Re: Tough Day ---Melody

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(((((Melody)))))))

What a difficult and sad day for you, Mel...A reminder of a very

recent loss, and in public...Thankfully, you were surrounded by

God's love in His house, with many good people...I know it wasn't

your Caleb that you baptized today, but you set another soul on a

good start today and your little Caleb in heaven is looking down

proud of you for helping another little boy on his Christian path...

I am not usually religious (I do feel I am spiritual), but your post

just struck me and I wanted to respond to your pain. Something good

happened today, despite how hard it was for you. As we have all

said, you included I believe, God has a plan for everyone...and I

hope in the future this plan will reveal its good sides and make

today seem a little less hard.

Thinking of you,

> Hi everyone!

> Well, it's rainy and cloudy and grey in the Twin Cities today,

which I'm

> thankful for. It matches my mood today and now I have a " reason "

to sleep.

>

> As some of you know, I'm the children's minister at our church.

I LOVE my

> job. This was my first week back at church (on Sunday) since I

had my

> miscarriage on July 23rd. It was tough. Usually on Sunday's (at

least during the

> summer) my only real responsibilities are to do the children's

sermons at our

> early and late service. Well, today I also had to lead our

contemprorary

> service because the regular director was out of town. I love

doing that. It

> started out OK...until we came to the middle of the service and

there was a

> baptism. Being Lutheran, we baptize babies. Now baptisms always

bring a tear

> to my eye anyway, but today was just horrible in light of my

miscarriage.

> What made it worse??? The baby's name was Caleb...the same name

Mark and I

> picked out if we would have had a boy. I just cried and cried

and cried. After

> crying so much I had to get up in front of everyone to finish the

service

> along with the others in the Praise Team. I feel like my head is

going to

> explode now (you know how you get a headache after you cry so

much?). What a

> tough day for Mark and me.

>

> He's in Minneapolis for a continuing education class for work

today so I'm

> glad he can get his mind off of it...at least I hope he's able to

get his mind

> off of " things " and concentrate. I'm going to go take a nap.

>

> Thanks for listening to me vent you guys. This is so hard!!!

>

> Love and peace...

> Melody

>

> Surgeon: Dr. Clayton, River Falls Hospital, River Falls,

WI

> Surgery Date: 04/30/02

> Highest Weight: 298 lbs.

> Today's Weight 160 lbs (although my lowest was a year ago at 144

lbs...and

> that ticks me off)

>

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