Normal or return to hyper?

[Guest guest]

Hi all! Hope everyone's having a good day!

I was until my doctor's office called...now I am confused and stressed

Just got back my labs from 7/25/03 - here's the rundown.

10/30/02 FT3 3.10 (2.3 - 4.2)

FT4 1.00 (.80 - 1.8)

TSH 0.97 (.49 - 4.67)

2/11/03 FT4 0.90

TSH 2.81 (.40 - 5.5)

5/7/03 FT4 0.96

TSH 0.73 (.40 - 5.5)

7/25/03 FT3 3.33

FT4 1.07

TSH 0.52 (.40 - 5.5)

To me, this all looks pretty good. And, more importantly, I feel good for

the first time since December! As a reminder, I am not on any medications. I

am technically " uuntreated " . My FT3 and FT4 both seem to be relatively

stable. It's that stupid TSH that has it's own mind. And that seems to be

the only thing my equally stupid doctor cares about.

Now, possibly I am returning to hyper, or maybe this is my normal. Any ideas

on that? I certainly feel more " normal " . My heartrate is still normal,

between 65-75. I'm not losing any weight like before I was diagnosed. If

anything, I'm still gaining a few mysterious pounds. I'm not very hungry

like when hyper. In fact, sometimes I skip lunch and don't notice it. If I

am returning to hyper, I don't feel it yet. My joint pains are gone, I'm not

freezing like I usually am. I'm still colder than everyone else around me,

but I least I don't feel the need to put on a couple of sweaters. I have

energy for the first in a long time. And it sure doesn't look like my FT4

and FT3 are high by any account. I'm thinking I just have to continue the 3

month wait-and-see approach, which is what I have been doing for the past 2

years.

Here's the problem. The nurse said when she called that the doctor was

concerned that my TSH was only just barely in range and that she wasn't sure

what he wanted to do about that. Here's what irks me...when I went in with

the TSH of 2.81 and felt absolutely hypo lousy, doctor said there wasn't

anything they could do for me since that was still in " normal " range. But

now that I feel _good_, he wants to muck it up even though it's still in

" normal " range! This makes me so incredibly ANGRY!

I seem to remember that there are other people out there who run a low TSH

with normal FT4 and FT3. Terry - were you one? Does anyone else have there

own examples of this? I can't recall who. And if so, what does your doctors

say/think of this?

Anyway, rant aside, I don't know what to do now. I'm already getting

stressed for my appointment on Friday with the inevitable confrontation

that's going to come of this with the doctor. I know other people get this

way, too. I'm considering just cancelling my appointment and waiting until

the next labs to see where it's gone then. If history repeats itself, it'll

be colder then and my TSH will have gone back up. But that's if we're

following the previous trend.

So what do you think? Should I save my time, money, stress, and sanity (most

important) and just cancel the appointment? I know it's kind of the coward's

way out, but I really doubt I'm going to hear anything useful from him. The

best that would happen would be that he'd just say to come back in 3 months

and see what's happened with the labs, and duh, I already know that!

And by the way, I know, what I really have to do is find another doctor!

Anyway, thanks for any insight you guys have. I'm too close to the source to

figure out what to do.