Be happy for me, not jealous!

January 25, 2004

Okay, I am so glad I found this group, I have so many things to ask.

Did any of you get resistance from your friends and family.

The only person that is " supportive " for me is my husband, and he is

worried about the surgery. My closest friend told me not to do it,

she said I shouldn't because it is elective. Well, if you mean by

electing to live, I guess you could call it whatever you want. So I

can't and won't talk to her. As far as she knows, I was declined

because of my insurance. I did not tell her that I will appeal. She

is about 40lbs over wt and I am scared to think that she may just be

jealous that I will one day be thinner that her. I think that is

kinda funny because I am more than 100lbs heavier than her now!

The hardest part is my family. I thought when I told my mom that I

was going to pursue this, she would be happy for me. Instead she was

upset. She doesn't want me to have it because of my younger sister.

She is afraid that I would hurt her feelings! I guess she assumes I

should sacrafice my health. I don't know, but it really hurt.

My younger sister, I love her so much. If I had to choose between me

and her I would choose her, not because she needs it anymore than me,

but because I love her sooo much. I just feel guilty when I talk to

her, because I know I have a better shot at WLS than her and I know

how badly she wants it. I really want it for my health. She is a

little more vain and I know she probably is most interested in being

thin. Not that I think that is bad. I mean I will be able to breath

and walk without difficulty (among other things). She will be able

to look in the mirror and smile. I don't know which one is better?

If I acutally get my appeal, I don't know how to tell her... I wish

I could just hide the wt loss Or find a way for her to get it too.

anyone with similar situations?

January 25, 2004