Thank You's and Memorial to

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I wanted to Say thank you to everyone for their letters I tried to

respond to them all But I was afraid i was flooding the board, So If

i missed anyone individually I want to say thank you Now.

We Did decide to name him: Meyer ( no middle name)

We Had A Little Memorial Service yesterday, 1 Week from the Day

(BF) and I took a Small Sterilite container and filled it with

things that would of been 's I put in A Sleeper, a Bib, a

Recieving blanket, a bottle, and put in a Hotwheel car. We

also put in a Copy of the ultrasound pictures, and and I wrote

a message each to him ( that was his Idea) We took it to where Tyler

( my other son I lost) was burried and burried it there. I

put some rocks around it to Mark it and I want to also Mark it better

with both their Names, I am not sure if My Step father Planted these

Cedar trees there they way they are it is a Square there are 4 trees

one for each corner, Tylers Grave is covered completely now by 2 of

the trees and I am sure 's will be as well in a few years, ( I

lost Tyler 7 years ago)

I guess I feel a little better Like we laid him to rest I told

it still is not him and Said remember the Best part of him is

somewhere Safe now, I said he would of been safe inside of me. I

blame my self so much mom because I should of known I was in Labor I

just should of known and not knowing if he could of been saved or

just the fact that he might have been saved, kills me.

I think I am doing so well this time because I have the support of My

family the Girls have been very loving and supportive for little

girls. They are so smart and wonderful and i am so Glad to have

them . My Mother and have been so great. If it were not for

them I think I would of slipped away Into a funk and not came back

out.

I know all will be well and if it were up to me I would get pregnant

again right away but I need to wait for my Bodies sake, I wanted

to say think you again for all your letters and hopefully I will be

active in the list again some day soon.

Jenni

Mom to:

Michelea Noel 7-17-95

Tyler 1-25-97 (Lil' Angel)

la Joy 2-14-99

Meyer 7-05-04 (Lil' Angel)

WLS 9-15-03 299/165

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((((Jenni))))))

What you did took alot of courage, sweetie...I hope that having the

memorial service will help you to deal with this loss - having a

place to go thats beautiful, where you can honor and remember the

ones you've lost.

I want to tell you not to blame yourself, but I know that no matter

how many people tell you this, until you realize yourself that it

was not your fault, my saying this is not of help. In your heart,

you know that sometimes God calls little one's home before they have

their time with us...but your head is still looking for reasons,

right?

Wishing you strength, love, courage and prayers, Jenni...One day at

a time. I know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,

EDC Nov 10

> I wanted to Say thank you to everyone for their letters I tried to

> respond to them all But I was afraid i was flooding the board, So

If

> i missed anyone individually I want to say thank you Now.

>

> We Did decide to name him: Meyer ( no middle name)

> We Had A Little Memorial Service yesterday, 1 Week from the Day

> (BF) and I took a Small Sterilite container and filled it

with

> things that would of been 's I put in A Sleeper, a Bib, a

> Recieving blanket, a bottle, and put in a Hotwheel car. We

> also put in a Copy of the ultrasound pictures, and and I

wrote

> a message each to him ( that was his Idea) We took it to where

Tyler

> ( my other son I lost) was burried and burried it there. I

> put some rocks around it to Mark it and I want to also Mark it

better

> with both their Names, I am not sure if My Step father Planted

these

> Cedar trees there they way they are it is a Square there are 4

trees

> one for each corner, Tylers Grave is covered completely now by 2

of

> the trees and I am sure 's will be as well in a few years, (

I

> lost Tyler 7 years ago)

>

> I guess I feel a little better Like we laid him to rest I told

> it still is not him and Said remember the Best part of him

is

> somewhere Safe now, I said he would of been safe inside of me. I

> blame my self so much mom because I should of known I was in Labor

I

> just should of known and not knowing if he could of been saved or

> just the fact that he might have been saved, kills me.

>

> I think I am doing so well this time because I have the support of

My

> family the Girls have been very loving and supportive for little

> girls. They are so smart and wonderful and i am so Glad to have

> them . My Mother and have been so great. If it were not

for

> them I think I would of slipped away Into a funk and not came back

> out.

>

> I know all will be well and if it were up to me I would get

pregnant

> again right away but I need to wait for my Bodies sake, I

wanted

> to say think you again for all your letters and hopefully I will

be

> active in the list again some day soon.

>

> Jenni

> Mom to:

> Michelea Noel 7-17-95

> Tyler 1-25-97 (Lil' Angel)

> la Joy 2-14-99

> Meyer 7-05-04 (Lil' Angel)

> WLS 9-15-03 299/165