You never looked that heavy!

[Guest guest]

You know, I always used to get the same reaction - up till the last few

years when my mobility got really impaired and I gained the last 50-60

pounds. (I was 349 at orientation last week.) I think you're on to

something, Pam - people judge us at least partly by how we move and

what we do, rather than by our looks. I used to have one friend who

knew how much I weighed, but who always told me, " You're the thinnest

fat person I've ever known. " It was a sincere compliment, because she

was talking about my attitude towards myself - I danced, I walked, I

hiked, and I dressed like a much thinner person.

It's only as I've gained the co-morbidities and lost my mobility over

the past ten years or so that I've actually seen myself as " fat " . My

health would be better now, I suppose, if I'd been able to accept it

sooner.

Cathy C.

>

> You know not to sound vain or anything but even though

> I was 250 pounds people constantly say they did not

> realize I weighed that much. Well I knew it but I

> think a lot of it had to do with the fact that even

> though I was 250 I would still run (daily at least 1.5

> miles to 2 miles) and on the days I did not run, I did

> aerobics. I would take Sunday off so I had a rather

> tight body except for my gutt from having babies. My

> legs were firm and I had a bottom. So when the weight

> came off, I was shocked that I did not have a lot of

> excess skin. Dr. Park told me that she was surprised

> that I did not either and she said that my muscles

> were pretty tight.

[Guest guest]

You know, I always used to get the same reaction - up till the last few

years when my mobility got really impaired and I gained the last 50-60

pounds. (I was 349 at orientation last week.) I think you're on to

something, Pam - people judge us at least partly by how we move and

what we do, rather than by our looks. I used to have one friend who

knew how much I weighed, but who always told me, " You're the thinnest

fat person I've ever known. " It was a sincere compliment, because she

was talking about my attitude towards myself - I danced, I walked, I

hiked, and I dressed like a much thinner person.

It's only as I've gained the co-morbidities and lost my mobility over

the past ten years or so that I've actually seen myself as " fat " . My

health would be better now, I suppose, if I'd been able to accept it

sooner.

Cathy C.

>

> You know not to sound vain or anything but even though

> I was 250 pounds people constantly say they did not

> realize I weighed that much. Well I knew it but I

> think a lot of it had to do with the fact that even

> though I was 250 I would still run (daily at least 1.5

> miles to 2 miles) and on the days I did not run, I did

> aerobics. I would take Sunday off so I had a rather

> tight body except for my gutt from having babies. My

> legs were firm and I had a bottom. So when the weight

> came off, I was shocked that I did not have a lot of

> excess skin. Dr. Park told me that she was surprised

> that I did not either and she said that my muscles

> were pretty tight.

[Guest guest]

Cathy, strange isn't it. Nonetheless, you will get

there and you will look back at your one year

anniversary and say man, life is great and where did

the time go because to me, post surgery, my year

zoomed by. I still can't believe that I am in my

second year (well about one week out today into

starting my second year) and I am so happy. It still

does not seem real but I know it is. Sometimes I get

a little concerned because I read other post about

people further out (two years or so) and how they have

gained anywhere from 20-50 pounds and are struggling.

I don't want that to be me so I try my hardest to stay

mindful. Like last night. I took my boys to burger

king and I thought about getting the tender crisp

chicken sandwich (plain because I don't like the

lettuce, tomato, mayo stuff the put on it) but I said

" no Pam. Go home and have your turkey with the cheese

or something healthy " . I did not struggle with it and

I said " Yeah, that's right " . I am glad that I did

that self talk thing that Francisco always talk about.

Strange but it works. I weigh once a day (in the

mornings) because Dr. Fisher said in my six month post

op apt. (last appointment before they cut you loose

until your one year appointment) that we should weigh

once a day. He said this way you are in better

control of your weight and you can see when you begin

to gain a pound or two or three and it is easier to

get that off rather than waiting until it is 10 or 20.

So I do this without becoming over obsessed about it

and I am pleased to say that although I have not lost

any weight (its been about 2, maybe 3 months) I am

fine with that. Like I posted before, I wear a size 8

and that is a petite 8 in bottoms and a size small in

shirts and one day I had to buy a extra small-lol

(coming from a 20 and a 3x shirt because of my boobs)

and don't want to get smaller but I do want to knock

off 10 more pounds to be at 130. So I will continue

to work away at it and if it comes off fine, if not

fine. I can honestly say that at this point in my

life I am truly happy with me and my body and life. I

think that ultimately, I know that regain is probably

going to happen and I can deal with 5 or maybe 10

pounds max but will be devoted so that this won't

happen. I just don't want to ever be over 150.

I wish you well on your journey. Its going to be

great even though there might not be a good day all

the time, it will only get better though. Be

encouraged.

And thanks for listening to me ramble.

Pam Marsh

--- Cathy wrote:

> You know, I always used to get the same reaction -

> up till the last few

> years when my mobility got really impaired and I

> gained the last 50-60

> pounds. (I was 349 at orientation last week.) I

> think you're on to

> something, Pam - people judge us at least partly by

> how we move and

> what we do, rather than by our looks. I used to

> have one friend who

> knew how much I weighed, but who always told me,

> " You're the thinnest

> fat person I've ever known. " It was a sincere

> compliment, because she

> was talking about my attitude towards myself - I

> danced, I walked, I

> hiked, and I dressed like a much thinner person.

