Re: Back to work, this is the tough part

[Guest guest]

Hugs, hugs and more hugs!!! I still have days when I go to wash my

face at night and I look at myself and think..whaattt????

Swollen???? I still can't feel half my face nor can I chew real

crunchy or chewy foods. I had no idea that recovery took this

long. We're here for you.-Nicki

> hi y'all

> (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to b*tch)

>

> So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio and

> tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open and

> work wednesday.

> As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker, specifically

a

> recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but talking is

how

> it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was 98%

> gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this stage

is

> more impt to me, functionality than form.

> It was a lot but I was handling it.

> THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking medical

> history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available 24/7

for

> dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense, more

> chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front of me

and

> the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other choice and

> wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as she

> raised me.

> I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation, when

> that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just the

> upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first one

to

> notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a visit.

So

> I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and last

> mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> however.

>

> this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

ouchie.

> sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same. sunday it

> lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at 9ish

> pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and my

upper

> lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try and

keep

> a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along or

> increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

already.

> I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for my

> future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

jeporady,

> literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back in

Deep-

> the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

>

> Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is that

I

> have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect healing

wise

> and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm, but I

am

> worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a kid,

> broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces for 1

> 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own

doing.

>

> I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get others

> thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really knows

about

> what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

trying

> to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to sometimes

(i.e.

> work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe each

other

> to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

interests

> of protecting my face/mouth...

> I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion, the

> everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it is

so

> hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in hours " to

> wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a night...it's

> just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> shoulders.

>

> I know some would say -let go of some of your responsibilities,

but

> that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am working on

a

> better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO ONE

else

> can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just is

that

> way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see the

> tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season up

here

> and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it is,

and

> I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug from

those

> who get it...thanks

>

> and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and it's

> only Tues!

> JO

[Guest guest]

Hugs, hugs and more hugs!!! I still have days when I go to wash my

face at night and I look at myself and think..whaattt????

Swollen???? I still can't feel half my face nor can I chew real

crunchy or chewy foods. I had no idea that recovery took this

long. We're here for you.-Nicki

> hi y'all

> (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to b*tch)

>

> So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio and

> tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open and

> work wednesday.

> As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker, specifically

a

> recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but talking is

how

> it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was 98%

> gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this stage

is

> more impt to me, functionality than form.

> It was a lot but I was handling it.

> THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking medical

> history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available 24/7

for

> dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense, more

> chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front of me

and

> the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other choice and

> wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as she

> raised me.

> I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation, when

> that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just the

> upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first one

to

> notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a visit.

So

> I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and last

> mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> however.

>

> this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

ouchie.

> sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same. sunday it

> lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at 9ish

> pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and my

upper

> lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try and

keep

> a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along or

> increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

already.

> I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for my

> future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

jeporady,

> literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back in

Deep-

> the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

>

> Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is that

I

> have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect healing

wise

> and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm, but I

am

> worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a kid,

> broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces for 1

> 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own

doing.

>

> I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get others

> thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really knows

about

> what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

trying

> to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to sometimes

(i.e.

> work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe each

other

> to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

interests

> of protecting my face/mouth...

> I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion, the

> everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it is

so

> hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in hours " to

> wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a night...it's

> just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> shoulders.

>

> I know some would say -let go of some of your responsibilities,

but

> that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am working on

a

> better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO ONE

else

> can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just is

that

> way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see the

> tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season up

here

> and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it is,

and

> I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug from

those

> who get it...thanks

>

> and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and it's

> only Tues!

> JO

[Guest guest]

Hey Jo,

We're here with you. I went through a lot of this too. There are a

lot of things you can NOT do to find some relaxation time. The first

thing crossed off my list was house cleaning, if my boyfriend wanted

something clean he was on his own, the second was anything that

resembled food preparation for others, I had my soup if anyone else

wants to eat let them order pizza or chinese. The same at work, if it

was not my job to do I am not doing it ( I am usally good about doing

little things that aren't my responsibility if I have the time and

resources) I also stopped answering my phone unless I knew from

caller ID that it was someone or something important, hey that's what

voice mail is for.

Last I have refused all social engagements for the past month. If my

friends and family do not understand that my recovery is more

important than someones birthday or Monday night football party, too

bad.

