Eye Dr. Appt. Interesting

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Sat morn I headed to the eye dr as had redness on the white

of the eye and discharge. This was my first dr appt in a while and I

feared an Rx of mercury preserved drops. I saw thatthe compounding

pharmacy was open on Saturdays so I figured if need be I'd try that.

Turns out no drops needed (made me wonder about the endless supply of

the mercury drops both kids got backn in the day from the regular

pedatrician). She said I could use fake tears to cleanse and offered

me some. I asked if preserved and she said no but the drugstore had

the kind I needed. I just started crying. She did not chastiose me

for a granola question or anything. That was the first time since ,

oh, forever I felt like someone got it. I thanked her and she

said, " Looking at this chart and all this boy has been through I can

only imagine you fear it all. " I then cried again, like a dope

because I had nothing to say.

I may seem vocal here (you think) but that is what this did to me. I

have always been social but problems with my kids shut me up, turned

me inward, scared me silent. I needed this visit, not for the empathy

but for the acknowledgement that the things we moms with this care

about are indeed noteworthy. Now if I can only get that point across

to my overfluoridated pediatrician whose kids are gfcfsf and more.