Dear Sweet Fliss

[Guest guest]

I wrote a very long post to you a few days ago or so. I was

wondering how things were going for ya'll. thank you for letting us

know when Jim is having surgery. That is an odd date. Docs in the

states rarely see the inside of an OR on the weekend unless they are

on emergency call. Please know that I will have my rosary out for

ya'll that weekend. It is a blessed time so that is a good sign.

I am doing so well its almost scarey..LOL. Getting back to my old

obnoxious self. I worry a bit about no longer having a spleen and

the increased risk of infections but I have gotten some really good

advice from our fellow board members and am looking forward to going

to the book stores next week. I haven't had to have any insulin in

almost 3 weeks, isnt that just amazing. I am eating anything I want

too. I cant eat much or will have pain but they say that is the

normal recovery for some body who has had as much panc surgery as I

have had in just 11 months. That in itself is amazing. I really

went through the ringer and being a nurse and knowing all that I

know has made it so much worse. Worry wart to the max!

Ive been looking for a job and feeling alittle blue about not

getting such a rapid response as I had hoped. but I am picky about

what I am applying for. I dont see myself going back to floor

nursing, working all those rotating shifts. Too old and too weak

for that, let the young new grads have their go at that. I did my

time...LOL. I am trying to have faith that the right job will come

at the right time. I still dont think I am strong enough for full

time and I know if will be a very long time,if ever, that I will be

able to work in a high stress fast paced area. Also as Lily pointed

out, I probably should avoid clinics where there are " sick " people

as my resistance is so much weaker. She also told me to have faith

as well. Good advice from a good friend.

I had lunch with Heidi a few weeks ago. She is a lovely, well

actually beautiful woman and we hit if off immediately. As if we

had known each other for years and could have talked all afternoon

had I not needed to leave topick up my kids from school. She

and myself are going to get together for a weekend at her

house as soon as we can coordinate our schedules. The end of april

seems to be a good time and I have already marked it on my

calander. Why dont you join us? I do wish you could. We would

probably be like school girls at a slumber party and talk all night

with our jaws aching in the morning from laughing so much. What was

it we used to do, the first one to fall asleep had their bra put in

the freezer...LOL. We may have to hold off on the pillow fights

tho...LOLOLOL

Please give Jim my best and let him know my thoughts and prayers are

with you both, and the boys. Billy had his yearly checkup

recently. As you may recall prostate cancer is very prevalent in

his fathers family. He has 9 uncles and so far half have come down

with it and that is what lead to his fathers demise. His dad was

very noncompliant tho. Another uncle passed as well from it ( he

was much older) but the other 2 are doing well and functioning as if

they never had it. so the prognosis is very good. If you ever want

to discuss it, please feel free to email me. I had worked very

closely with the uro surgeons at MUSC for years and of course picked

their brains all the time for personal reasons I am sure you

understand.

Well you know I love you dearly and my heart is with you now. I

hope the stress does not cause you any panc problems. You know how

stress can do that. I wish I could be with you now but my heart

is. Please please remember that and tell Jim and the boys.

Warmly,

Chrissy