Try to take a hot bath at night or at least sit some where quiet with

some relaxing music and hold a heating pad to your face. Lean back,

close your eyes and clear your mind for 5 or 10 minutes. you would be

amazed at how this can relax and refresh you.

I know it is hard but try to find the time to relax everyday, this

will really help with the swelling brought on by fatigue, it will

also help the mental fatigue that I am sure you get now and then with

a schedule like yours.

Marsha

> hi y'all

> (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to b*tch)

>

> So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio and

> tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open and

> work wednesday.

> As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker, specifically a

> recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but talking is

how

> it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was 98%

> gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this stage is

> more impt to me, functionality than form.

> It was a lot but I was handling it.

> THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking medical

> history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available 24/7

for

> dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense, more

> chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front of me

and

> the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other choice and

> wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as she

> raised me.

> I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation, when

> that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just the

> upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first one

to

> notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a visit.

So

> I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and last

> mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> however.

>

> this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

ouchie.

> sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same. sunday it

> lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at 9ish

> pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and my

upper

> lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try and

keep

> a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along or

> increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

already.

> I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for my

> future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

jeporady,

> literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back in

Deep-

> the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

>

> Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is that

I

> have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect healing

wise

> and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm, but I

am

> worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a kid,

> broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces for 1

> 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own doing.

>

> I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get others

> thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really knows

about

> what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

trying

> to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to sometimes

(i.e.

> work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe each

other

> to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

interests

> of protecting my face/mouth...

> I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion, the

> everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it is so

> hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in hours " to

> wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a night...it's

> just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> shoulders.

>

> I know some would say -let go of some of your responsibilities, but

> that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am working on

a

> better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO ONE else

> can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just is

that

> way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see the

> tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season up here

> and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it is,

and

> I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug from

those

> who get it...thanks

>

> and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and it's

> only Tues!

> JO

[Guest guest]

Hey Jo,

We're here with you. I went through a lot of this too. There are a

lot of things you can NOT do to find some relaxation time. The first

thing crossed off my list was house cleaning, if my boyfriend wanted

something clean he was on his own, the second was anything that

resembled food preparation for others, I had my soup if anyone else

wants to eat let them order pizza or chinese. The same at work, if it

was not my job to do I am not doing it ( I am usally good about doing

little things that aren't my responsibility if I have the time and

resources) I also stopped answering my phone unless I knew from

caller ID that it was someone or something important, hey that's what

voice mail is for.

Last I have refused all social engagements for the past month. If my

friends and family do not understand that my recovery is more

important than someones birthday or Monday night football party, too

bad.

Try to take a hot bath at night or at least sit some where quiet with

some relaxing music and hold a heating pad to your face. Lean back,

close your eyes and clear your mind for 5 or 10 minutes. you would be

amazed at how this can relax and refresh you.

I know it is hard but try to find the time to relax everyday, this

will really help with the swelling brought on by fatigue, it will

also help the mental fatigue that I am sure you get now and then with

a schedule like yours.

Marsha

> hi y'all

> (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to b*tch)

>

> So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio and

> tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open and

> work wednesday.

> As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker, specifically a

> recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but talking is

how

> it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was 98%

> gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this stage is

> more impt to me, functionality than form.

> It was a lot but I was handling it.

> THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking medical

> history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available 24/7

for

> dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense, more

> chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front of me

and

> the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other choice and

> wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as she

> raised me.

> I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation, when

> that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just the

> upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first one

to

> notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a visit.

So

> I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and last

> mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> however.

>

> this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

ouchie.

> sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same. sunday it

> lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at 9ish

> pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and my

upper

> lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try and

keep

> a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along or

> increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

already.

> I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for my

> future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

jeporady,

> literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back in

Deep-

> the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

>

> Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is that

I

> have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect healing

wise

> and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm, but I

am

> worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a kid,

> broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces for 1

> 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own doing.

>

> I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get others

> thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really knows

about

> what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

trying

> to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to sometimes

(i.e.

> work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe each

other

> to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

interests

> of protecting my face/mouth...

> I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion, the

> everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it is so

> hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in hours " to

> wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a night...it's

> just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> shoulders.

