Re: heart and hunger cravings-- and Gordy

[Guest guest]

: We'll make it! We always do! And we are so worth the effort!

Thanks for your support Gordy! You da man!

Francisco

> >

> > I'm really struggling today.

> >

> > I'm at the office, and there are chocolate cookies and fudge in

the

> > break room. I've really had to tell myself over and over that I

> > don't need to eat them.

> >

> > And I'm so tempted. So I've been doing one of my " eccentric "

> > techniques that has been helping. So here's my confession about

> what

> > it is: I go in the break room. I look at the food I don't need,

> and

> > I repeat, " I don't need this right now. "

> >

> > Then I take the portion that I would normally eat (I've done this

> > several times today because there is tons of stuff in there, and

in

> > the past, I would have eaten a huge portion of food like that),

and

> I

> > wrap it in a paper towel, and crush it in my hands. Then I throw

> it

> > out in the trash thinking, " It's going to eventually end up in

the

> > landfill or the sewer. It does not have to go through me. "

> >

> > OK, I feel a little better. Those little victories bolster my

> > confidence.

> >

> > I'm not sure where this craving came from. Maybe it has to do

with

> > all the introspection I've been doing. Maybe it's my heart being

> > tussled around. Philippe is over, but I've already been on two

> dates

> > with a new guy, Dan. And Dan seems like a really nice guy… very

> > sweet. The dynamic between Philippe and me was all moon beams

and

> > romance (not necessarily bad), but with Dan, there is a

calmness.

> > Philippe was like a gale force wind, whereas Dan feels like a

warm

> > tropical breeze. I'm enjoying the more relaxed feeling I'm

getting

> > from Dan. Melting in his arms last night made me feel safe and

> > secure. We held each other and rocked back and forth as he ran

his

> > fingers through my hair. I get relaxed and sleepy just thinking

> > about it.

> >

> > So… I'm still thinking about my response about how to fill the

> void,

> > Lilka. Hopefully, I'll have a coherent response to that one soon.

> >

> > But, for now, I've beaten the craving monster, and I'm feeling

> better.

> >

> > Thanks for listening. I think my cravings will always be tied to

> my

> > emotions. At least now I have some coping skills that help me

> though

> > the rough times.

> >

> > Francisco

> >

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