something like that before a holiday. Still have

that old thinking I guess. I know if I would have joined all of you that

if I decided to partake in a treat or two on Easter Sunday that it would

probably make me feel ill and it's the first Easter in over six years

that Tim will be home to spend it with us and I don't want to spend it

dumping. : ) Though it would have been nice to detox with the rest of

you, I know that I won't be alone when I go through the " cranky " stage

with all of you out there.

Hope everyone has a wonderful holiday.

Regina

[Guest guest]

I'm 3 years post, next month. I'm still MO, in my head and heart, and will

likely remain so. I NEVER want to be viewed as one of those pompous skinny

women...I, too, carry a before picture of me. I DO show it to certain

individuals, especially the ones that say to me: " What do YOU know...you are

skinny! " Then I show them what *I* KNOW! It's usually followed by a

gasp...and a friendlier attitude. MO or not, I'm still just *me* on the

inside, and will remain so. It still shocks me to see people I haven't seen

in over 3 years, and they don't know who I am! Just happened again Wednesday

night! I actually had to TELL him who I was. He was in disbelief! I told

him not to feel too badly, as his (very kind) mother had cut me dead last

time I saw her. I was CRUSHED, until my DH reminded me that I DO NOT look

like the same person. Inside me, I'm me...why can't they see it? Is that

why we are judged by our outward appearance? It's truly sad.

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Regards~

Jacque

Distal RNY, 5/30/00

Drs. Fox and Oh

310~126

Beginning BMI 50.0

Current BMI 20.3

>

> I wonder if I'll always be " MO on the inside " .

>

> :

>

> God willing, you will always be MO on the inside. After 3 1/2 years, I

> still am and it keeps me humble. I don't ever want to forget where I

> came from. I keep a before picture on me in my pocketbook, not to show

> off to anyone, just to remind me from time to time how far I've come.

>

>

[Guest guest]

I'm 3 years post, next month. I'm still MO, in my head and heart, and will

likely remain so. I NEVER want to be viewed as one of those pompous skinny

women...I, too, carry a before picture of me. I DO show it to certain

individuals, especially the ones that say to me: " What do YOU know...you are

skinny! " Then I show them what *I* KNOW! It's usually followed by a

gasp...and a friendlier attitude. MO or not, I'm still just *me* on the

inside, and will remain so. It still shocks me to see people I haven't seen

in over 3 years, and they don't know who I am! Just happened again Wednesday

night! I actually had to TELL him who I was. He was in disbelief! I told

him not to feel too badly, as his (very kind) mother had cut me dead last

time I saw her. I was CRUSHED, until my DH reminded me that I DO NOT look

like the same person. Inside me, I'm me...why can't they see it? Is that

why we are judged by our outward appearance? It's truly sad.

<A

HREF= " http://obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/bandafter.phtml?Member_ID=94748\

3760 " >My B4 & After Pics</A>

Regards~

Jacque

Distal RNY, 5/30/00

Drs. Fox and Oh

310~126

Beginning BMI 50.0

Current BMI 20.3

>

> I wonder if I'll always be " MO on the inside " .

>

> :

>

> God willing, you will always be MO on the inside. After 3 1/2 years, I

> still am and it keeps me humble. I don't ever want to forget where I

> came from. I keep a before picture on me in my pocketbook, not to show

> off to anyone, just to remind me from time to time how far I've come.

>

>

[Guest guest]

I returned to church last Sunday. I was attending another church for awhile,

then started working a new job that made it impossible to go to church.

Anyway it has been around 2 years since I have been there. So, I walked in

late, didn't get to interact much, B\but, AFTER, noone recognized me. Not one

person. It was strange.

I wish I was at the point where I could carry a before pic around, but I am not

there yet. I am single, and there are men up here I am interested in, but for

some reason I am afraid they will find out I had a gastric bypass and used to

weight 313lbs, (I started working here in Dec.) Noone except for one woman

knows what I used to look like.

I know, I know, how ridiculous. But, I am still chunky, about 40 lbs from goal

and therefore still feel fat. I was elated yesterday when I wore a pair of size

14

jeans to work and though they were tight, they weren't as tight as they were a

month ago when I bought them! These are the little victories I relish in now.

I am very proud of myself and think I look great in clothes. Still working on

accepting my new body, sagging flesh and all. But, I have a ways to go, but

am well past the halfway mark, so I will concentrate on feeling good about

that.

I think we are all doomed to feel fat, no matter what size. At least though, we

know we aren't as fat as we were!! I am better today than I was a year ago,

and will be even better a year from now!!

