Normal & other thoughts

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For the first time in my life, I feel normal. I'm not even quite sure

how to explain this. I took my pants out of the dryer this morning and

held them up and realized that these truly were my pants and how small

the looked in comparison to my " fat " pants. I felt great putting them

on, tucked my shirt in, put on a belt and had a little spring in my

step all morning as I've been going about my business at work. I

started this job 2 months ago and they never knew the old me, the

morbid obese me. I've chosen not to share that with anyone here. It's

nice to be just Tina. Normal gal. Does any of this make sense?

I'm down 100 pounds officially from my surgery date today and 136

pounds since orientation. I'll be 7 months post-op on Saturday,

Christmas Eve.

A comment on " spit it out " ...I've done this too! I never thought I

would but when I put something in my mouth, if it doesn't taste good,

I spit it out. Why waste the calories on food that is tasteless? I

want to thoroughly enjoy it and be mindful about it. My husband laughs

at me. I also spit it out if I'm chewing it up and I get that full

feeling all of the sudden...instead of just swallowing it, I spit it

out and claim " I'm done! " It's a great thing!!

I'm not very eloquent in my wording (like the Francisco & Robynn --

bless you guys -- you put into words exactly what I'm thinking many

times) but I hope some of this makes sense.

It's nice being normal...sigh.

I'm off to Disneyland this afternoon...the weather in Anaheim for our

Friday & Saturday adventure is suppose to be 78 and 80. I'll get to

ride every stinkin' ride I want. What a wonderful Christmas gift to

myself and my family.

Life is good.

Merry Christmas (Happy Holidays) to everyone and their families. May

you all have a blessed holiday.

Tina