A weird thing happened yesterday

[Guest guest]

Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She said she was my "fan". WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not

40+ fat teachers. It made me

uncomfortable. I am the last person

people should look to for advice or patterning things you do after. OR AM I.

I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I failed to get into Bolt Hall for Law

School, I failed to pass the bar on my first try, I failed to keep my practice

open, I failed to become a principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the

weight off when I went on the "fast" in 1994.

These have been the "self talk" going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A simple paradigm shift and I become

something new. I was successful at

getting into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar on my

second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years, I was

successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential, and I was successful

at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important

(to me) was the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing which

voices to listen to and which to ignore.

I have to listen to the parts of me that are working for the good of the

system, not the nay sayers. If I do

that, the idea of having a "fan" is no longer crazy. I have done a lot of really cool stuff, have

achieved a great deal and am worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12

year olds. EVERYONE IS. You have to find the things that make you

special and accentuate those things, if you do that I will be your fan

too.

[Guest guest]

Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She said she was my "fan". WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not

40+ fat teachers. It made me

uncomfortable. I am the last person

people should look to for advice or patterning things you do after. OR AM I.

I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I failed to get into Bolt Hall for Law

School, I failed to pass the bar on my first try, I failed to keep my practice

open, I failed to become a principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the

weight off when I went on the "fast" in 1994.

These have been the "self talk" going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A simple paradigm shift and I become

something new. I was successful at

getting into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar on my

second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years, I was

successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential, and I was successful

at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important

(to me) was the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing which

voices to listen to and which to ignore.

I have to listen to the parts of me that are working for the good of the

system, not the nay sayers. If I do

that, the idea of having a "fan" is no longer crazy. I have done a lot of really cool stuff, have

achieved a great deal and am worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12

year olds. EVERYONE IS. You have to find the things that make you

special and accentuate those things, if you do that I will be your fan

too.

[Guest guest]

:

That is deep stuff. Gity has helped me so much. She gets our issues

like no one I've ever encountered before.

It's wonderful that you're listening to the positive stuff. I had to

do that too. I was so used to beating myself up that I never let the

positive members of the committee be heard.

Now, the positive group is the stronger voice because I let it have

the table for the majority of the time. Sure, the negative group

gets a word in now and then, but now I know that I'm the CEO, and I

decide the agenda.

It's amazing how many people you will inspire. When someone tells me

that I've inspired them, I'm still blown away. Who? Me?

Drink in all the positive stuff you can. It helps us through the

rough times.

Good for you!

Francisco

>

>

> Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She

said

> she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not

> 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last person

> people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

after. OR

> AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I

failed

> to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar on my

> first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to become a

> principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off when I

went

> on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A

simple

> paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful at

getting

> into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar on

my

> second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years, I

was

> successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential,

and I

> was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

>

> The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important (to

me) was

> the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing which

> voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to the

parts

> of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay

sayers.

> If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy. I

> have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great deal

and am

> worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

EVERYONE

> IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

accentuate

> those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

>

[Guest guest]

:

That is deep stuff. Gity has helped me so much. She gets our issues

like no one I've ever encountered before.

It's wonderful that you're listening to the positive stuff. I had to

do that too. I was so used to beating myself up that I never let the

positive members of the committee be heard.

Now, the positive group is the stronger voice because I let it have

the table for the majority of the time. Sure, the negative group

gets a word in now and then, but now I know that I'm the CEO, and I

decide the agenda.

It's amazing how many people you will inspire. When someone tells me

that I've inspired them, I'm still blown away. Who? Me?

Drink in all the positive stuff you can. It helps us through the

rough times.

Good for you!

Francisco

>

>

> Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She

said

> she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not

> 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last person

> people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

after. OR

> AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I

failed

> to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar on my

> first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to become a

> principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off when I

went

> on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A

simple

> paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful at

getting

> into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar on

my

> second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years, I

was

> successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential,

and I

> was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

>

> The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important (to

me) was

> the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing which

> voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to the

parts

> of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay

sayers.

