Guest guest Posted December 6, 2005 Report Share Posted December 6, 2005 Jeanne I completely understand the overwhelming effort that this disease takes from us. Even with the surgery I get so battle weary now that Im far enough out to have to struggle to lose again. I have also been in the mindset you are...why continue to deny myself my favorite vice..Starbucks if Im not going to lose more than 2-5 pounds. Is it worth it? I have to tell you that as tired as I get, the more frustrated I become....I do not want to go back. That scares me more than not ever having starbucks again. This keeps me going. And when it gets too rough...yes I give into my starbucks craving....but then I dust myself off and get with the program. I think the thing we need to keep in mind is that this is a life long battle...some we will win and some we wont. BUT if the winning is more often than the losing then we are doing our best effort. I too think of this life style every second of everyday...I HAVE TO or the weight will come back. I empathize with you but I urge you not to give up....make an appt with your surgeon...talk to him/her about your frustrations. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. YOU are worth this fight! Huggles > > Well most of you know I just can't get the 10% to come off. I have > decided to take a break from the ever consuming mind set to reach > the my goal weight to get a surgery date. I am sick and tired of > measuring and counting calories and not eating the " wrong foods " to > not have any results. I ATE 2 JACK IN THE BOX MONSTER TACOS A SMALL > CURLY FRIES AND DRANK REAL SODA (the soda was too sweet) last > night. MInd you I did have to run to the bathroom and I have a new > explanation for " dumping " It felt so darn good to not feel guilty > that I was eating the wrong food. I have been so good about staying > away from fast food, but I just feel so angry at my body for not > allowing me to lose. > > I have been going through this process since approval February 8th. > Every waking minute my mind is on this surgery and my chances of > leading a healthy life and getting rid of alot of ailments. I just > want this surgery so bad and I often get so depressed I just want to > cry and do some times. > > So I am taking a break from thinking " surgery, surgery, surgery " in > my everyday thoughts. I will continue to eat healthy and forgive my > self for the JACK incident and see where the New Year brings me. I > already explained to my friends and family that they would not be > getting my famous Christmas cookies this year as it would be too > tempting to have them in my house. Next year at this time I plan on > having had the surgery and will be back to baking away. > > Thanks for reading... > Jeanne > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 6, 2005 Report Share Posted December 6, 2005 Jeanne I completely understand the overwhelming effort that this disease takes from us. Even with the surgery I get so battle weary now that Im far enough out to have to struggle to lose again. I have also been in the mindset you are...why continue to deny myself my favorite vice..Starbucks if Im not going to lose more than 2-5 pounds. Is it worth it? I have to tell you that as tired as I get, the more frustrated I become....I do not want to go back. That scares me more than not ever having starbucks again. This keeps me going. And when it gets too rough...yes I give into my starbucks craving....but then I dust myself off and get with the program. I think the thing we need to keep in mind is that this is a life long battle...some we will win and some we wont. BUT if the winning is more often than the losing then we are doing our best effort. I too think of this life style every second of everyday...I HAVE TO or the weight will come back. I empathize with you but I urge you not to give up....make an appt with your surgeon...talk to him/her about your frustrations. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. YOU are worth this fight! Huggles > > Well most of you know I just can't get the 10% to come off. I have > decided to take a break from the ever consuming mind set to reach > the my goal weight to get a surgery date. I am sick and tired of > measuring and counting calories and not eating the " wrong foods " to > not have any results. I ATE 2 JACK IN THE BOX MONSTER TACOS A SMALL > CURLY FRIES AND DRANK REAL SODA (the soda was too sweet) last > night. MInd you I did have to run to the bathroom and I have a new > explanation for " dumping " It felt so darn good to not feel guilty > that I was eating the wrong food. I have been so good about staying > away from fast food, but I just feel so angry at my body for not > allowing me to lose. > > I have been going through this process since approval February 8th. > Every waking minute my mind is on this surgery and my chances of > leading a healthy life and getting rid of alot of ailments. I just > want this surgery so bad and I often get so depressed I just want to > cry and do some times. > > So I am taking a break from thinking " surgery, surgery, surgery " in > my everyday thoughts. I will continue to eat healthy and forgive my > self for the JACK incident and see where the New Year brings me. I > already explained to my friends and family that they