Laurie aka goutbuster

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HI. I think that is the first time I have ever read your story.

Plus the fact that you have memories of the OR. My goodness dawlin

no wonder you are so gunshy with the docs. I would be as well. Do

you think that your memories of the OR may be manifestations of the

previous mental and physical trauma you endured from that bad

surgeon? Its hard to believe, although I do know that it has

occurred, that has happened.

There was a study done at the hospital where certain music was played

via a headset on pts during surgery then they were later given a

questionairre. It lasted for several months but no one had any

memories of any music even subliminally. It was an interesting study

tho. However I think it would have been better had the music been

played without the anesthesiologist knowing of it. Maybe in some

small way, even unconsciously, they would have sedated the pt more

heavily. I dont know but it was an intersting study none the less.

I think ' idea that you write a letter to the bad surgeon is an

excellent idea. I know that you have put all that behind you but

perhaps it lingers some deep inside. Not only would it give you some

closure it would also let her know just how her actions have scarred

you body and soul. Just venturing a guess, you are probably not the

only pt she has harmed. Such incompetence would be hard to hide.

Maybe even a letter to the medical board examiners of your state. I

did that with a physcian of my fathers and any complaint does go on

their permanent record.

It has been 5 weeks since the first surgery and 3 since the second

surgery and I am still feeling like crud. I have been trying to

pick up around the house some, laundry and such and find that I still

very limited in what I am able to do. I am also trying to cut back

on the oxy's as I am really worried about becoming addicted and hate

the thought of going through any kind of withdrawel. I tried to

drive yesterday and it still gives me pain. I see both the surgeons

tomorrow and maybe they will pull my last drain. I hope so because I

am just dying to go to the beach and take a long stroll gathering

shells, watching for dolphins and sea birds, laying in the warm sun

with the cool ocean breeze kissing my skin. They told me I could go

but you cant imagine how the jp drain and its tube looks under a

bathing suit. Just a tad bit masculine if you get my drift...LOL.

I hope you had a pleasant weekend and are feeling well. I am still

waiting on those pics you said you would send me of your basement

greenhouse. I am sure it is just over flowing with blossoms by now.

Talk soon,

PS: my surgeon did say that was the most painful of surgeries with

all the intestinal manipulation as well as the surgically severing

the obliques muscles and pulling them over the defect. However they

did pretty up my scar a lot!