> If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy. I

> have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great deal

and am

> worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

EVERYONE

> IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

accentuate

> those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

>

[Guest guest]

Hi ; Thank you so much for sharing this with us as I needed it so much. About 18 months ago I spent 6 months in intensive out patient therapy three days a week and 3 hours a day at Kaiser it was the most enlightening time of my life. Lately I have been getting some depression and your note reminded me where I have to go to get things back in perspective. I am the top dog and I say yay or nay and I just forgot it for a few days. I thank you so much for showing me the way back, I don't want to back to therapy it is very time consuming (HEHE). You never know where the help you need will come from but it is always a pleasant surprise when it happens. Thanks again . T wrote: Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She said she was my "fan". WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last person people should look to for advice or patterning things you do after. OR AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I failed to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar on my first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to become a principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off when I went on the "fast" in 1994. These have been the "self talk" going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A simple paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful at getting

into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar on my second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years, I was successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential, and I was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994. The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important (to me) was the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing which voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to the parts of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay sayers. If I do that, the idea of having a "fan" is no longer crazy. I have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great deal and am worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds. EVERYONE IS. You have to find the things

that make you special and accentuate those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

[Guest guest]

Hi ; Thank you so much for sharing this with us as I needed it so much. About 18 months ago I spent 6 months in intensive out patient therapy three days a week and 3 hours a day at Kaiser it was the most enlightening time of my life. Lately I have been getting some depression and your note reminded me where I have to go to get things back in perspective. I am the top dog and I say yay or nay and I just forgot it for a few days. I thank you so much for showing me the way back, I don't want to back to therapy it is very time consuming (HEHE). You never know where the help you need will come from but it is always a pleasant surprise when it happens. Thanks again . T wrote: Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She said she was my "fan". WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last person people should look to for advice or patterning things you do after. OR AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I failed to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar on my first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to become a principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off when I went on the "fast" in 1994. These have been the "self talk" going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A simple paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful at getting

into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar on my second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years, I was successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential, and I was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994. The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important (to me) was the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing which voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to the parts of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay sayers. If I do that, the idea of having a "fan" is no longer crazy. I have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great deal and am worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds. EVERYONE IS. You have to find the things

that make you special and accentuate those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

[Guest guest]

Dear Francisco,

I have never met you. I have only been in this group for a week or

two. And already, with no doubts whatsoever, I find you fascinating

and inspiring and a marvelous role model in many ways. If I can

approach my upcoming treatment with your humor and tough-mindedness

and dedication and open-hearted hope and emotion, I can beat cancer.

Randy

> >

> >

> > Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She

> said

> > she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not

> > 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last

person

> > people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

> after. OR

> > AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I

> failed

> > to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar

on my

> > first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to become

a

> > principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off when

I

> went

> > on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> > going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A

> simple

> > paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful at

> getting

> > into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar

on

> my

> > second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years,

I

> was

> > successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential,

> and I

> > was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

> >

> > The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important (to

> me) was

> > the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing

which

> > voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to

the

> parts

> > of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay

> sayers.

> > If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy. I

> > have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great deal

> and am

> > worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

> EVERYONE

> > IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

> accentuate

> > those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Dear Francisco,

I have never met you. I have only been in this group for a week or

two. And already, with no doubts whatsoever, I find you fascinating

and inspiring and a marvelous role model in many ways. If I can

approach my upcoming treatment with your humor and tough-mindedness

and dedication and open-hearted hope and emotion, I can beat cancer.

Randy

> >

> >

> > Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She

> said

> > she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not

> > 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last

person

> > people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

> after. OR

> > AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I

> failed

> > to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar

on my

> > first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to become

a

> > principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off when

I

> went

> > on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> > going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A

> simple

> > paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful at

> getting

> > into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar

on

> my

> > second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years,

I

> was

> > successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential,

> and I

> > was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

> >

> > The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important (to

> me) was

> > the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing

which

> > voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to

the

> parts

> > of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay

> sayers.

> > If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy. I

> > have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great deal

> and am

> > worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

> EVERYONE

> > IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

> accentuate

> > those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Randy

Let me tell you that if the world was full of Francisco's there

would be no meanness, no self doubt, just love. He is one of a kind.

We are all here for you.

> > >

> > >

> > > Someone said something that really made me think yesterday.

She

> > said

> > > she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors,

not

> > > 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last

> person

> > > people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

> > after. OR

> > > AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures.

I

> > failed

> > > to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar

> on my

> > > first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to

become

> a

> > > principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off

when

> I

> > went

> > > on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> > > going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A

> > simple

> > > paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful

at

> > getting

> > > into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the

bar

> on

> > my

> > > second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6

years,

> I

> > was

> > > successful at teaching and getting my administrative

credential,

> > and I

> > > was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

> > >

> > > The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important

(to

> > me) was

> > > the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing

> which

> > > voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to

> the

> > parts

> > > of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay

> > sayers.

> > > If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy. I

> > > have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great

deal

> > and am

> > > worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

> > EVERYONE

> > > IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

> > accentuate

> > > those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Randy

Let me tell you that if the world was full of Francisco's there

would be no meanness, no self doubt, just love. He is one of a kind.