>

> I know some would say -let go of some of your responsibilities, but

> that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am working on

a

> better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO ONE else

> can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just is

that

> way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see the

> tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season up here

> and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it is,

and

> I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug from

those

> who get it...thanks

>

> and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and it's

> only Tues!

> JO

[Guest guest]

MY BOB!

hi Nicki---thanks, what a day. By the time I got home last nt-I was

done.

My pallet was feeling funny and my upper stich-zone was throbbing, my

eye sockets were weird and my upper lip feels like 2 wks suddenly not

6.

I just need to be reminded that it's ok and I'll get thru ok...I

think all of the non-sense I can handle, but under it all, the pain

and swelling, I am just so scared really...scared that I will do

something to f-this up and have it NOT be a success long term and

find myself yrs from now doing " something " to correct things yrs from

now. I don't know how to feel confident that I am going to be ok long

term aside from talking with you all and going to the OR weekly for

reassurance and check ups.

How have you been?

I remember you were much ahead of me time line wise...how's the fam

too? Mine is just as intense as I wrote, but at least my G is feeling

better now and helping me help her.

Keep in touch ok. Missed you!

and thanks so much.

JO

> > hi y'all

> > (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to b*tch)

> >

> > So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio and

> > tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open and

> > work wednesday.

> > As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker, specifically

> a

> > recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but talking is

> how

> > it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was 98%

> > gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this stage

> is

> > more impt to me, functionality than form.

> > It was a lot but I was handling it.

> > THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking medical

> > history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available 24/7

> for

> > dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense, more

> > chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front of me

> and

> > the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> > not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other choice

and

> > wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as she

> > raised me.

> > I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation,

when

> > that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just the

> > upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first one

> to

> > notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a

visit.

> So

> > I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and

last

> > mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> > however.

> >

> > this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

> ouchie.

> > sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same. sunday it

> > lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at 9ish

> > pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and my

> upper

> > lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try and

> keep

> > a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along or

> > increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

> already.

> > I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> > aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for my

> > future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

> jeporady,

> > literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back in

> Deep-

> > the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

> >

> > Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is

that

> I

> > have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect healing

> wise

> > and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm, but

I

> am

> > worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a kid,

> > broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces for

1

> > 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own

> doing.

> >

> > I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get

others

> > thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really knows

> about

> > what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

> trying

> > to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to sometimes

> (i.e.

> > work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe each

> other

> > to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

> interests

> > of protecting my face/mouth...

> > I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion, the

> > everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it is

> so

> > hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in hours "

to

> > wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a night...it's

> > just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> > shoulders.

> >

> > I know some would say -let go of some of your responsibilities,

> but

> > that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am working

on

> a

> > better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO ONE

> else

> > can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just is

> that

> > way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see the

> > tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season up

> here

> > and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it is,

> and

> > I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> > that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug from

> those

> > who get it...thanks

> >

> > and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and it's

> > only Tues!

> > JO

[Guest guest]

MY BOB!

hi Nicki---thanks, what a day. By the time I got home last nt-I was

done.

My pallet was feeling funny and my upper stich-zone was throbbing, my

eye sockets were weird and my upper lip feels like 2 wks suddenly not

6.

I just need to be reminded that it's ok and I'll get thru ok...I

think all of the non-sense I can handle, but under it all, the pain

and swelling, I am just so scared really...scared that I will do

something to f-this up and have it NOT be a success long term and

find myself yrs from now doing " something " to correct things yrs from

now. I don't know how to feel confident that I am going to be ok long

term aside from talking with you all and going to the OR weekly for

reassurance and check ups.

How have you been?

I remember you were much ahead of me time line wise...how's the fam

too? Mine is just as intense as I wrote, but at least my G is feeling

better now and helping me help her.

Keep in touch ok. Missed you!

and thanks so much.

JO

> > hi y'all

> > (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to b*tch)

> >

> > So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio and

> > tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open and

> > work wednesday.

> > As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker, specifically

> a

> > recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but talking is

> how

> > it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was 98%

> > gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this stage

> is

> > more impt to me, functionality than form.

> > It was a lot but I was handling it.

> > THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking medical

> > history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available 24/7

> for

> > dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense, more

> > chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front of me

> and

> > the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> > not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other choice

and

> > wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as she

> > raised me.

> > I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation,

when

> > that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just the

> > upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first one

> to

> > notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a

visit.

> So

> > I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and

last

> > mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> > however.

> >

> > this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

> ouchie.

> > sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same. sunday it

> > lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at 9ish

> > pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and my

> upper

> > lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try and

> keep

> > a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along or

> > increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

> already.

> > I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> > aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for my

> > future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

> jeporady,

> > literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back in

> Deep-

> > the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

> >

> > Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is

that

> I

> > have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect healing

> wise

> > and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm, but

I

> am

> > worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a kid,

> > broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces for

1

> > 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own

> doing.

> >

> > I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get

others

> > thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really knows

> about

> > what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

> trying

> > to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to sometimes

> (i.e.

> > work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe each

> other

> > to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

> interests

> > of protecting my face/mouth...

> > I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion, the

> > everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it is

> so

> > hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in hours "

to

> > wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a night...it's

> > just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> > shoulders.

> >

> > I know some would say -let go of some of your responsibilities,

> but

> > that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am working

on

> a

> > better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO ONE

> else

> > can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just is

> that

> > way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see the

> > tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season up

> here

> > and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it is,

> and

> > I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> > that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug from

> those

> > who get it...thanks

> >

> > and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and it's

> > only Tues!

> > JO

[Guest guest]

Thanks Marsha,

good words indeed. I wish we had caller id here, but I am not afraid

to let something roll and call bk. I also try and group my calls

together, nothing too early and all at once...so I can shut up and

chill for longer periods.

I have been quiet with fam activities, aside from being the life

preserver that I am went to a nephews bday party...but laid back,

bbq style and that was nice---sorta social but not too much, no one

expected anything from me and when I got up, my niece or someone was

always stopping me, no, i'll get it! sweet. I did go out this past

sat nt, but only for a few hrs and to see a band, no talking in a

loud place and sat down the whole time, that was great...best of both

worlds...It helped me get " out " again...I'm getting those um-hmm. not

sure looks from many who knew me before...I like keeping them

confused, I wait for them to recall why I look diff, I had the surg,

your job to recall and notice if you will at all! it's not

for " them " it was and is for me

I keep trying to be selfish...but it's so not like me. I would clean

my kitty's box before sitting for 5 minutes for me...(ps-been doing

so with a light mask since 3 wks post-op when I got my " duty "

back...my fiance really doens't do well with the box...everything

else, he is great, so I took this one bk, but safely I thought!)

I am using some heat either at nt or morning...helps...and overall I

just need to take it easy and go for my weekly apts and talk with

people like you and my-sponge-bob to remind me I'm normal amongst

you guys-and YOU understand.

Thanks and keep on trucking with your things.........as to our

jobs...hey screw them! We're terrific when and only when they think

so?? HA! WRONG. we're great and if they can't recognize the true

reach of our talents....too bad, so sad for them. They will cry when

we move on...they always do

---hay where do you live and what's your niche? maybe I can get you a

few names to help your search--not for any fee or anything sleezy,

jut to help!!

Let me know, JO

> > hi y'all

> > (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to b*tch)

> >

> > So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio and

> > tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open and

> > work wednesday.

> > As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker, specifically

a

> > recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but talking is

> how

> > it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was 98%

> > gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this stage

is

> > more impt to me, functionality than form.

> > It was a lot but I was handling it.

> > THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking medical

> > history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available 24/7

> for

> > dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense, more

> > chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front of me

> and

> > the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> > not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other choice

and

> > wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as she

> > raised me.

> > I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation,

when

> > that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just the

> > upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first one

> to

> > notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a

visit.

> So

> > I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and

last

> > mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> > however.

> >

> > this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

> ouchie.

> > sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same. sunday it

> > lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at 9ish

> > pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and my

> upper

> > lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try and

> keep

> > a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along or

> > increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

> already.

> > I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> > aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for my

> > future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

> jeporady,

> > literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back in

> Deep-

> > the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

> >

> > Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is

that

> I

> > have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect healing

> wise

> > and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm, but

I

> am

> > worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a kid,

> > broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces for

1

> > 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own

doing.

