Weight in TODAY!!!

[Guest guest]

I'm keeping my fingers crossed and trying to remain positive. But the

true of the matter is, that if I don't hit goal I'll be seriously

upset. I've increased my walking over that last month from 30mins 5

days a week to 45 mins, and I've also increased the speed and

incline. I've watched what I eat, and I was very careful over the

holidays.

But I can't help but wonder if I don't make it, will I become

depressed and fall off the wagon for the next week. Like this

morning, I was going to excercise @ 5am and there were 2 people down

in the gym walking like turtles on the treadmill. I was soooo pissed,

I wanted to yell at them to get off. WHY? Because no one I've ever

seen at the gym has ever come back. I'm there every day and it's my

place!!! so I felt like this morning was the last opportunity to burn

calories and I couldn't. I was on the verge of tears because I wanted

to work out that last time... now I feel like if I don't meet

goal...then I'm never going to.

I am soo positive about my weight lost. I see all the changes

already. I'm up to 40lbs and it's over the 10% because I started to

loose before orientation. I want this soo bad I can taste it. I have

tried and tried, and this will be the most I've ever lost on my own.

I'm super proud of myself. But the other reason I want goal today is

because I want to start the new year off right. It's January and I

deserve to set a good tone for the rest of the year. I also promised

I would tell my in-laws if I met goal today. I'm still holding out on

telling them because of what they might think. I dont' want the

negative but they have been sooo positive about my weight loss as of

right now. They can see the change and improvement.

Please say a prayer that it's meant to be for me today. I know

myself, and I know I'm going to cry if I don't... and I know if I

don't it will be because of like 2-3lbs only, which will fuel my

belief that had I worked out this morning I would have met goal.

Vicious cycle I'm in on my thoughts right now... lol

LISA

highest weight 330/295 and need to be at 285