I have to air out my frustrations......

December 28, 2003

I am 7 weeks post op. I cannot eat anything. I have my fluids and

SOME soft foods. EVERYTHING I try to put in my mouth I get a big

ball in my stomach or I get sick. Today I tried one bite of tuna-

sick. Next meal two tiny bites baked chicken and a few bites of

mashed potatos..... sick to my stomach. This has been going on and

that is all I have eaten today. So today besides vitamins all I have

had is water.I am not eating too much because I cant even get

started. I am tired of food and I just want to not eat. I want to

just drink. I know that sounds crazy and my Mom and Dr will not have

that. It is all I want to do. Some days I lie to my Mom and tell her

I have eaten when I really havent. I do not regret having the

surgery. I am just frustrated and tired. I know this has to end at

some point. Temperance is the key for me. The weird part is that I

am not really hungry but I know I have to eat. I know I am not

getting enough nutrition even with the vitamins. UGH!!!!! Am I doing

something wrong? There has to be something I can eat right? Is this

normal....heck, am I normal? I just want to scream. Sorry but I had

to air this out so I could sleep for once this week. I dont mean to

sound so unhappy. I do love life and I am happy that I had WLS. I

WILL get over this hump.

Thank You for Reading,

G.

11-12-03

Lap RNY

Park Place Hospital

Houston,Texas

Dr Hadgar Spivak

December 28, 2003