> >

> > I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get

others

> > thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really knows

> about

> > what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

> trying

> > to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to sometimes

> (i.e.

> > work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe each

> other

> > to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

> interests

> > of protecting my face/mouth...

> > I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion, the

> > everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it is

so

> > hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in hours "

to

> > wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a night...it's

> > just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> > shoulders.

> >

> > I know some would say -let go of some of your responsibilities,

but

> > that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am working

on

> a

> > better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO ONE

else

> > can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just is

> that

> > way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see the

> > tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season up

here

> > and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it is,

> and

> > I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> > that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug from

> those

> > who get it...thanks

> >

> > and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and it's

> > only Tues!

> > JO

[Guest guest]

Thanks Marsha,

good words indeed. I wish we had caller id here, but I am not afraid

to let something roll and call bk. I also try and group my calls

together, nothing too early and all at once...so I can shut up and

chill for longer periods.

I have been quiet with fam activities, aside from being the life

preserver that I am went to a nephews bday party...but laid back,

bbq style and that was nice---sorta social but not too much, no one

expected anything from me and when I got up, my niece or someone was

always stopping me, no, i'll get it! sweet. I did go out this past

sat nt, but only for a few hrs and to see a band, no talking in a

loud place and sat down the whole time, that was great...best of both

worlds...It helped me get " out " again...I'm getting those um-hmm. not

sure looks from many who knew me before...I like keeping them

confused, I wait for them to recall why I look diff, I had the surg,

your job to recall and notice if you will at all! it's not

for " them " it was and is for me

I keep trying to be selfish...but it's so not like me. I would clean

my kitty's box before sitting for 5 minutes for me...(ps-been doing

so with a light mask since 3 wks post-op when I got my " duty "

back...my fiance really doens't do well with the box...everything

else, he is great, so I took this one bk, but safely I thought!)

I am using some heat either at nt or morning...helps...and overall I

just need to take it easy and go for my weekly apts and talk with

people like you and my-sponge-bob to remind me I'm normal amongst

you guys-and YOU understand.

Thanks and keep on trucking with your things.........as to our

jobs...hey screw them! We're terrific when and only when they think

so?? HA! WRONG. we're great and if they can't recognize the true

reach of our talents....too bad, so sad for them. They will cry when

we move on...they always do

---hay where do you live and what's your niche? maybe I can get you a

few names to help your search--not for any fee or anything sleezy,

jut to help!!

Let me know, JO

> > hi y'all

> > (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to b*tch)

> >

> > So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio and

> > tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open and

> > work wednesday.

> > As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker, specifically

a

> > recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but talking is

> how

> > it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was 98%

> > gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this stage

is

> > more impt to me, functionality than form.

> > It was a lot but I was handling it.

> > THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking medical

> > history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available 24/7

> for

> > dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense, more

> > chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front of me

> and

> > the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> > not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other choice

and

> > wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as she

> > raised me.

> > I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation,

when

> > that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just the

> > upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first one

> to

> > notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a

visit.

> So

> > I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and

last

> > mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> > however.

> >

> > this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

> ouchie.

> > sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same. sunday it

> > lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at 9ish

> > pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and my

> upper

> > lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try and

> keep

> > a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along or

> > increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

> already.

> > I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> > aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for my

> > future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

> jeporady,

> > literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back in

> Deep-

> > the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

> >

> > Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is

that

> I

> > have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect healing

> wise

> > and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm, but

I

> am

> > worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a kid,

> > broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces for

1

> > 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own

doing.

> >

> > I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get

others

> > thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really knows

> about

> > what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

> trying

> > to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to sometimes

> (i.e.

> > work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe each

> other

> > to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

> interests

> > of protecting my face/mouth...

> > I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion, the

> > everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it is

so

> > hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in hours "

to

> > wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a night...it's

> > just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> > shoulders.

> >

> > I know some would say -let go of some of your responsibilities,

but

> > that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am working

on

> a

> > better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO ONE

else

> > can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just is

> that

> > way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see the

> > tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season up

here

> > and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it is,

> and

> > I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> > that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug from

> those

> > who get it...thanks

> >

> > and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and it's

> > only Tues!

