Re: Anybody got a shovel? - Timmy

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Hi UT....

Excellent advice for me as well...thanx. BTW, thank you for the

phone call while I was in KPR. How are you and Martha doing these

days ?

Regards,

Gordy

> >

> > Ok, Yesterday was REALLY hard. I went to see the surgeon, he

> looked at me, poked me in the stomach and said, loose 20 more

pounds

> and we'll see if surgery is an option. Come back in February. If

> they wanted 30 more, why didn't they tell me this before I spent 40

> dollars on gas and a day off work? I am scared because I am in

doubt

> about my resolve to continue this journey. I have worked so hard

at

> this, and I still have so far to go. I was looking forward to the

> tool to help me with the work. The analogy is digging a pool. I

had

> been digging with my fingers (no real skills or plan) until I

started

> this program. Since then, I have been using a spoon (the meal plan

> and support). I was expecting a shovel soon (the surgery), and now

I

> have to dig another 2 or 3 months before we will even entertain a

> discussion about a shovel. It is days like yesterday that the food

> demon revels in. I did hit a 2 oz bag of popcorn on the road home

> and it didn't help either. (I knew it wouldn't but I did it

> anyway). Again, I have to choose, LIVE or DIE. That is really all

> there is. I reluctantly choose LIVE. A good walk, some positive

> emails from people who support me and a good night sleep should get

> rid of my adverb, but for now, I think this pity pool is warm and

> comfortable, so I will soak for a while. See you when I dry off.

> >

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