> I'm 3 years post, next month. I'm still MO, in my head and heart, and will

> likely remain so. I NEVER want to be viewed as one of those pompous

skinny

> women...I, too, carry a before picture of me. I DO show it to certain

> individuals, especially the ones that say to me: " What do YOU know...you

are

> skinny! " Then I show them what *I* KNOW! It's usually followed by a

> gasp...and a friendlier attitude. MO or not, I'm still just *me* on the

> inside, and will remain so. It still shocks me to see people I haven't seen

> in over 3 years, and they don't know who I am! Just happened again

Wednesday

> night! I actually had to TELL him who I was. He was in disbelief! I told

> him not to feel too badly, as his (very kind) mother had cut me dead last

> time I saw her. I was CRUSHED, until my DH reminded me that I DO NOT

look

> like the same person. Inside me, I'm me...why can't they see it? Is that

> why we are judged by our outward appearance? It's truly sad.

> <A

HREF= " http://obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/bandafter.phtml?Member_ID=Mi

ller947483760 " >My B4 & After Pics</A>

>

> Regards~

> Jacque

> Distal RNY, 5/30/00

> Drs. Fox and Oh

> 310~126

> Beginning BMI 50.0

> Current BMI 20.3

>

>

> >

> > I wonder if I'll always be " MO on the inside " .

> >

> > :

> >

> > God willing, you will always be MO on the inside. After 3 1/2 years, I

> > still am and it keeps me humble. I don't ever want to forget where I

> > came from. I keep a before picture on me in my pocketbook, not to show

> > off to anyone, just to remind me from time to time how far I've come.

> >

> >

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

I returned to church last Sunday. I was attending another church for awhile,

then started working a new job that made it impossible to go to church.

Anyway it has been around 2 years since I have been there. So, I walked in

late, didn't get to interact much, B\but, AFTER, noone recognized me. Not one

person. It was strange.

I wish I was at the point where I could carry a before pic around, but I am not

there yet. I am single, and there are men up here I am interested in, but for

some reason I am afraid they will find out I had a gastric bypass and used to

weight 313lbs, (I started working here in Dec.) Noone except for one woman

knows what I used to look like.

I know, I know, how ridiculous. But, I am still chunky, about 40 lbs from goal

and therefore still feel fat. I was elated yesterday when I wore a pair of size

14

jeans to work and though they were tight, they weren't as tight as they were a

month ago when I bought them! These are the little victories I relish in now.

I am very proud of myself and think I look great in clothes. Still working on

accepting my new body, sagging flesh and all. But, I have a ways to go, but

am well past the halfway mark, so I will concentrate on feeling good about

that.

I think we are all doomed to feel fat, no matter what size. At least though, we

know we aren't as fat as we were!! I am better today than I was a year ago,

and will be even better a year from now!!

> I'm 3 years post, next month. I'm still MO, in my head and heart, and will

> likely remain so. I NEVER want to be viewed as one of those pompous

skinny

> women...I, too, carry a before picture of me. I DO show it to certain

> individuals, especially the ones that say to me: " What do YOU know...you

are

> skinny! " Then I show them what *I* KNOW! It's usually followed by a

> gasp...and a friendlier attitude. MO or not, I'm still just *me* on the

> inside, and will remain so. It still shocks me to see people I haven't seen

> in over 3 years, and they don't know who I am! Just happened again

Wednesday

> night! I actually had to TELL him who I was. He was in disbelief! I told

> him not to feel too badly, as his (very kind) mother had cut me dead last

> time I saw her. I was CRUSHED, until my DH reminded me that I DO NOT

look

> like the same person. Inside me, I'm me...why can't they see it? Is that

> why we are judged by our outward appearance? It's truly sad.

> <A

HREF= " http://obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/bandafter.phtml?Member_ID=Mi

ller947483760 " >My B4 & After Pics</A>

>

> Regards~

> Jacque

> Distal RNY, 5/30/00

> Drs. Fox and Oh

> 310~126

> Beginning BMI 50.0

> Current BMI 20.3

>

>

> >

> > I wonder if I'll always be " MO on the inside " .

> >

> > :

> >

> > God willing, you will always be MO on the inside. After 3 1/2 years, I

> > still am and it keeps me humble. I don't ever want to forget where I

> > came from. I keep a before picture on me in my pocketbook, not to show

> > off to anyone, just to remind me from time to time how far I've come.

> >

> >

>

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