another problem

[Guest guest]

I am so upset and totally freaking out. I had one JP drain remaining

and it stopped draining sometime sunday. Well by sunday night the

right side of my belly has swollen up to the size of a volley ball.

I look 8 months pregnant, but just onthe right side. It hurts

terribly, horribly actually and I can barely walk without hunching my

back. The pain meds arnt touching the pain and I am in agony. I can

honestly say it hurts as bad as my worse panc attacks.

I am just so upset, seems like every time I start to get better

something else happens. I just dont know how much more I can take.

Why does this keep happening. The swelling is all the way up my

right side to the rib cage. What if it damages my liver and

transplanted islet cells. Then all the tortures I have already

endured will all be in vain. I cant take any more, I just cant.

I'm seeing all the surgeons tomorrow and I am absolutely terrified.

I know all the stuff it could possibly be and I am trying not to

think about it. Its times like this that make being a nurse not an

advantage. I cried in the shower so my kids wouldn't see. Then my

youngest came to hug me this evening and asked 'what is that'. I

told her I didn't know and she just burst into tears. I am so scared.

Thanks for letting me vent, it feels better to just get it off my

chest. I have talked with the kids dad about it but he is just as

frustrated and worried as I am. When is this all going to end.

I hope everybody is doing ok and sorry that I haven't posted much,

this has me really shaking, and maybe on the verge of a complete

breakdown. Why does all this keep happening.

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

I am so sorry that you are still having problems. Reading your post

made me cry because I know what you are going through. Everytime the

doctors did a new proceedure they told me I should be feeling better.

Right now I have been having an attack that has been going on for two

weeks and I am trying to take care of it at home. I too ask what's

next. I get so depressed wanting to know when this torture is going to

go away. My Prayers are with you.

Get Better,

Janet