Food is not my friend but sugar withdrawl is a Bitch!

February 16, 2003

You would think with having the RNY I would not want sugar! Well

wrong I don't dump on it at all unless I consume massive amounts and

drink a ton of water with it. So here's the problem since I don't

dump and have tried to go off it cold turkey I can't. Anybody been

able to quit cold turkey? The withdrawl symptoms are hell I can't

function if I don't eat any sugar. I tried drinking protein shakes

that just makes the cravings worse because of the protein breakdown

in my body. I told you all about the cravings after eating grilled

chicken. My surgeon thinks some of this is due to food getting into

my lower stomach because of the fistula. I don't know about that

seems I have always had a problem with the way my body breaks down

protein and the insulin release. I am just one of those people who

have to get through the withdrawl and then try to keep from eating

any sugar. The problem is with this addiction sugar is in

everything it is hidden sometimes and you don't even know it and the

withdrawl is so bad that I can't do it. I could probally do it if I

could lay in bed all week it is going to finally happen when I do

have my fistula fixed in May because I have to start all over with

eating so I will be forced to do it. I am just so afraid that I

will keep gaining more weight until then. I have to wait until May

well want to wait until May for several reasons. I just wish I

never would've tried a little here and there. I started eating it

like crazy after my grandpa died March 30, 2001 and haven't been

able to quit since. My surgeon did such a good job of putting the

fear into us on how much it would make us sick that I didn't try it

before then. Like someone else said in this group you never want to

try it again or you will be always craving it. I wish I would've

listened I am in my own self imposed hell and I want out.

Kristy

February 16, 2003