> > JO

[Guest guest]

Hi Jo,

Hey thanks for the offer, I am in Pittsburgh, I'm in marketing and

I'm bilingual (Spanish) which you would think would be a big plus but

not here. I'll have my bachelors degree at the end of this school

year, so I am thinking of actively starting to look for something in

January, but if I come accidentally come across something before

then, I'll take it. Any contacts would be welcome.

Marsha

> > > hi y'all

> > > (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to b*tch)

> > >

> > > So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio and

> > > tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open

and

> > > work wednesday.

> > > As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker,

specifically

> a

> > > recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but talking

is

> > how

> > > it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was

98%

> > > gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this

stage

> is

> > > more impt to me, functionality than form.

> > > It was a lot but I was handling it.

> > > THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking medical

> > > history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available

24/7

> > for

> > > dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense,

more

> > > chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front of

me

> > and

> > > the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> > > not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other choice

> and

> > > wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as

she

> > > raised me.

> > > I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation,

> when

> > > that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just

the

> > > upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first

one

> > to

> > > notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a

> visit.

> > So

> > > I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and

> last

> > > mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> > > however.

> > >

> > > this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

> > ouchie.

> > > sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same. sunday

it

> > > lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at 9ish

> > > pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and my

> > upper

> > > lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try

and

> > keep

> > > a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along

or

> > > increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

> > already.

> > > I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> > > aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for my

> > > future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

> > jeporady,

> > > literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back in

> > Deep-

> > > the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

> > >

> > > Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is

> that

> > I

> > > have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect

healing

> > wise

> > > and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm,

but

> I

> > am

> > > worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a

kid,

> > > broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces

for

> 1

> > > 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own

> doing.

> > >

> > > I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get

> others

> > > thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really knows

> > about

> > > what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

> > trying

> > > to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to sometimes

> > (i.e.

> > > work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe each

> > other

> > > to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

> > interests

> > > of protecting my face/mouth...

> > > I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion,

the

> > > everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it

is

> so

> > > hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in hours "

> to

> > > wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a

night...it's

> > > just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> > > shoulders.

> > >

> > > I know some would say -let go of some of your responsibilities,

> but

> > > that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am working

> on

> > a

> > > better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO ONE

> else

> > > can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just is

> > that

> > > way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see the

> > > tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season up

> here

> > > and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it

is,

> > and

> > > I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> > > that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug from

> > those

> > > who get it...thanks

> > >

> > > and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and

it's

> > > only Tues!

> > > JO

[Guest guest]

Hi Jo,

Hey thanks for the offer, I am in Pittsburgh, I'm in marketing and

I'm bilingual (Spanish) which you would think would be a big plus but

not here. I'll have my bachelors degree at the end of this school

year, so I am thinking of actively starting to look for something in

January, but if I come accidentally come across something before

then, I'll take it. Any contacts would be welcome.

Marsha

> > > hi y'all

> > > (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to b*tch)

> > >

> > > So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio and

> > > tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open

and

> > > work wednesday.

> > > As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker,

specifically

> a

> > > recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but talking

is

> > how

> > > it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was

98%

> > > gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this

stage

> is

> > > more impt to me, functionality than form.

> > > It was a lot but I was handling it.

> > > THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking medical

> > > history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available

24/7

> > for

> > > dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense,

more

> > > chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front of

me

> > and

> > > the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> > > not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other choice

> and

> > > wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as

she

> > > raised me.

> > > I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation,

> when

> > > that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just

the

> > > upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first

one

> > to

> > > notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a

> visit.

> > So

> > > I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and

> last

> > > mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> > > however.

> > >

> > > this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

> > ouchie.

> > > sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same. sunday

it

> > > lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at 9ish

> > > pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and my

> > upper

> > > lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try

and

> > keep

> > > a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along

or

> > > increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

> > already.

> > > I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> > > aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for my

> > > future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

> > jeporady,

> > > literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back in

> > Deep-

> > > the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

> > >

> > > Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is

> that

> > I

> > > have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect

healing

> > wise

> > > and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm,

but

> I

> > am

> > > worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a

kid,

> > > broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces

for

> 1

> > > 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own

> doing.

