BFP...perhaps

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Hi everyone...

It's been a while since I've posted, so I'll give you my basics. I had RNY

(open) surgery on April 30, 2002. Got married on May 18, 2002 (nuts, huh??).

The wedding was really, really small and really, really last minute, so we

decided to do a BIG wedding celebration on July 5, 2003. I wanted to wear a

real wedding dress, have bridesmaids, etc, etc, etc. Plus, my hubby and I

waited a long time for each other (he was 42 and I was 36 when we married) so

we had much to celebrate with our family and friends.

Anyway...since we've been married we've been through so much: my recovery

from my surgery (pretty much flawless), me getting a new job, me getting

another new job (which I LOVE!!!), my husband losing his job after working for

the

same company for 17 years (can you say MERGER??), my hubby having total hip

replacement surgery on April 6, 2004 (right hip...and he's recovered

perfectly), and him getting (after 9 months...PRAISE GOD he had 9 months of

full pay

severence from his other job) a new job in June. So life is good. We got

the green light from my surgeon a year ago to go ahead and start trying to have

a family, but then the lay off came, and then the hip surgery.

Anyway...we've been trying since January of this year with no luck. We did

have to take

2 months off from trying while he was recovering from his surgery and that

was DIFFICULT;) I'm on day 31 of my cycle and no period!!! WooHoo!!! I had

ordered more OPKs, PreSeed lubricant, more pregnancy test strips, etc...and I

don't think I'll need them. The last couple of days I've been feeling kinda

" periodish " , but I haven't gotten it yet. No sign of it at all. Usually

I'll start spotting or bleeding very lightly just a few hours after I start

feeling that way. So...I took a pregnancy test this morning. I got the test

strips from _www.babyhopes.com_ (http://www.babyhopes.com) . In the test area

there will be one or two lines. One line is the control line (which tells you

the test is working properly). If another line appears (the test line),

then that means you're pregnant. Well, I wasn't sure if I was seeing a really

faint line or if I was wanting to see a line so badly that I was imagining it.

I asked my husband what he saw in the white area. Keep in mind he had no

idea what he was supposed to be seeing. Without hesitation he said, " There

are two lines. One is darker than the other, but there are two lines there. "

So...it might not be a big fat positive, but a big faint positive, but the

test directions say that the darkness of the line means nothing. If there's a

line there, you're pregnant. I still can't quite believe it, so I'm trying

really hard not to get my hopes up. I was all set to go back on my Clomid

this cycle and now I may not have to. YEAH!! I'm going to see my surgeon

today

(social visit...taking him some banana bread and a mocha. He says that all

the weight his patients lose, he gains because we bring him so much food.

Weird, huh??) and I'll ask him if he can order a pregnancy test that I can do

today or if I should just be patient and wait until Monday when I can

(hopefully) get in to see my OB/GYN. That's probably the best thing to do

because

if I don't get my period by Monday then for SURE I know I'm pregnant. I'm a

29-31day cycle girl.

Thanks for listening to me ramble (and ramble and ramble). Can you tell I'm

excited!!??

Quick question: when you found out you were pregnant, how long did you wait

to start telling people?? Part of me wants to scream it to the world, but

part of me wants to wait until my 1st trimester is over with.

Thanks for the encouragement, prayers and words of advice!!!

Peace...

Melody

Surgeon: Dr. Clayton, River Falls Hospital, River Falls, WI

Surgery Date: 04/30/02

Highest Weight: 298 lbs.

Today's Weight 160 lbs (although my lowest was a year ago at 144 lbs...and

that ticks me off)