News from the slough of despond

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Message: 5

Date: Sun, 26 Aug 2001 06:49:21 -0000

Subject: NAN

> Nan E (mired in a slough of despond, but hanging in there)

NAN!!

What's wrong?? Can we help?? How're you feeling?

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Big Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Liane

Thanks for asking Liane-- aside from the nasty tooth ache, the

antibiotics for it and the prospect of a $700 dental bill for the root

canal (and that's WITH insurance!), the kitty that was put down for a

tumor in her throat at a ripe old 14 years, the incision that still isn't

healed (12 weeks out from panni) and the lack of a DS date, the fact that

I gained back half of the weight I lost not eating in the hospital, and

the fact that I still have arthritic knees and can't exercise, not much

is going on. Can't figure out why I am depressed, can you? Maybe it was

the broken ice maker in the fridge that I had to get a repair guy to fix

because my brother was too busy to do it (just a tube needed replacing),

or maybe the broken spring on the garage door that the Land lady can't be

bothered with, or maybe the fact that I don't seem to be able to get to

work the three days I planned because I keep falling over in a nap

attack. My brain has these plans that my physiology keeps interfering

with, ya know?

I am just flat out of patience with waiting around-- nothing is going to

really change for me until I get the BIG surgery, which is what I was out

for when Dr. A side lined me with the Panni (the use of which I was

dubious about in the first place, but whatever he says, I will go along

with if it gets me closer to a safe switch procedure.) >>big sigh>> I'm

just so blasted tired of laying around and taking drugs and being no

closer to a more normal weight than I was when I started this process.

See! this is a slough of despond if there ever was one.! a date would

help a lot. I am looking forward to having dinner with some of the USC

ds bunch on Tuesday for a shot of post-op optimism. (of course, I will

be fresh from the dentist's chair and lord knows what shape the tooth

will be in.... I can see the cloud in any silver lining just now>) I am

so tired of hearing this incessant whining inside my head, too! Geez

Louise! This really isn't like me, I usually snap out of this sort of

stuff. I think I have lost my sense of humor some where in this

slough--quick, somebody, say something funny!

Nan E. ( considering a food binge, just to see if it changes something.

Nah. it is too hot to cook and there isn't anything fun in the house--

dang, this is serious if food isn't gonna help!!)

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Message: 5

Date: Sun, 26 Aug 2001 06:49:21 -0000

Subject: NAN

> Nan E (mired in a slough of despond, but hanging in there)

NAN!!

What's wrong?? Can we help?? How're you feeling?

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Big Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Liane

Thanks for asking Liane-- aside from the nasty tooth ache, the

antibiotics for it and the prospect of a $700 dental bill for the root

canal (and that's WITH insurance!), the kitty that was put down for a

tumor in her throat at a ripe old 14 years, the incision that still isn't

healed (12 weeks out from panni) and the lack of a DS date, the fact that

I gained back half of the weight I lost not eating in the hospital, and

the fact that I still have arthritic knees and can't exercise, not much

is going on. Can't figure out why I am depressed, can you? Maybe it was

the broken ice maker in the fridge that I had to get a repair guy to fix

because my brother was too busy to do it (just a tube needed replacing),

or maybe the broken spring on the garage door that the Land lady can't be

bothered with, or maybe the fact that I don't seem to be able to get to

work the three days I planned because I keep falling over in a nap

attack. My brain has these plans that my physiology keeps interfering

with, ya know?

I am just flat out of patience with waiting around-- nothing is going to

really change for me until I get the BIG surgery, which is what I was out

for when Dr. A side lined me with the Panni (the use of which I was

dubious about in the first place, but whatever he says, I will go along

with if it gets me closer to a safe switch procedure.) >>big sigh>> I'm

just so blasted tired of laying around and taking drugs and being no

closer to a more normal weight than I was when I started this process.

See! this is a slough of despond if there ever was one.! a date would

help a lot. I am looking forward to having dinner with some of the USC

ds bunch on Tuesday for a shot of post-op optimism. (of course, I will

be fresh from the dentist's chair and lord knows what shape the tooth

will be in.... I can see the cloud in any silver lining just now>) I am

so tired of hearing this incessant whining inside my head, too! Geez

Louise! This really isn't like me, I usually snap out of this sort of

stuff. I think I have lost my sense of humor some where in this

slough--quick, somebody, say something funny!

Nan E. ( considering a food binge, just to see if it changes something.

Nah. it is too hot to cook and there isn't anything fun in the house--

dang, this is serious if food isn't gonna help!!)

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((((Nan)))) You know the saying when it rains it pours! But just remember if it

werent for the rain nothing would grow. At least that is what I tell myself when

I go through a ton of crap. Hang in there kid before you know it you will get

your date, you will be switched and you will be wondering why the nice lady in

the victoria secret department is showing you the sale on thongs!

Lisbeth (who will never understand thongs)

Dr. Macura

June 25, 2001

-41 lbs

Nan Earnheart wrote: Message: 5

Date: Sun, 26 Aug 2001 06:49:21 -0000

From: " Lili F. "

Subject: NAN

> Nan E (mired in a slough of despond, but hanging in there)

NAN!!

What's wrong?? Can we help?? How're you feeling?

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Big Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Liane

Thanks for asking Liane-- aside from the nasty tooth ache, the

antibiotics for it and the prospect of a $700 dental bill for the root

canal (and that's WITH insurance!), the kitty that was put down for a

tumor in her throat at a ripe old 14 years, the incision that still isn't

healed (12 weeks out from panni) and the lack of a DS date, the fact that

I gained back half of the weight I lost not eating in the hospital, and

the fact that I still have arthritic knees and can't exercise, not much

is going on. Can't figure out why I am depressed, can you? Maybe it was

the broken ice maker in the fridge that I had to get a repair guy to fix

because my brother was too busy to do it (just a tube needed replacing),

or maybe the broken spring on the garage door that the Land lady can't be

bothered with, or maybe the fact that I don't seem to be able to get to

work the three days I planned because I keep falling over in a nap

attack. My brain has these plans that my physiology keeps interfering

with, ya know?

I am just flat out of patience with waiting around-- nothing is going to

really change for me until I get the BIG surgery, which is what I was out

for when Dr. A side lined me with the Panni (the use of which I was

dubious about in the first place, but whatever he says, I will go along

with if it gets me closer to a safe switch procedure.) >>big sigh>> I'm

just so blasted tired of laying around and taking drugs and being no

closer to a more normal weight than I was when I started this process.

See! this is a slough of despond if there ever was one.! a date would

help a lot. I am looking forward to having dinner with some of the USC

ds bunch on Tuesday for a shot of post-op optimism. (of course, I will

be fresh from the dentist's chair and lord knows what shape the tooth

will be in.... I can see the cloud in any silver lining just now>) I am

so tired of hearing this incessant whining inside my head, too! Geez

Louise! This really isn't like me, I usually snap out of this sort of

stuff. I think I have lost my sense of humor some where in this

slough--quick, somebody, say something funny!

Nan E. ( considering a food binge, just to see if it changes something.

Nah. it is too hot to cook and there isn't anything fun in the house--

dang, this is serious if food isn't gonna help!!)

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