Re: to Anyse/ from S.

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Wow Anyse,

I had NO IDEA!

some thing this common should'n't be that hard to

detect.

that's pretty scarey.

why isn't it being investigated more? they have the

funds to do the research I'm sure.

I'm waiting for the results of my ct scan today. it's

friday and the tech said my dr. would have them in by

then.

the tech came in at the end of the scan and asked me

how much weight I've lost and in what amount of time?

I'm guessing this radiologist didn't find anything.

but I have to stop guessing here.

I'm used to having test after test and it all be

normal. so it's old behavoir in me when I think that

way. I'm tired of feeling like I'm sick because it's

in my head.

but I was evaluated by a psychiatrist to see if it was

all in my head. I was diagnosed with general anxiety

and I'm taking med's for that. I feel alot calmer. but

the psychiatrist is the one that said there's

definetly something else going on inside and if it

wasn't for her. I wouldn't have gone to the gastro

doc.

the psychiatrist had me see an endocronologist

thinking there was a cyst on my adrenal glands. test

was negative. endo doc then referred me to be

evaluated by a gastro doc which led me back after so

many years to dr.field.

I wouldn't have gone otherwise.

I just about gave up on seeing doctors from this point

on.

because noone was finding anything wrong.

but the weight was continuing to drop which really

scared me. People stare at me. and I'm sick of it. I

feel like they're thinking I look terrible and that

they think I'm anorexic and they probably think I like

looking this way.

It's not appealing at all to look like olive oil in

popeye cartoons when you put a skirt or a dress on.

legs that have no full calves. I feel UGLY! my hair

is thinning out, my skin looks horrible on my arms and

my neck looks boney and you can see the cords in it

when I move my head a certain way, and my teeth have

changed. they've shifted.

I feel so unattractive. yet my partner keeps telling

me that's no so.

He's so sweet and loving.

I just needed to vent and hope I didn't shock too many

people with the negative view I have of myself.

but this disease is no fun. One of my coworkers

laughed under her breath the other day and said ghee!

I wish I had that problem!

I told her no she doesn't!

she's always battling with her weight to keep it off.

that's why she said that. This is not my idea of how

to lose weight and I have to point this out to the

girls at work.

S.

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