Guest guest Posted November 25, 2007 Report Share Posted November 25, 2007 Hi Jackie , You are talking to the "Queen" of depression here. After the first year I was sick, I was going from dr. to dr. to dr. , feeling like the old saying "like a Mack truck ran over me and also having a huge 3cm high x 10cm long subcutaneous plaque on my arm. I felt like none of the drs. knew what to do with me and just kept passing me on from one specialist to another. They were giving me all kinds of "educated guesses" but no firm diagnosis, so they felt like they couldn't start any treatment until they knew what it was. I finally found a dermatologist who did a biopsy and found that it was sarcoidosis. After all the mental stress and not much support from husband, family and friends. They totally denied it and either stayed away from me or acted like I was too "dramatic", like Tracie and Judy had said, "I would get over it". I felt into a deep depression and also became suicidal. It all built up and came to a head one day and I just couldn't handle it anymore and broke down. My sister-in-law (who had been in the same major depression before) , took over and drove me to the ER where they evaluated me and sent me to a mental health hospital . I was diagnosed there with a severe case of major depression and anxiety. They had a psychiatrist take my case and while I was there , he set up a medication plan. They also taught me different methods on how to deal with what I was feeling. As Judy said , I felt so glad that I went there and did not regret it at all. I also met a friend and we still keep in touch for going on 4 yrs. now. We can talk about our feelings and keep a support line. I have been seeing that same psychiatrist for 4 yrs now and every now and then when I start feeling like I am sliding downhill again into that state of major depression an anxiety , he may have to "tweak" my medication. I also see a therapist who is great and really listens and helps me to deal with my state. So I agree with Tracie and Judy, you should go straight to the hospital and explain what's going on. Once they hear that you are suicidal, they will definitely take good care of you and either keep you there or send you somewhere where they can help you. I hope this might help you, and I hope you find the assistance that you need. Keep in touch with this group and you will find a great deal of support here also. Hugs, Debbie T. Co-Moderator mydynasty40 wrote: Hi all it is JACKE again. I need some one or a lot of someones to listen and help, if you can.The last week has been so depressing for me. I can honestly say I am ready to die. Depression has set in so deep that I don't know what to do. I hurt all the time, am dizzy so much and the headaches are almost constant. I have been to the Neruoligist and he said to watch it and let him know if it gets worse. Hell with worse this is terrible. I know I sound like a complainer but You all know how this thing gets to you. Maybe the fact that I haven't seen my children in a month or so, or anyone else for that matter. I take wet and well classes and have a constant companion. He tries so hard to be supportive. Maybe too supportive. I feel closed in and alone. I can't do anything because of the pain and dizziness so why should I try or care? You see I am depressed. At least I know it and am asking for help, some advise. I want to see a therapist but then my companion feels he is not doing his job and I don't want to hurt him. I want to talk to family, children or sister, but I don't want to worry them. They are not without their own problems. So Please someone, anyone tell me what to do. I am so sad again and I hate it. I am sorry for the self-pity you are reading but Oh well, we all go there don't we? Waiting for a response from someone.Thank youJackie~~~~ *** ~~~ *** ~~~ *** ~~~~The Neurosarcoidosis CommunityNS CHAT:- FAITH CHAT: SUNDAY 4PM-5PM EASTERN TIME CHATROOM LINK: http://www.emxpc.net/chat/index.php Message Archives:-http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Neurosarcoidosis/messagesMembers Database:-Listings of locations, phone numbers, and instant messengers.http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Neurosarcoidosis/database Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 25, 2007 Report Share Posted November 25, 2007 Hi Jackie , You are talking to the "Queen" of depression here. After the first year I was sick, I was going from dr. to dr. to dr. , feeling like the old saying "like a Mack truck ran over me and also having a huge 3cm high x 10cm long subcutaneous plaque on my arm. I felt like none of the drs. knew what to do with me and just kept passing me on from one specialist to another. They were giving me all kinds of "educated guesses" but no firm diagnosis, so they felt like they couldn't start any treatment until they knew what it was. I finally found a dermatologist who did a biopsy and found that it was sarcoidosis. After all the mental stress and not much support from husband, family and friends. They totally denied it and either stayed away from me or acted like I was too "dramatic", like Tracie and Judy had said, "I would get over it". I felt into a deep depression and also became suicidal. It all built up and came to a head one day and I just couldn't handle it anymore and broke down. My sister-in-law (who had been in the same major depression before) , took over and drove me to the ER where they evaluated me and sent me to a mental health hospital . I was diagnosed there with a severe case of major depression and anxiety. They had a psychiatrist take my case and while I was there , he set up a medication plan. They also taught me different methods on how to deal with what I was feeling. As Judy said , I felt so glad that I went there and did not regret it at all. I also met a friend and we still keep in touch for going on 4 yrs. now. We can talk about our feelings and keep a support line. I have been seeing that same psychiatrist for 4 yrs now and every now and then when I start feeling like I am sliding downhill again into that state of major depression an anxiety , he may have to "tweak" my medication. I also see a therapist who is great and really listens and helps me to deal with my state. So I agree with Tracie and Judy, you should go straight to the hospital and explain what's going on. Once they hear that you are suicidal, they will definitely take good care of you and either keep you there or send you somewhere where they can help you. I hope this might help you, and I hope you find the assistance that you need. Keep in touch with this group and you will find a great deal of support here also. Hugs, Debbie T. Co-Moderator mydynasty40 wrote: Hi all it is JACKE again. I need some one or a lot of someones to listen and help, if you can.The last week has been so depressing for me. I can honestly say I am ready to die. Depression has set in so deep that I don't know what to do. I hurt all the time, am dizzy so much and the headaches are almost constant. I have been to the Neruoligist and he said to watch it and let him know if it gets worse. Hell with worse this is terrible. I know I sound like a complainer but You all know how this thing gets to you. Maybe the fact that I haven't seen my children in a month or so, or anyone else for that matter. I take wet and well classes and have a constant companion. He tries so hard to be supportive. Maybe too supportive. I feel closed in and alone. I can't do anything because of the pain and dizziness so why should I try or care? You see I am depressed. At least I know it and am asking for help, some advise. I want to see a therapist but then my companion feels he is not doing his job and I don't want to hurt him. I want to talk to family, children or sister, but I don't want to worry them. They are not without their own problems. So Please someone, anyone tell me what to do. I am so sad again and I hate it. I am sorry for the self-pity you are reading but Oh well, we all go there don't we? Waiting for a response from someone.Thank youJackie~~~~ *** ~~~ *** ~~~ *** ~~~~The Neurosarcoidosis CommunityNS CHAT:- FAITH CHAT: SUNDAY 4PM-5PM EASTERN TIME CHATROOM LINK: http://www.emxpc.net/chat/index.php Message Archives:-http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Neurosarcoidosis/messagesMembers Database:-Listings of locations, phone numbers, and instant messengers.http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Neurosarcoidosis/database Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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