We are all here for you.

> > >

> > >

> > > Someone said something that really made me think yesterday.

She

> > said

> > > she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors,

not

> > > 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last

> person

> > > people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

> > after. OR

> > > AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures.

I

> > failed

> > > to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar

> on my

> > > first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to

become

> a

> > > principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off

when

> I

> > went

> > > on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> > > going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A

> > simple

> > > paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful

at

> > getting

> > > into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the

bar

> on

> > my

> > > second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6

years,

> I

> > was

> > > successful at teaching and getting my administrative

credential,

> > and I

> > > was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

> > >

> > > The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important

(to

> > me) was

> > > the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing

> which

> > > voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to

> the

> > parts

> > > of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay

> > sayers.

> > > If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy. I

> > > have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great

deal

> > and am

> > > worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

> > EVERYONE

> > > IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

> > accentuate

> > > those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Hi , This is incredible news. I used to wallow in all my

deficits and I mean wallow. I was never good enough. Finally I

really faced them. I made a list. I am dumb, I can't spell, I can't

do arithmetic, I am too fat, I have no feeling for motors, I am a

sloth, etc. It is all too funny now but it was not that then. After

I worte out my list of faults I cried and really got into it. Then

I began to look at myself with some compassion. Why could I not

spell? What happened to me that I decided I must be dumb? etc. I

began to forgive myself and let go of all these " failures " I ended

up with a I don't care attitude and from then I went on to get my

Ph.D. Who cares if you are not as smart as someone? Who cares if you

can't spell? I have ideas and values and I care a lot about a lot of

things. Every day I think about how I could change the world and

make it a better place. Right now I am working on myself. Who cares

if I have not lost weight in 5 days? It is all a mind trip, in the

wrong direction. Thanks for reminding me and sharing Gity's lesson I

missed. She is so right. I love her. And love to you too. Lilka

>

>

> Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She

said

> she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not

> 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last person

> people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

after. OR

> AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I

failed

> to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar on

my

> first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to become a

> principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off when I

went

> on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A

simple

> paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful at

getting

> into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar

on my

> second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years, I

was

> successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential,

and I

> was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

>

> The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important (to

me) was

> the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing which

> voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to the

parts

> of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay

sayers.

> If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy. I

> have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great deal

and am

> worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

EVERYONE

> IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

accentuate

> those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

>

[Guest guest]

Hi , This is incredible news. I used to wallow in all my

deficits and I mean wallow. I was never good enough. Finally I

really faced them. I made a list. I am dumb, I can't spell, I can't

do arithmetic, I am too fat, I have no feeling for motors, I am a

sloth, etc. It is all too funny now but it was not that then. After

I worte out my list of faults I cried and really got into it. Then

I began to look at myself with some compassion. Why could I not

spell? What happened to me that I decided I must be dumb? etc. I

began to forgive myself and let go of all these " failures " I ended

up with a I don't care attitude and from then I went on to get my

Ph.D. Who cares if you are not as smart as someone? Who cares if you

can't spell? I have ideas and values and I care a lot about a lot of

things. Every day I think about how I could change the world and

make it a better place. Right now I am working on myself. Who cares

if I have not lost weight in 5 days? It is all a mind trip, in the

wrong direction. Thanks for reminding me and sharing Gity's lesson I

missed. She is so right. I love her. And love to you too. Lilka

>

>

> Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She

said

> she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not

> 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last person

> people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

after. OR

> AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I

failed

> to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar on

my

> first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to become a

> principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off when I

went

> on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A

simple

> paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful at

getting

> into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar

on my

> second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years, I

was

> successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential,

and I

> was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

>

> The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important (to

me) was

> the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing which

> voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to the

parts

> of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay

sayers.

> If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy. I

> have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great deal

and am

> worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

EVERYONE

> IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

accentuate

> those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

>

[Guest guest]

, thanks for posting this. This is sure

something that we should store mentally for those days

when we just can't seem to find anything positive

about ourselves and I am sure we have all been there.

Thank you.

Pam Marsh

--- Lilka wrote:

> Hi , This is incredible news. I used to wallow

> in all my

> deficits and I mean wallow. I was never good enough.

> Finally I

> really faced them. I made a list. I am dumb, I can't

> spell, I can't

> do arithmetic, I am too fat, I have no feeling for

> motors, I am a

> sloth, etc. It is all too funny now but it was not

> that then. After

> I worte out my list of faults I cried and really got

> into it. Then

> I began to look at myself with some compassion. Why

> could I not

> spell? What happened to me that I decided I must be

> dumb? etc. I

> began to forgive myself and let go of all these

> " failures " I ended

> up with a I don't care attitude and from then I went

> on to get my

> Ph.D. Who cares if you are not as smart as someone?