>

> It's only as I've gained the co-morbidities and lost

> my mobility over

> the past ten years or so that I've actually seen

> myself as " fat " . My

> health would be better now, I suppose, if I'd been

> able to accept it

> sooner.

>

> Cathy C.

>

>

> >

> > You know not to sound vain or anything but even

> though

> > I was 250 pounds people constantly say they did

> not

> > realize I weighed that much. Well I knew it but I

> > think a lot of it had to do with the fact that

> even

> > though I was 250 I would still run (daily at least

> 1.5

> > miles to 2 miles) and on the days I did not run, I

> did

> > aerobics. I would take Sunday off so I had a

> rather

> > tight body except for my gutt from having babies.

> My

> > legs were firm and I had a bottom. So when the

> weight

> > came off, I was shocked that I did not have a lot

> of

> > excess skin. Dr. Park told me that she was

> surprised

> > that I did not either and she said that my muscles

> > were pretty tight.

>

>

>

>

>

>

__________________________________________________

[Guest guest]

Cathy, strange isn't it. Nonetheless, you will get

there and you will look back at your one year

anniversary and say man, life is great and where did

the time go because to me, post surgery, my year

zoomed by. I still can't believe that I am in my

second year (well about one week out today into

starting my second year) and I am so happy. It still

does not seem real but I know it is. Sometimes I get

a little concerned because I read other post about

people further out (two years or so) and how they have

gained anywhere from 20-50 pounds and are struggling.

I don't want that to be me so I try my hardest to stay

mindful. Like last night. I took my boys to burger

king and I thought about getting the tender crisp

chicken sandwich (plain because I don't like the

lettuce, tomato, mayo stuff the put on it) but I said

" no Pam. Go home and have your turkey with the cheese

or something healthy " . I did not struggle with it and

I said " Yeah, that's right " . I am glad that I did

that self talk thing that Francisco always talk about.

Strange but it works. I weigh once a day (in the

mornings) because Dr. Fisher said in my six month post

op apt. (last appointment before they cut you loose

until your one year appointment) that we should weigh

once a day. He said this way you are in better

control of your weight and you can see when you begin

to gain a pound or two or three and it is easier to

get that off rather than waiting until it is 10 or 20.

So I do this without becoming over obsessed about it

and I am pleased to say that although I have not lost

any weight (its been about 2, maybe 3 months) I am

fine with that. Like I posted before, I wear a size 8

and that is a petite 8 in bottoms and a size small in

shirts and one day I had to buy a extra small-lol

(coming from a 20 and a 3x shirt because of my boobs)

and don't want to get smaller but I do want to knock

off 10 more pounds to be at 130. So I will continue

to work away at it and if it comes off fine, if not

fine. I can honestly say that at this point in my

life I am truly happy with me and my body and life. I

think that ultimately, I know that regain is probably

going to happen and I can deal with 5 or maybe 10

pounds max but will be devoted so that this won't

happen. I just don't want to ever be over 150.

I wish you well on your journey. Its going to be

great even though there might not be a good day all

the time, it will only get better though. Be

encouraged.

And thanks for listening to me ramble.

Pam Marsh

--- Cathy wrote:

> You know, I always used to get the same reaction -

> up till the last few

> years when my mobility got really impaired and I

> gained the last 50-60

> pounds. (I was 349 at orientation last week.) I

> think you're on to

> something, Pam - people judge us at least partly by

> how we move and

> what we do, rather than by our looks. I used to

> have one friend who

> knew how much I weighed, but who always told me,

> " You're the thinnest

> fat person I've ever known. " It was a sincere

> compliment, because she

> was talking about my attitude towards myself - I

> danced, I walked, I

> hiked, and I dressed like a much thinner person.

>

> It's only as I've gained the co-morbidities and lost

> my mobility over

> the past ten years or so that I've actually seen

> myself as " fat " . My

> health would be better now, I suppose, if I'd been

> able to accept it

> sooner.

>

> Cathy C.

>

>

> >

> > You know not to sound vain or anything but even

> though

> > I was 250 pounds people constantly say they did

> not

> > realize I weighed that much. Well I knew it but I

> > think a lot of it had to do with the fact that

> even

> > though I was 250 I would still run (daily at least

> 1.5

> > miles to 2 miles) and on the days I did not run, I

> did

> > aerobics. I would take Sunday off so I had a

> rather

> > tight body except for my gutt from having babies.

> My

> > legs were firm and I had a bottom. So when the

> weight

> > came off, I was shocked that I did not have a lot

> of

> > excess skin. Dr. Park told me that she was

> surprised

> > that I did not either and she said that my muscles

> > were pretty tight.

>

>

>

>

>

>

__________________________________________________

[Guest guest]

Thanks, Pam. I know I'll get there. It's just that, being at the start

of this journey, I know I still have a long way to go. But I'm also

looking at the steps I've taken already and focusing on how much I've

already changed & improved.

Cathy

[Guest guest]

Thanks, Pam. I know I'll get there. It's just that, being at the start

of this journey, I know I still have a long way to go. But I'm also

looking at the steps I've taken already and focusing on how much I've

already changed & improved.

Cathy