would not be > getting my famous Christmas cookies this year as it would be too > tempting to have them in my house. Next year at this time I plan on > having had the surgery and will be back to baking away. > > Thanks for reading... > Jeanne > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 6, 2005 Report Share Posted December 6, 2005 Hi Jeanne, I can understand your needing to take a break from thinking about the surgery all the time. We are, after all, still people as well as patients. I am always a bit hesitant to mention it, because I really do believe that the 10% loss requirement is generally a good idea, but there is another option for you to consider. Some appeals to the State Dept. of Managed Health Care have forced Kaiser to proceed with the surgery without the 10% loss having been achieved. As I said, I do think that the 10% loss is generally a good idea - but I do think that there should be some leeway. For example, some folks take medications which greatly inhibit their ability to lose weight and maybe they shouldn't be held to the same standard. Seems like there should be other ways to show that one is making the appropriate changes to one's life style. Anyway . . . for what it is worth . . . I just thought that you should know about that possibility. Take care, Kay (in San Leandro) Open RNY 12/1/03 topazmisskitty wrote: > Well most of you know I just can't get the 10% to come off. I have > decided to take a break from the ever consuming mind set to reach > the my goal weight to get a surgery date. I am sick and tired of > measuring and counting calories and not eating the " wrong foods " to > not have any results. I ATE 2 JACK IN THE BOX MONSTER TACOS A SMALL > CURLY FRIES AND DRANK REAL SODA (the soda was too sweet) last > night. MInd you I did have to run to the bathroom and I have a new > explanation for " dumping " It felt so darn good to not feel guilty > that I was eating the wrong food. I have been so good about staying > away from fast food, but I just feel so angry at my body for not > allowing me to lose. > > I have been going through this process since approval February 8th. > Every waking minute my mind is on this surgery and my chances of > leading a healthy life and getting rid of alot of ailments. I just > want this surgery so bad and I often get so depressed I just want to > cry and do some times. > > So I am taking a break from thinking " surgery, surgery, surgery " in > my everyday thoughts. I will continue to eat healthy and forgive my > self for the JACK incident and see where the New Year brings me. I > already explained to my friends and family that they would not be > getting my famous Christmas cookies this year as it would be too > tempting to have them in my house. Next year at this time I plan on > having had the surgery and will be back to baking away. > > Thanks for reading... > Jeanne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 6, 2005 Report Share Posted December 6, 2005 I have been you a hundred times with a hundred things, marriage, weight, job, kid, . . . I want you to know that you have to let it go to get it. I believe that our bodies react to stress, the more you feel, the more mixed up they become. One you just give in and live, using all the stuff you have learned about food, your body will respond, in a positive way. Just let go of all that " stuff " that is crowding out the true you. If you have been journalling, go back and read them. It REALLY helped me. I still have a journal I kept in college (when dinosaurs roamed the earth) and I read it when I think my life stinks. We are all pulling for you, and we know you will. This is a journey, not a race. > > Well most of you know I just can't get the 10% to come off. I have > decided to take a break from the ever consuming mind set to reach > the my goal weight to get a surgery date. I am sick and tired of > measuring and counting calories and not eating the " wrong foods " to > not have any results. I ATE 2 JACK IN THE BOX MONSTER TACOS A SMALL > CURLY FRIES AND DRANK REAL SODA (the soda was too sweet) last > night. MInd you I did have to run to the bathroom and I have a new > explanation for " dumping " It felt so darn good to not feel guilty > that I was eating the wrong food. I have been so good about staying > away from fast food, but I just feel so angry at my body for not > allowing me to lose. > > I have been going through this process since approval February 8th. > Every waking minute my mind is on this surgery and my chances of > leading a healthy life and getting rid of alot of ailments. I just > want this surgery so bad and I often get so depressed I just want to > cry and do some times. > > So I am taking a break from thinking " surgery, surgery, surgery " in > my everyday thoughts. I will continue to eat healthy and forgive my > self for the JACK incident and see where the New Year brings me. I > already explained to my friends and family that they would not be > getting my famous Christmas cookies this year as it would be too > tempting to have them in my house. Next year at this time I plan on > having had the surgery and will be back to baking away. > > Thanks for reading... > Jeanne > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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