> > >

> > > I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get

> others

> > > thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really knows

> > about

> > > what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

> > trying

> > > to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to sometimes

> > (i.e.

> > > work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe each

> > other

> > > to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

> > interests

> > > of protecting my face/mouth...

> > > I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion,

the

> > > everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it

is

> so

> > > hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in hours "

> to

> > > wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a

night...it's

> > > just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> > > shoulders.

> > >

> > > I know some would say -let go of some of your responsibilities,

> but

> > > that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am working

> on

> > a

> > > better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO ONE

> else

> > > can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just is

> > that

> > > way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see the

> > > tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season up

> here

> > > and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it

is,

> > and

> > > I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> > > that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug from

> > those

> > > who get it...thanks

> > >

> > > and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and

it's

> > > only Tues!

> > > JO

[Guest guest]

Boy, NY is missing out on you!

I will check around and let you know...hang in there! JO

> > > > hi y'all

> > > > (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to

b*tch)

> > > >

> > > > So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio

and

> > > > tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open

> and

> > > > work wednesday.

> > > > As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker,

> specifically

> > a

> > > > recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but

talking

> is

> > > how

> > > > it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was

> 98%

> > > > gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this

> stage

> > is

> > > > more impt to me, functionality than form.

> > > > It was a lot but I was handling it.

> > > > THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking

medical

> > > > history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available

> 24/7

> > > for

> > > > dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense,

> more

> > > > chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front

of

> me

> > > and

> > > > the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> > > > not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other

choice

> > and

> > > > wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as

> she

> > > > raised me.

> > > > I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation,

> > when

> > > > that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just

> the

> > > > upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first

> one

> > > to

> > > > notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a

> > visit.

> > > So

> > > > I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and

> > last

> > > > mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> > > > however.

> > > >

> > > > this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

> > > ouchie.

> > > > sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same.

sunday

> it

> > > > lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at

9ish

> > > > pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and

my

> > > upper

> > > > lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try

> and

> > > keep

> > > > a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along

> or

> > > > increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

> > > already.

> > > > I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> > > > aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for

my

> > > > future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

> > > jeporady,

> > > > literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back

in

> > > Deep-

> > > > the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

> > > >

> > > > Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is

> > that

> > > I

> > > > have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect

> healing

> > > wise

> > > > and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm,

> but

> > I

> > > am

> > > > worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a

> kid,

> > > > broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces

> for

> > 1

> > > > 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own

> > doing.

> > > >

> > > > I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get

> > others

> > > > thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really

knows

> > > about

> > > > what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

> > > trying

> > > > to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to

sometimes

> > > (i.e.

> > > > work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe

each

> > > other

> > > > to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

> > > interests

> > > > of protecting my face/mouth...

> > > > I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion,

> the

> > > > everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it

> is

> > so

> > > > hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in

hours "

> > to

> > > > wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a

> night...it's

> > > > just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> > > > shoulders.

> > > >

> > > > I know some would say -let go of some of your

responsibilities,

> > but

> > > > that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am

working

> > on

> > > a

> > > > better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO

ONE

> > else

> > > > can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just

is

> > > that

> > > > way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see

the

> > > > tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season

up

> > here

> > > > and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it

> is,

> > > and

> > > > I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> > > > that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug

from

> > > those

> > > > who get it...thanks

> > > >

> > > > and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and

> it's

> > > > only Tues!

> > > > JO

[Guest guest]

Boy, NY is missing out on you!

I will check around and let you know...hang in there! JO

> > > > hi y'all

> > > > (I need to vent and know I'm not alone in this, sorry to

b*tch)

> > > >

> > > > So I went back 3 wks, 2 days post-op. I was upper and genio

and

> > > > tightly banded until 3 wks exactly -mon nt, I spent Tues open

> and

> > > > work wednesday.

> > > > As those of you who know me -you know I am a talker,

> specifically

> > a

> > > > recruiter and talk for my living...sure email too, but

talking

> is

> > > how

> > > > it all gets " done " . So I came bk, tired mostly...swelling was

> 98%

> > > > gone and I felt good and didn't feel swollen-which at this

> stage

> > is

> > > > more impt to me, functionality than form.

> > > > It was a lot but I was handling it.

