Looking out the Winnebago window to

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Hey girl,

The sunshine is headed your way. It may not arrive tomorrow or even

next week, but it will arrive and you will bask in it and draw warmth

and strength from it's rays. The sunshine I'm talking about is more

than that which radiates from up above, it's what will return to you

once again from within, after your health is fully restored.

Chrissy, you need to remember that you've been through many major

surgeries and traumas in just the past year or two. Your body hasn't

had a chance to heal and recover from one, before you've had to jump

on that table for another one. Right now you're being too hard on

yourself, expecting more of yourself than what's physically possible,

and feeling angry and disappointed because you can't find all that

energy and vitality that you identify with as being a part of who you

are. That part of isn't gone, it's not over with......it

just hasn't had a chance to recharge because you've practically spent

more time IN the hospital than OUT of it these last many months.

It saddens me when I hear your disillusionment and talk as though you

aren't going to get over the hump that's been in front of you, because

I know you will....it just takes time, darlin', and you've got to

allow yourself to accept that before you can move on. You ARE going

to get better, and you ARE going to go back to work, and you WILL once

again be running circles around everyone else like the Energizer

bunny....leaving all the slowpokes in your wake and the quicker ones

hanging onto your coattails. I just know it!

Meanwhile, give yourself a break and enjoy a lazy summer, 'cuz it may

be the last one you have for a long time, once those batteries of

yours are recharged! Spend some time taking it easy without specific

goals or demands on yourself, that way if something doesn't happen as

fast as you expected it to, you won't feel such a let down. And don't

use anyone else's progress as an example for yourself, because I can't

think of anyone else who has had as many obstacles jinx them unawarily

as you have! Just take each day as it comes, and don't worry about

tomorrow or next week, until you have to.

Before you know it, that sunshine will be shining in your eyes and

it's warmth will touch all of those around you, as it radiates from

within your healed body and soul. I've felt bits and pieces of it

from you already, and know that one day there'll be lots more! Just

give it some more time, and then you'll find that just looking out the

Winnebago window won't be enough.

With love, hope and prayers,

Heidi

Heidi H. Griffeth

www.pancassociation.org/anthology#Heidi.html

Bluffton, SC

SC State & SE Regional Representative

Pancreatitis Association, International

www.health.groups.yahoo.com/group/pancreatitis/

Note: All comments or advice are personal opinion only, and should

not be substituted for professional medical consultation.