The fun just keeps on coming //not mito related,really

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Well,,,it has been one thing after another around here. It seems like the emotional roller coaster,just never ends !

I have been trying to pull myself out of my slump,this past week. Nobody around me really understands,,,but I'm sure ya'll will. I took Katelyn for her psychiatrist visit last week ( she has been dx with Bipolar and OCD) I had some concerns with some things,and asked if we could increase her OCD meds,,since she is getting very rigid,in her way of thinking. Some examples are,,,,we had a family reunion,and she didn't like any of the food,so I told her to eat a snack,,then when it was over I would get her something to eat ,that she likes (she has become a VERY picky eater) Well,,she went bonkers ! She insisted that she couldn't eat a snack,before the meal,because that isn't what you are suposed to do. You HAVE to eat the meal first ! It was a very extreme reaction,,,and it took a long time to calm her down. She just kept saying " Its not right,,its not right" This kind of thing is happening more and more,,,she is just getting impossible to live with,,everything HAS to

be just so. She can't stand for anyone to touch anything in her room,,and has even started doing her own laundry,,because I don't do it "right" . These things,,along with her constant rocking back and forth,,and very very poor social skills,and lack of being able to make ANY kind of small talk,,,has led the psychiatrist to think that she might have something along the autism spectrum. Now,,that isn't really such a big shock,because I have thought it for a while,,,but hearing a Dr say it,,was very shocking ! So,,now I have the fun task of trying to find someone to do some testing on her,,and we are throwing in some testing to see if she has a learning disability,,just for the heck of it :/

On the same day,,I got the paper work back from Social Security disability,(Logan has a review every couple of years),and it said that they had determined that Logan was still disabled. That one line was just like a punch in the stomach. I know,,that he recieves SSI,because they consider him disabled,,but reading it,,,I can't explain it,,it just made me so sad !

I just feel like,,I can't be a mom with 2 autistic kids ! I'm not good at this.Do ya'll ever feel like saying " I can't handle this anymore,,I'm not the right one for this job ! Somebody goofed,,and thinks I can take all this,,and I CAN'T !! "

Of course,,I can,,,and I will cause there is no one else,,but it sure seems to be too much sometimes !

Kim mom to Meaghan 15 ~~Katelyn 12 Bipolar,and OCD ~~ Logan 7 Autism,congenital myopathy,possible mitochondrial disease,and JRA ~~ and Ethan 5 and 100 % BOY__________________________________________________