Guest guest Posted February 7, 2005 Report Share Posted February 7, 2005 Oh thank you all so much!!!! Everyone always looks at me and sees what I do everyday and lays the " you are so strong or asks how I do it " . As you all know, you can look at a book cover and never understand what is really in the book. They don't know what it is like to love your child with every ounce of your soul and understand that they many not be here tomorrow. I wish that our minds put up a block and always made us live in the now. When I think that way life is bliss. I would never want anything more than holding Elijah, rocking him, singing, or stroking through his long beautiful hair(he needs a hair cut)I wouldn't change a thing about daily life. I guess from time to time I miss the intimacy that our marriage had. I thank you all for your honesty. People never talk about the strain or confusion that loosing a child has on a relationship. It is almost night and day. When I think of Eli the world is sunshine. I guess it is because I know that he is an angel on loan to me and that he will be with God in heaven. I could never be angry with that. Yet after he is gone life does go on. We all like to plan ahead. In our lives planning doesn't help much. Suhad, I realize it has been 2 years; it actually lightened the mood a little when I read it. I have read your posts about your precious children often. , I sometimes wonder about not knowing Eli's condition and then I am thankful that I do. I take nothing for granted. The only downside is that when I am holding him I never want to put him down, sometimes hours later I tell him mommy has to go to the potty baby. Then I have to change my shirt because he has drooled so much my shirt is soaked. I hope you all don't get the wrong impression about me. I am one of the crazy happy people that everyone wonders about. It is just one of those life things that we have to go through. As I read all of your responses I cried so hard at the understanding. I love my son and I love my husband. As you all know it is HARD and I thank you all for supporting me when I need it. I really needed to hear that life does work after such a hard loss. Oh and we do take lots of digital photos, regular photos and any way an image can be taken. I wish you all could come to our house. It is all about enjoying our son. Photos everywhere! He even has his own garden on the side of the house. Those poor little toes have been put in so much cement he could work for the city. He is a most loved child by us and everyone that knows him. God Bless Ann Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 7, 2005 Report Share Posted February 7, 2005 Oh thank you all so much!!!! Everyone always looks at me and sees what I do everyday and lays the " you are so strong or asks how I do it " . As you all know, you can look at a book cover and never understand what is really in the book. They don't know what it is like to love your child with every ounce of your soul and understand that they many not be here tomorrow. I wish that our minds put up a block and always made us live in the now. When I think that way life is bliss. I would never want anything more than holding Elijah, rocking him, singing, or stroking through his long beautiful hair(he needs a hair cut)I wouldn't change a thing about daily life. I guess from time to time I miss the intimacy that our marriage had. I thank you all for your honesty. People never talk about the strain or confusion that loosing a child has on a relationship. It is almost night and day. When I think of Eli the world is sunshine. I guess it is because I know that he is an angel on loan to me and that he will be with God in heaven. I could never be angry with that. Yet after he is gone life does go on. We all like to plan ahead. In our lives planning doesn't help much. Suhad, I realize it has been 2 years; it actually lightened the mood a little when I read it. I have read your posts about your precious children often. , I sometimes wonder about not knowing Eli's condition and then I am thankful that I do. I take nothing for granted. The only downside is that when I am holding him I never want to put him down, sometimes hours later I tell him mommy has to go to the potty baby. Then I have to change my shirt because he has drooled so much my shirt is soaked. I hope you all don't get the wrong impression about me. I am one of the crazy happy people that everyone wonders about. It is just one of those life things that we have to go through. As I read all of your responses I cried so hard at the understanding. I love my son and I love my husband. As you all know it is HARD and I thank you all for supporting me when I need it. I really needed to hear that life does work after such a hard loss. Oh and we do take lots of digital photos, regular photos and any way an image can be taken. I wish you all could come to our house. It is all about enjoying our son. Photos everywhere! He even has his own garden on the side of the house. Those poor little toes have been put in so much cement he could work for the city. He is a most loved child by us and everyone that knows him. God Bless Ann Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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