: An Angel is always watching over Al - Vera

November 11, 2002

Hello Aussie Ann #2

I think it's great to beable to keep your X-ray's. I have some of Fred's from

way back when, but most places here want them back. I really feel that we

should beable to keep them , plus report's from the doctor's , so we can have

them when we need them. I no longer have a file on me from my past health

records. The record were suppose to be sent to my new doctor when the place I

went to before went out of business and closed their door's, but I just found

out that they weren't sent on and now I can't get them because they were

burned. I'm sure glad my records haven't been that many and most of the stuff

I can remember.

I'm glad that Al has an angel watching over him all the time and I'm sure the

angel worked hard to get it's wings. I know Fred's had to.

Right now Fred is worrying about the same thing over and over again. He just

can't let it rest. The thing is that Fred was the oldest of 6 kids until his

mother married Ray and had his younger sister Pam. Fred went into the service

so he could help support the family, he also sold his car and sent the money

home, so his brother and sister's could eat. Since Fred has gotten sick , his

mother has been in denial about it. Fred showed sign's of the MSA a year

before he was on any of the med's, but his mother and step dad is sure that

he'd be just fine if he went off of it. This has been going on for since 98

when Fred was DX. I get no help from them at all. Often they tell us " We

like to help but! " For only a small three letter word, it tell's me alot.

Fred is now worrying about his funeral. We had the plot's for awhile, but his

worrying about the casket & etc. He feels that his family owe's this to him ,

from when he supported them years ago. His wanted to call and ask them about

it and I asked him not to, I could take care of it ( I knew what the answer

would be) but one day when I went to the store, he called and asked them

about it. Of course the answer was no they couldn't do it and now Fred's

feeling are hurt. He feels he was there for them and they let him down. His

one sister Donna heard about what was going on and came down and took him to

take care of the rest of the service for him , wanting him not to worry and

give me some peace, but now he want's to call his family again to get them to

pay Donna back and his still feels hurt because the other's weren't there for

him. Tomorrow he want's to write a letter to tell them just how he feels.

About the only thing it will do is let them know how he feel's , it's not

going to change anything. I wish they would of just told him that they would

take care of things when the time came and then I would of taken care of

things then. Just so he wouldn't worry anymore, but they didn't and I don't

know what to do to keep him from doing this to himself. The stress isn't good

for him, but what can you do when they are causing it? Thing is if he writes

his mother and tell's her how he feels, he'll then feel bad because he did

and then will worry about that. It seem's to be a snowball that keeps getting

bigger and bigger. I just wish it would melt.

Sorry I'm bending your ear. Just guess I had to talk about it. Most of the

time I'm a happy camper, but sometime things can get you down.

TakeCare Vera

November 11, 2002