> Who cares if you

> can't spell? I have ideas and values and I care a

> lot about a lot of

> things. Every day I think about how I could change

> the world and

> make it a better place. Right now I am working on

> myself. Who cares

> if I have not lost weight in 5 days? It is all a

> mind trip, in the

> wrong direction. Thanks for reminding me and sharing

> Gity's lesson I

> missed. She is so right. I love her. And love to you

> too. Lilka

>

>

>

>

>

> >

> >

> > Someone said something that really made me think

> yesterday. She

> said

> > she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars

> and actors, not

> > 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am

> the last person

> > people should look to for advice or patterning

> things you do

> after. OR

> > AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms

> of failures. I

> failed

> > to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to

> pass the bar on

> my

> > first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I

> failed to become a

> > principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the

> weight off when I

> went

> > on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self

> talk "

> > going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the

> COOL PART. A

> simple

> > paradigm shift and I become something new. I was

> successful at

> getting

> > into Mc School of Law, I was successful at

> passing the bar

> on my

> > second try, I was successful at running a practice

> for 6 years, I

> was

> > successful at teaching and getting my

> administrative credential,

> and I

> > was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

> >

> > The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was

> important (to

> me) was

> > the idea of your brain working by committee, and

> you choosing which

> > voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have

> to listen to the

> parts

> > of me that are working for the good of the system,

> not the nay

> sayers.

> > If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no

> longer crazy. I

> > have done a lot of really cool stuff, have

> achieved a great deal

> and am

> > worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12

> year olds.

> EVERYONE

> > IS. You have to find the things that make you

> special and

> accentuate

> > those things, if you do that I will be your fan

> too.

> >

>

>

>

>

>

__________________________________________________

[Guest guest]

, thanks for posting this. This is sure

something that we should store mentally for those days

when we just can't seem to find anything positive

about ourselves and I am sure we have all been there.

Thank you.

Pam Marsh

--- Lilka wrote:

> Hi , This is incredible news. I used to wallow

> in all my

> deficits and I mean wallow. I was never good enough.

> Finally I

> really faced them. I made a list. I am dumb, I can't

> spell, I can't

> do arithmetic, I am too fat, I have no feeling for

> motors, I am a

> sloth, etc. It is all too funny now but it was not

> that then. After

> I worte out my list of faults I cried and really got

> into it. Then

> I began to look at myself with some compassion. Why

> could I not

> spell? What happened to me that I decided I must be

> dumb? etc. I

> began to forgive myself and let go of all these

> " failures " I ended

> up with a I don't care attitude and from then I went

> on to get my

> Ph.D. Who cares if you are not as smart as someone?

> Who cares if you

> can't spell? I have ideas and values and I care a

> lot about a lot of

> things. Every day I think about how I could change

> the world and

> make it a better place. Right now I am working on

> myself. Who cares

> if I have not lost weight in 5 days? It is all a

> mind trip, in the

> wrong direction. Thanks for reminding me and sharing

> Gity's lesson I

> missed. She is so right. I love her. And love to you

> too. Lilka

>

>

>

>

>

> >

> >

> > Someone said something that really made me think

> yesterday. She

> said

> > she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars

> and actors, not

> > 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am

> the last person

> > people should look to for advice or patterning

> things you do

> after. OR

> > AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms

> of failures. I

> failed

> > to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to

> pass the bar on

> my

> > first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I

> failed to become a

> > principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the

> weight off when I

> went

> > on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self

> talk "

> > going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the

> COOL PART. A

> simple

> > paradigm shift and I become something new. I was

> successful at

> getting

> > into Mc School of Law, I was successful at

> passing the bar

> on my

> > second try, I was successful at running a practice

> for 6 years, I

> was

> > successful at teaching and getting my

> administrative credential,

> and I

> > was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

> >

> > The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was

> important (to

> me) was

> > the idea of your brain working by committee, and

> you choosing which

> > voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have

> to listen to the

> parts

> > of me that are working for the good of the system,

> not the nay

> sayers.

> > If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no

> longer crazy. I

> > have done a lot of really cool stuff, have

> achieved a great deal

> and am

> > worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12

> year olds.

> EVERYONE

> > IS. You have to find the things that make you

> special and

> accentuate

> > those things, if you do that I will be your fan

> too.

