Re: Laurie: Teratoma cysts

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Laurie,

I love corresponding with you. You're the first

person I've been able to talk to about the cyst

problem. I never sought a support group for it. I just

want to forget about the problem. Being that my gyno

doesn't feel it's anything to worry about, so I don't

anymore.

I once was on a path of hot pursuit awhile back

thinking this is what was causing all the weight loss,

had the cyst removed, started gaining weight again

little by little, and then the weight went down again

even further. so I'm back to square one. Until I was

referred to a gastro dr.

and now he's telling me I have CP. I had no clue

that's what I had.

I hope I don't scare you but I'm sure you've done

enough research to know that these type of cysts have

a high potential of turning malignant. the teratoma's

I'm speaking of.

so you haven't had a recurrence again since the second

surgery?

You were really hurt by this first dr. Laurie. It's

not good to keep that anger inside of you. it can eat

you away.

I just shared a similar story with my therapist about

my first primary dr. telling me my illness was all in

my head and that I enjoyed losing all the weight

becasue if I was that worried about it, I would've

thrown my cigarettes away instead of continueing to

smoke.

she obviously was speaking to me very unproffesional

and spoke to me as if she was my mother.

I am still angry with this dr.

so my therapist told me to write her a NICE letter

explaining what they've found with me and that it

wasn't all in my head, and that if in her future

another patient walks through her doors with similar

symotms I had, that she maybe consider pancreatic

problems.

I haven't done this yet. too much going on in my life

to take the time.

I don't want to waste my time on her.

I remember this dr being different from most, being

that she commented on fashion alot which showed me she

liked pretty clothes and by the way she grooms

herself, that she's very into looking thin and pretty.

she's about in her 50's and was borne in India. she

has a practice in the same office with her husband who

is a pulmonary specialtist.

she would always compare herself and her own health

problems to me.

I remember sharing with her about my symtoms of low

blood sugar attacks. they come out of know where

sometimes. even if I'd eatten a decent meal.

anyway, she'd go into her own personal story of how

the same thing would happen to her if she missed a

meal and would tell me what she'd even eat for

breakfast.

she scolded me for eatting high caloric meals and

told me I should eat what she eats. an egg while

omlett instead of with the yolk.

I was trying to gain weight at the time, not lose even

more.

she was doing it for vanity reasons, not just for

health.

so do you get my picture of my illustration of how

this dr. was so unprofessional?

that should've told me right then to start looking for

a new dr.

but she was convient to go to. She worked on the same

floor I did when I was working for a doctors group.

So maybe you should consider writting this dr a letter

Laurie.

My therapist feels this might heal us.

I can hear how upset you still are after all those

yrs. of it occuring.

don't you want to get rid of that memory?

it's just a suggestion. being that I'm going through

similar.

another gyno dr. of mine almost killed me too. what

was supposed to be a normal routine surgery of tubal

ligation wound me up in the hospital for 11 days. I

wound up in ICU. I started hemoraging inside my body

after they did the tubal thing.

I kept complaining of pain running into my shoulder

where it hurt to breathe. I almost fainted when I

stood. I turned a color of pale green and nurse who

happend to come in a check me after an entire day of

losing so much blood into my abdomen, saw something

not right upon inspection.

she called the dr. back in for an emergency surgery to

open me back up. they had to remove my intestines out

of my body to see where the blood kept oozing from.

they said it was coming from multiple spots and it was

in the upper part of stomach. not from where she did

the surgery.

they called in a blood specialtist to test for

bleeding problems. all was o.k with that dept.

I have never suffered so much intense pain as I did in

those days of recovery after having my intestines

lifted and sitting in their hands.

imagine putting them back in the way they had been

sitting all those yrs.

plus any time blood touches an internal organ, I was

told it turns to like a gummy substance and that it's

irritating to the organs.

I couldn't even swallow my own saliva it hurt so much

to have air going through my intestines.

I couldn't eat a drop of food. I cringed when it was

eatting time.

I'd close the curtain and cry in such pain that my

room mate was worried.

I'd lost soooo much weight at that point and looked

like walking death by the time I left that hospital.

alot different from when I went in.

I rememberr suffering intensily in the ICU unit. I

couldn't even urinate on my own. they had to put these

horrible little bitter pill under my tongue to

regulate my heart.

everything started to become effected by me almost

going into shock.

I can write about this in very detailed words, because

I'll never ever forget the torture of that time. I am

glad to be alive.

My family was mortified of what happened and wanted me

to sue this doctor and her associate.

I remember her associate visiting me in the ICU unit

CRYING while leaning against a wall telling me in

detail how they just lost a pregnant patient due to a

car accident but they were able to save the baby and

having to face the husband in the hospital and the

patient screaming to her " don't let my baby die " so

the baby survived but the mother died on the table.

they told me her spleen was practically shredded from

the impact of hitting the steering wheel from the

impact of hitting a tree.

she was on her way to work, she had a cup of coffee

that had spilt.

I don't know how they found this out.

I bet this dr. didn't realize how coherent I really

was. I remember her telling me this story and other

patients that almost hemorraged to death from another

surger all within a matter of a yr.

doesn't look good for their credentials, does it?

needless to say, I fired these two doctors. I don't

feel it was their fault in what happened to me. It

seemed doctors all over that medical building

including the hospital staff knew of my case.

I remember a dr. saying she knew of my name.

traumatic events can really effect us and we aren't

even aware of it doing it.

I feel you and I have both been traumatized in our

pasts.

not a good thing.

My four little children almost lost their mother.

I never experienced what it's like to battle for your

life and see how determined one is to stay alive until

that event.

I'm sorry for this lengthy message and I'm not quite

sure why I shared this today. but for some reason it

came out.

it's a freak accident that's for sure and I " m happy to

be alive to tell it.

I haven't shared this event with many people that I

know.

Sincerely,

S.

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