Re: 5% of the population-Suzi

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Having 2 boys to chase around is a tough job. My eldest is pretty

much done and she still lives at home and for themost aprt is agreat

kid. Its kind of funny tho, she is absolutely drop dead georgous and

hasnot had a date inmonths. Im not just saying that as her mom, she

really is georgous, looks just like Eva Longorio, seriously. The

boys around here must just be too stupid, maybe because she is 'nice'

girl hardworking and smart. My son is 15, so prepare you self now

times two. He drives me up the wall and back down again. He argues

about eveything under the sun. I swear the boy should become a

lawyer. My youngest is 10 and she is just a little girly girl, just

likeher mom soo that is easy. How old are your boys?

I love summer too. I went to the beach last week for the first time

in well over a year. I live rather close but was always too sick.

It was just me and my little girl. We packed a lunch grabbed a sheet

and a few sodas and spent most of the day. She loves the digging and

splashing while I like to relax and stroll some. We havea big storm

heading our way from the Bahamas this weekend so there should be some

awesome shells on the beach by monday. Ilove that.

I guess I have been through a lot, it doesn't seem that way tho. I

think I block a lot of it out of my mind and I dont really like

talking about it all very much. I can with all of ya'll because

ya'll have been here all along but I pretty much dumped all my

closest friends a few years ago when I got really sick. I see them

from time to time and some of us got together before my surgery on

may 9th but I didn't even tell them about the emergency surgery a few

weeks later until well after the fact. I was always such a pistol,

the life of the party, the hard worker who could pull a double shift

at the drop of a hat. Now I am an old women who cant even water my

gardens. I am beginning to think that I will never fully recovery

and should just give up on dreaming that I might regain my life.

I'm a little depressed at the moment, can you tell *S*

Last week the plastic surgeon told me to get an abdominal binder from

a pharmacy. Well Ilooked in several and couldn't find any. I saw

the GI surgeon the other day and forgot to ask him about it. Well I

emailed him later that day and he said it might help with the

discomfort so today I drove back to the city and MUSC where I used to

work just to pick up one (at least it was free) from his clinic. Its

a good hour drive, onger if there is traffic problems. So it dawned

on me that my social life has been reduced to the clinics staff, the

pharmacys' staff, and my kids.

I'm just a lonely old woman so dont look at me as though I have

accomplished anything more then to just stay breathing. I appreciate

all the prayers, really I do. I've lost everything and I am pretty

much useless. But I can sit in a Winnebago and look out the window,

so maybe that is something I can look forward to one day.

I hope your good days last forever.

Warmly,