Re: Re: Normal & other thoughts

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Accepting being normal is hard. You know I'm a size 6, now down to 139 (on TOM), so probably 137, my 6's a lose, I've passed goal and my personal goal of 135 is only 2 pounds away, yet I know I'm small now, but my mind sees me still as the old me. If I look in a mirror I see the new me, if I look at my legs in clothes they seem big still and I know this is body image and it takes time to adjust the mind to who we are now, and being that I lost my weight so fast I think it's harder to except. It was hard to take compliments at first (for at least 5 months after WLS and I was at goal) but the compliments didn't feel like they were mine. Now I'm good with that, now I have to see me for who I am, a small lady. The mind is powerful and we have to work with it just like we have to work with the tool we were given by having WLS. I hope this makes sense. We have to except of our self it isn't always easier, we

have to love our self to except our self. Merry Christmas. Donna Diane Duenas wrote: Im not quite there yet...but I totally get what you are saying. Im having trouble accepting that I am normal even though other people see it. I described a couple of weeks ago, getting ready for a company dinner, these two women who did not even know me remarking how thin I was and asking if I modeled. I felt normal. They didnt know me when I was morbidly obese either, so they had nothing to compare me to but me. I often still see the 315 pound even though Ive maintained 160 for almost a year now. I cant wait for the day that I can mentally accept that Im normal. Even though I havent made my goal of 135. I sent my before and after photos from obesityhelp to Francisco

and a few others and Francisco put it so right......How can I say I havent suceeded..look at the difference. I mean I wear almost the same size jeans as my 7 year old son!! So even though the medical charts still consider me obese for my height(4'11) and I havent reached my goal of 135...I AM normal weighted now...I gotta accept that some how!Huggles> >> > For the first time in my life, I feel normal. I'm not even quite > sure > > how to explain this. I took my pants out of the dryer this morning > and > > held them up and realized that these truly were my pants and how > small > > the looked in comparison to my "fat" pants. I felt great putting > them > > on, tucked my shirt in, put on a belt and had a little spring in my > > step all morning as I've been going about my business at work. I > > started this job 2 months ago and they never knew the old me, the > > morbid obese me. I've chosen not to share that with anyone here. > It's > > nice to be just Tina. Normal gal. Does any of this make sense?> > > > I'm

down 100 pounds officially from my surgery date today and 136 > > pounds since orientation. I'll be 7 months post-op on Saturday, > > Christmas Eve. > > > > A comment on "spit it out"...I've done this too! I never thought I > > would but when I put something in my mouth, if it doesn't taste > good, > > I spit it out. Why waste the calories on food that is tasteless? I > > want to thoroughly enjoy it and be mindful about it. My husband > laughs > > at me. I also spit it out if I'm chewing it up and I get that full > > feeling all of the sudden...instead of just swallowing it, I spit > it > > out and claim "I'm done!" It's a great thing!!> > > > I'm not very eloquent in my wording (like the Francisco & Robynn -- > > bless you guys -- you put into words exactly what I'm thinking many > > times) but I

hope some of this makes sense.> > > > It's nice being normal...sigh.> > > > I'm off to Disneyland this afternoon...the weather in Anaheim for > our > > Friday & Saturday adventure is suppose to be 78 and 80. I'll get to > > ride every stinkin' ride I want. What a wonderful Christmas gift to > > myself and my family.> > > > Life is good.> > > > Merry Christmas (Happy Holidays) to everyone and their families. > May > > you all have a blessed holiday.> > > > Tina> >> Donna JordonDSJordon@...

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