Guest guest Posted August 28, 2004 Report Share Posted August 28, 2004 I have been bothered by something since Emerson was born and i think about this EVERYDAY, I must be crazy BUTTTT, I AM SSOOO SORRY I HAD MY TUBES TIED. It makes my eyes fill with tears and I feel like crying. Deep within my heart I feel I was meant for one more child, I don't know why, I am blessed with 4 now but when I was rgowing up I always wanted a HUGE family and then could NOT get pregnant which made me want them all that much more and I wanted as many as GOD would give me and I have these 4 great kids but I feel like I am the one who halted GOD " S plan for me by tying my tubes, Maybe I was meant for 5, I know I sure feel like I was VERY VREY WRONG in tying my tubes. Pup does not care one way or the other, he supports my decisions but I just feel bad. Maybe it is my hormones but it sure feels like it is straight from the heart. God Bless, Robin Wife to Pup for 15 years Mommy to- and (twin boys, 8 years) and Daughter Madison- age 5 1/2 and new Mommy to- Emerson Roger born July 28, 2004 at 4:11 am 8lbs 7 oz, 20 1/2 inches long. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 28, 2004 Report Share Posted August 28, 2004 No, Robin, you're not totally nuts, but this is a very normal feeling for the first few months/years of your child's life. It's partly hormonal, really... you're grieving the loss of that expectant, excited anticipation of Baby's arrival and you want it again. I did it, too. My miscarriage happened about 15 months after my son was born, and I was devastated because I *so* wanted to do the whole thing again. My son just turned five last Tuesday. This summer I felt for the first time that I was *done* and really didn't want to backtrack through the baby stage with any more kids. I miss my baby that I never knew, but I also try to imagine how different my life would be if I also had a three-year-old dashing around, and it is hard to imagine. I've gotten accustomed to the sense of independence, the feeling that I no longer have to change anyone's diaper or make sure anyone gets a nap at the right time... I went out and got a job teaching high school (I start on Monday! Pray for me!) and I feel like I'm finally getting *myself* back again after having given it totally to my kids for the past ten years. I never thought I'd reach that point; I was always the one who wanted to adopt more kids and we have never used contraception because I always felt like God would be the one to determine whether we had more kids or not. The main problem with me having more kids, though, is that I would have to quit my job AGAIN and start all over. I'm too tired and old (ha) and have decided that it's time to be done. I crave sleep way too much, for one thing! Those sleepless weeks of pregnancy, followed by sleepless weeks/months of baby... I just can't take the stress like I did five years ago. LOL I think that I'm going to make an appointment for Rick to get snipped. All that to encourage you -- yes, your feelings are completely normal. Hang in there, and instead of focusing on what you can't have, invest all your mooshy-gooshy loveys into that wee man Emerson and spoil him terribly. LOLOL -- Kris Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 28, 2004 Report Share Posted August 28, 2004 Hey Robin, maybe it just means that your 5th kid is gonna come from somewhere else? Maybe thats what God's plan is? Thats what I'm thinkin'. Hang in there sweetie, its all in His plan I'm sure. Axelrod Am I totally NUTS???? I have been bothered by something since Emerson was born and i think about this EVERYDAY, I must be crazy BUTTTT, I AM SSOOO SORRY I HAD MY TUBES TIED. It makes my eyes fill with tears and I feel like crying. Deep within my heart I feel I was meant for one more child, I don't know why, I am blessed with 4 now but when I was rgowing up I always wanted a HUGE family and then could NOT get pregnant which made me want them all that much more and I wanted as many as GOD would give me and I have these 4 great kids but I feel like I am the one who halted GOD " S plan for me by tying my tubes, Maybe I was meant for 5, I know I sure feel like I was VERY VREY WRONG in tying my tubes. Pup does not care one way or the other, he supports my decisions but I just feel bad. Maybe it is my hormones but it sure feels like it is straight from the heart. God Bless, Robin Wife to Pup for 15 years Mommy to- and (twin boys, 8 years) and Daughter Madison- age 5 1/2 and new Mommy to- Emerson Roger born July 28, 2004 at 4:11 am 8lbs 7 oz, 20 1/2 inches long. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 28, 2004 Report Share Posted August 28, 2004 #1. you're not nuts- you're normal- most women expererince these to a certain point. and #2, if God wants you to have a 5th, well then, perhaps that tubal won't " take " Love yoU! Sheila Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 28, 2004 Report Share Posted August 28, 2004 <denise.axelrod@u...> wrote: " maybe it just means that your 5th kid is gonna come from somewhere else? Maybe thats what God's plan is? " ---> yeah thats it! I am going to send Blake to live with " Aunt Robin " ! LOL Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 29, 2004 Report Share Posted August 29, 2004 Robin - My sister went through the exact same thoughts when she decided to have her tubes tied. She was miserable. This lasted about three weeks and then she was OK with her decision and now she feels like it was the best decision of her life. Maybe just give it a little more time and try talking to your doctor about it. Best of Luck Tara RNY 11-05-02 265/150 9 weeks pregnant with first baby Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 29, 2004 Report Share Posted August 29, 2004 I think it is just my hormones. I know I wanted more kids but I know I am not getting any younger, if I were younger i would NEVER had them tied like I did. Thanks everyone. God Bless, Robin Wife to Pup for 15 years Mommy to- and (twin boys, 8 years) and Daughter Madison- age 5 1/2 and new Mommy to- Emerson Roger born July 28, 2004 at 4:11 am 8lbs 7 oz, 20 1/2 inches long. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 29, 2004 Report Share Posted August 29, 2004 ((Robin)) I say it's the hormones. Anyone know how it takes for hormones to 'regulate' post delivery? WlsMomma > I have been bothered by something since Emerson was born and i think about > this EVERYDAY, I must be crazy BUTTTT, I AM SSOOO SORRY I HAD MY TUBES TIED. It > makes my eyes fill with tears and I feel like crying. Deep within my heart I > feel I was meant for one more child, I don't know why, I am blessed with 4 now > but when I was rgowing up I always wanted a HUGE family and then could NOT get > pregnant which made me want them all that much more and I wanted as many as > GOD would give me and I have these 4 great kids but I feel like I am the one > who halted GOD " S plan for me by tying my tubes, Maybe I was meant for 5, I know > I sure feel like I was VERY VREY WRONG in tying my tubes. Pup does not care > one way or the other, he supports my decisions but I just feel bad. Maybe it is > my hormones but it sure feels like it is straight from the heart. > God Bless, Robin > Wife to Pup for 15 years > Mommy to- > and > (twin boys, 8 years) and > Daughter Madison- age 5 1/2 > and new Mommy to- > Emerson Roger born > July 28, 2004 at 4:11 am > 8lbs 7 oz, 20 1/2 inches long. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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