Kaye

[Guest guest]

I am so sorry that you are down in the dumps these days. I

understand only too well how you are feeling. Considereing the

tortures that you have ndured lately it is perfectly

understandable. I know its no consolation but it is prefectly

normal to feel depressed sometimes, we all go through it at one time

or another. Allow yourself to feel whatever your body or mind is

telling you. Its ok. Next week you could be angry or in denial.

You already know that I have said many times that we all will cycle

through our emotions over and over again.

the accurpunture sounds like a great idea. The fact that she is

aware of panc issues and knows about SOD is just plain impressive.

I think it is a sign. I know it may sound a little crazy, but I

believe in signs and that things happen for a reason. Sometimes the

reasons aren't always clear or understandable until we take a step

away and look back. I still dont know why my life was completly

destroyed by cp, but I believe one day it will be apparent.

Go ahead cry, kick, scream, pucnh a pillow, whatever it takes. You

have every right to feel anyway you want. I hope it doesn't last

long tho, you have always been such an inspiration to me with your

strength and determination. Hey what about going back to school.

Look into that, I think its a great idea. You would be a terrific

nurse. I know the blood drawing thing has had a lot do with how

your feeling and you will feel a lot better once that is over and

done with. Thursday, thursday, it will be done.

I wish I could remember you better when we met several years ago. I

remember the conversation just cant put a face to the memory. I

hope one day we can meet again. I wish I could ride up there for a

day and take you shopping for that pretty new outfit for Easter;

that would be so much fun. You would have to by lunch tho...LOL

Your dog sounds beautiful, so do you.

Feel better,

Love,