> > > > THen I had a family illness, for whom I am the walking

medical

> > > > history and caregiver...I jumped into gear and was available

> 24/7

> > > for

> > > > dr/rn/hosp and so on...so my days got longer, more intense,

> more

> > > > chatty and more emotional as her life was dangling in front

of

> me

> > > and

> > > > the decisions I was to make would gretly impact her living or

> > > > not...but again, handled it pretty good. I had no other

choice

> > and

> > > > wouldn't pass off this resp if I could...I owe her my life as

> she

> > > > raised me.

> > > > I was 1 1/2 wk bk to work, 1 wk into her emergancy situation,

> > when

> > > > that sat I poufed up a bit, felt stiff and ouchie...not just

> the

> > > > upper lip a bit but cheeks on the apple too-she was the first

> one

> > > to

> > > > notice too ironically and sent me home in 15 minutes from a

> > visit.

> > > So

> > > > I relaxed and tried not to talk, slept a lot that weekend and

> > last

> > > > mon was ok when I got bk to work............

> > > > however.

> > > >

> > > > this past week, week 5 +...by Fri I was a little swollen adn

> > > ouchie.

> > > > sat it didn't chill out much-basically stayed the same.

sunday

> it

> > > > lessened a bit, but last nt walking in after a long day at

9ish

> > > > pm...I was over the top...PAIN and my cheeks were poufed and

my

> > > upper

> > > > lip was just beyond-felt like week 2 almost. All along I try

> and

> > > keep

> > > > a good attitude bec I know my mental state will help me along

> or

> > > > increase pain sometimes, but you know OUCH!!! and BUMMER!!!

> > > already.

> > > > I know this is happening bec of MY LIFE DEMANDS and that's so

> > > > aggravating to me. I did this-surgery to be good to me, for

my

> > > > future...and as soon as I was done, job was/is suddenly in

> > > jeporady,

> > > > literally life was in my hands with my family and I was back

in

> > > Deep-

> > > > the shelter I formed was gone and now I am feeling it.

> > > >

> > > > Just about the only thing that keeps me from freaking out, is

> > that

> > > I

> > > > have been going to the OR weekly and he says I'm perfect

> healing

> > > wise

> > > > and only feeling this way from talking and overuse. no harm,

> but

> > I

> > > am

> > > > worried...I have been through SOOOO much-braces 13 yrs as a

> kid,

> > > > broken jaw wired in college from an accident, and now braces

> for

> > 1

> > > > 1/2yr and this surg...I don't want any damage-esp from my own

> > doing.

> > > >

> > > > I am so sorry to complain a bit...after all I prefer to get

> > others

> > > > thru their tough times, but no one outside of here really

knows

> > > about

> > > > what it is like and damn it, I am frustrated and upset and SO

> > > trying

> > > > to do it all-because I have to-not even bec I want to

sometimes

> > > (i.e.

> > > > work-which I am seeking a solution for-not family, we owe

each

> > > other

> > > > to help out-it's family!)...and trying to preserve my self

> > > interests

> > > > of protecting my face/mouth...

> > > > I dealt with the intense pain, the discomfort, the seclusion,

> the

> > > > everything ok, but now I have to focus on other things and it

> is

> > so

> > > > hard. I even had to ask the OR " what's a normal night in

hours "

> > to

> > > > wear the bands bec I don't usually get 8 hrs sleep a

> night...it's

> > > > just this crazy NY style life I have, go go go it's all on my

> > > > shoulders.

> > > >

> > > > I know some would say -let go of some of your

responsibilities,

> > but

> > > > that's not a possibility right now, need to work and am

working

> > on

> > > a

> > > > better tomorrow with that, can't push off the family as NO

ONE

> > else

> > > > can do the simplest things I do (not to be that way, it just

is

> > > that

> > > > way), and gee, what I can push off I am-like you should see

the

> > > > tumble-dog and tumble-cat on my rug it's shedding season

up

> > here

> > > > and vacuuming is something I CAN push off....so that's how it

> is,

> > > and

> > > > I just want to know that I'm not alone...

> > > > that I am not doing harm...I think I might just need a hug

from

> > > those

> > > > who get it...thanks

> > > >

> > > > and so sorry to be So wordy today, it's been a long week and

> it's

> > > > only Tues!

> > > > JO