Having more pain,nausea, and depressed

[Guest guest]

Hi Everyone,

I wish I could reply to the message from referring

to " Having the Blues " I wish I could give her some inspiring message

to help her but right now I can't help myself. The truth of the

matter is I am also having the blues. I haven't had a goodnights

sleep for about a week. I've been getting up every night with pain

and by the time my medication kicks in I'm wide awake. I know I

should be in the hospital for pain management. I get so depressed to

think about going back into the hospital again. It disrupts my family

life, I know they get discouraged, frustrated, and I end up feeling

so guilty for putting them through this. The pain is getting worse

and I am experiencing a lot of nausea. Just the thought of going back

in upsets me to no end. I'm going to try to ride it out until Monday

when I see my pancreatic specialist. I do hope is feeling

better soon and I hope she knows that she is in my prayers. Thank you

for listening.

Sincerely,

Janet

[Guest guest]

Janet,

Did you try going on a clear liquid diet. When I start hurting I go to a

straight clear liquid diet as they would give me in the hospital. That is all

they do anyway is IV fluids and pain medicine, then gradually go to clear

liquids then full liquids. I HATE THIS DISEASE!!!!!. I still go through the

" WHY ME " phase. I know how you say you hate to be a burden to your family. I

feel the same way. I don't like them to worry. I hope you feel better soon.

Patty

" Janet L. Combs " wrote:

[Guest guest]

Hi Janet; thanks for the well wishes. I'm sorry that you are

feeling so poorly these days. I understand entirely how you feel.

My illness has taken a major toll on my family. It been very

difficult for them to adjust and now it seems they really dont need

me any more at all. Well except to drive them around. that was

part of my " blues " feeling so useless.

I guess I can not be a very good confort to you either but it is

good to know that others feel what you feel and understand entirely

where you are coming from. I can recall trying to explain to my

friends what was going on and I got a bucket full of retorict. They

mean well and do care, but they dont understand like we do.

Its normal to have feelings of depression sometimes, then anger,

denial, doubt, fear, acceptance, then start all over again. We seem

to cycle through those emotions over and over again and can never

see an end.

I feel a lot better, I had the total with the auto ict. My pain is

virtually gone, I still have a lot of adjustments to deal with and I

find it very frustrating that I still can NOT do so many things.

This too will get better in time. I guess time is all any of us

really have.

I hope you feel better soon and can make it until monday. Do you

have enough pain and nausea meds. Lord knows that is the only thing

that kept me alive for a very long time. I wish there was something

i could do to make you feel better, but I cant. The only thing I

can do is to let you know I understand exactly how you feel and I

truly hope that you feel better soon. Monday is along way when your

feeling that bad. Dont be afraid to go to the hospital, your family

really and truly does not want you to suffer. They love you and

want you to feel well. So do we.

Warmly,

[Guest guest]

Don't let this woman fool you!

Her illness is not a burden to me...I live to love her and care for

her. She knows all she has to do is say the word and I'll deliver her

to the ER.

I am her husband...

Love you sweetie,

jimmy