> >

>

>

>

>

>

__________________________________________________

[Guest guest]

Thanks. I know we all go through it, and I need to keep reminding

myself. F'm if they can't take a joke.

> >

> >

> > Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She

> said

> > she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not

> > 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last person

> > people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

> after. OR

> > AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I

> failed

> > to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar on

> my

> > first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to become a

> > principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off when I

> went

> > on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> > going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A

> simple

> > paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful at

> getting

> > into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar

> on my

> > second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years, I

> was

> > successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential,

> and I

> > was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

> >

> > The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important (to

> me) was

> > the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing which

> > voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to the

> parts

> > of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay

> sayers.

> > If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy. I

> > have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great deal

> and am

> > worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

> EVERYONE

> > IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

> accentuate

> > those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks. I know we all go through it, and I need to keep reminding

myself. F'm if they can't take a joke.

> >

> >

> > Someone said something that really made me think yesterday. She

> said

> > she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors, not

> > 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last person

> > people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

> after. OR

> > AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of failures. I

> failed

> > to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the bar on

> my

> > first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to become a

> > principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off when I

> went

> > on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> > going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART. A

> simple

> > paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful at

> getting

> > into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the bar

> on my

> > second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6 years, I

> was

> > successful at teaching and getting my administrative credential,

> and I

> > was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

> >

> > The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important (to

> me) was

> > the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing which

> > voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to the

> parts

> > of me that are working for the good of the system, not the nay

> sayers.

> > If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy. I

> > have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great deal

> and am

> > worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

> EVERYONE

> > IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

> accentuate

> > those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

> >

>

[Guest guest]

:

You make me blush. You're pretty special yourself!

Francisco

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > Someone said something that really made me think yesterday.

> She

> > > said

> > > > she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors,

> not

> > > > 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last

> > person

> > > > people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

> > > after. OR

> > > > AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of

failures.

> I

> > > failed

> > > > to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the

bar

> > on my

> > > > first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to

> become

> > a

> > > > principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off

> when

> > I

> > > went

> > > > on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> > > > going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART.

A

> > > simple

> > > > paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful

> at

> > > getting

> > > > into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the

> bar

> > on

> > > my

> > > > second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6

> years,

> > I

> > > was

> > > > successful at teaching and getting my administrative

> credential,

> > > and I

> > > > was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

> > > >

> > > > The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important

> (to

> > > me) was

> > > > the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing

> > which

> > > > voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to

> > the

> > > parts

> > > > of me that are working for the good of the system, not the

nay

> > > sayers.

> > > > If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy.

I

> > > > have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great

> deal

> > > and am

> > > > worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

> > > EVERYONE

> > > > IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

> > > accentuate

> > > > those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

:

You make me blush. You're pretty special yourself!

Francisco

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > Someone said something that really made me think yesterday.

> She

> > > said

> > > > she was my " fan " . WHOA, fans are for rock stars and actors,

> not

> > > > 40+ fat teachers. It made me uncomfortable. I am the last

> > person

> > > > people should look to for advice or patterning things you do

> > > after. OR

> > > > AM I. I have always thought of my life in terms of

failures.

> I

> > > failed

> > > > to get into Bolt Hall for Law School, I failed to pass the

bar

> > on my

> > > > first try, I failed to keep my practice open, I failed to

> become

> > a

> > > > principal, and the big one, I failed to keep the weight off

> when

> > I

> > > went

> > > > on the " fast " in 1994. These have been the " self talk "

> > > > going on in my head since whenever. NOW for the COOL PART.

A

> > > simple

> > > > paradigm shift and I become something new. I was successful

> at

> > > getting

> > > > into Mc School of Law, I was successful at passing the

> bar

> > on

> > > my

> > > > second try, I was successful at running a practice for 6

> years,

> > I

> > > was

> > > > successful at teaching and getting my administrative

> credential,

> > > and I

> > > > was successful at loosing 140 lbs in 1994.

> > > >

> > > > The thing that Gity spoke about yesterday that was important

> (to

> > > me) was

> > > > the idea of your brain working by committee, and you choosing

> > which

> > > > voices to listen to and which to ignore. I have to listen to

> > the

> > > parts

> > > > of me that are working for the good of the system, not the

nay

> > > sayers.

> > > > If I do that, the idea of having a " fan " is no longer crazy.

I

> > > > have done a lot of really cool stuff, have achieved a great

> deal

> > > and am

> > > > worthy of being looked up to by more than just 12 year olds.

> > > EVERYONE

> > > > IS. You have to find the things that make you special and

> > > accentuate

> > > > those things, if you do that I will be your fan too.

> > > >

> > >

> >

>