My Little Masterpiece

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My Little Masterpiece

Are you with me little one?

Have the day’s events soaked in once the day is done?

Is the path that mommy chooses for you clear?

I only do what I think is best for you my dear.

I cannot stand to see you lost.

It will be the end of me, before I allow my efforts tossed.

Day in and day out, my mind is in constant motion.

Thinking of ways to reach you & teach you. There is no end to my

devotion.

Do you go through the days that I have packed for you, in vain?

Would you rather be outside, chasing the rainbows after the rain?

Those miracle moments when your stare is so deep inside of me ,

These are treasures collected in my heart, like rare jewels that I will

take to my destiny.

How I wish, I could be so ethical, to accept you the way you were.

To lie in the bed that GOD has made for me, yet I failed to deter.

I wonder where you would be if I left you all alone.

In your quiet mystical world, where one couldn’t even hurt you with a

stone.

That place where you wouldn’t be expected to perform and be up to par

..

For your label would be your excuse and no one would’ve expected

anything more.

Yet, I have chosen to make you a part of this judgmental earth.

And try to defeat the cards that life dealt to me, the day of your

birth.

I pray every night, that you forgive me for being so head strong and

ambitious.

Perhaps I do take the definition of “tough love “ a bit too viscous.

One thing is for sure my love, maybe one day you will understand.

That mommy loves you with a passion that some would never comprehend.

Though, I work with you through cries and screams, and have even dodged

a chair or two

Know that I hear you, know that it hurts me… But I push forward and

onward, just for you.

Yes I know it would be easier to give up and let you grow at your own

rate.

But later in life if I say “Help my son”,they might say, ”I am sorry it

is too late”

Though my days are long, my body tired and my beauty fading day to day..

I know if I leave this earth tomorrow, I would have no regrets to take

to my grave.

That I did not leave you as a cripple in this world with undeniable

strife

I know that I would leave you with the chance to live a fuller brighter

life.

For now you speak, and now you know your colors , shapes and sizes.

You know your numbers and how to count , you fill my days with

surprises.

You know the sky consists of sparkling stars and a sun and moon.

You go in the potty , you say “more PLEASE” and eat your cereal with a

spoon

Though many would think that these accomplishments are trivial and small

Only you and I and THOSE LIKE US, would know the glory of it all.

You look for kisses and for hugs something you never used to do.

Yes, my love you have come so far, I know that it has been hard for you.

Know that I am proud, for you, not I, have made the biggest sacrifice.

You work so diligently, harder than a typical grown man would in all his

life.

I will not lie, I do still weep, for the road is long and I know the

journey is not over

“How much longer mommy?” you ask...My love, to this question I do not

have the answer.

I will be with you until the end of time, praying for the strength and

the patience to prevail.

Have comfort that you do not have a “typical mother” and I will not let

you fail.

Know this. You are my life, my soul , you are what drives the blood

through my veins

Perhaps God sent you to me unfinished and it is my duty to grab hold of

the reins.

To finish you, my little masterpiece that I work and toil over everyday

With never ending devotion and commitment, I wouldn’t have it any other

way .

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By Dibra for my beautiful son Adem