nervous about methadone

[Guest guest]

I just realized when I got my reminder call today that I never posted

about my results from my last appt. I had an appt with a pain mgmt

specialist a couple weeks ago. I have been debating with myself ever

since regarding how it went. I was having a somewhat peaceful day

that day so I initially came away feeling good, but have been having

doubts since then. She gave me a script for methadone and told me to

drink a glass of turmeric each day. I turned in the script for the

methadone, but the pharmacy has yet to get it filled for me. (It's a

good thing it's not a life threatening med. It takes them about 2

weeks to get my meds filled). I tried the turmeric once but it tasted

so bad I haven't tried again. She also gave me the standard speech

designed to discourage any drug seeking behaviour. Since I am not a

drug seeker, I initially didn't take it too personally but have since

then developed doubts. What if she decides she wants to cut me off?

I would be so screwed since i signed paperwork saying I would not get

any meds from anyone but her. I can kinda see the point in terms of

those who dr hop looking for meds, but what if my gastro enterologist

wants me on something? I don't know, I'm just feeling nervous.

She also said she wanted to get me off my meds. She said she had

several cp patients who were doing just fine. I wonder how it is she

feels she can propose that because those people are fine so am I with

out getting to know me first?

I'm feeling hesitant to start on the methadone. I am afraid to get

hooked on another med and then maybe down the road some doc will

decide to be a jerk and not let me have the med. We all know they

have that tendency. Plus, I am on Medi-cal and I am waiting for some

beurocrat to decide, hmmm I think she doesn't need all this anymore

(even though I am not a dr and know nothing of the condition)

I'm also a little nervous because for my public assistance I had to

turn an evaluation form into my dr regarding my ability, or lack

thereof, to work and/or attend school. Now mind you, I never saw this

dr prior to my hospitalization. She saw me 3 days out then 1 wk after

that. Then she saw me about a month after that. She has not so much

as spoken a word to me since early to mid Feb. Now how exactly is she

going to know how my condition is without even speaking to me?

I'm so confused!!

Well, I just thought I would let everyone know how my 1st appt went

with the pain specialist.

I hope this finds everyone feeling good this fine spring day.

Kara (CA)

[Guest guest]

Kara,

I am glad they got something to help you. But wow, two weeks to get a script

filled! That is awful! Where are you having it filled!? I am also worried

about becoming addicted to pain meds. I do know that most docs won't take you

off

of any type of strong pain meds cold turkey because of the risks of

withdrawal and seizures. My docs had already told me that.

I hope you are having a great day!

Angie in SC

" The happiest of people don't necessarily have the

best of everything; they just make the best of everything that comes along

their way. "