Sad and DisCouraged

[Guest guest]

I've read everyone's posts lately about not loosing weight the way

they feel it should be happening and then having feelings of regret

creep in the back of their mind - I to am no different.

Last night I broke down and ust cried and cried, and saying to

myself " did i do this all for nothing " . It's hard in this situation

for me not to compare myself to others. And I feel like I'm not doing

enough. I'm working out 5-7 days a week, and I'm only eating 2 oz

meals 3 times a day and drinking as much water as I can humanly

drink. But I still feel like it's not enough. I'm 4 weeks out, and

I've lost roughly 20lbs. I feel like my weightloss should be higher.

I know my body is resting and probably holding on to itself becuase

it's going through so much. But that doesn't comfort me. I'm not

tempted to overeat, I'm just depressed and sad inside. I don't want

to get this attitude of " I'm done " . I don't want to give up this

battle, and think that I dont' have to try anymore. I know I have to

try just as hard as before surgery.

I was so motivated and positive before, but now I'm in a " FUNK " ! I'm

tired all of a sudden lately. I wasn't right after surgery, but some

said it will hit you, and I think it has. I just am soooo so

emotional inside, I'm on the verge of tears just writing this post.

I do to support and I talk on here, but something inside just doesn't

feel right. I'm my only motivator, and I've got to do this for

myself. I've got to get back that spark I had beore surgery.

My financee say's I'm doing fine, and he know's this is hard for me.

He is supportive no matter what, and sometimes I just need to be

held. To be assured I did the right thing for me, I guess it's a

little buyers remorse cause my results or expectations of myself are

set soo high. But that's my personality, always has been. I put more

pressure on by then anyone else does.

If anyone has any advise, or self helps tapes or meditation.. I'm

open to anything that will help me get my spark back.

LISA :-)