To Jerry

[Guest guest]

Hi Jerry,

thanks for the response and reassurance. I was hoping that my

posts didn't convey any of my anti-social attitude that I have been

wrestling with for the past week or so. I am very irritable with a

component of depression due to the drought. We are not " losing

the farm " per se, but we are losing bits and pieces of it and it is

like watching your children die. You feel so helpless. So we

fight....we fight over water (who gets to use it when and for what

purpose) we fight over meals (who gets to eat while the other

one hauls water) we fight over who gets to go have fun while the

other one stays home to do chores. Then we fight over giving up.

I finally had to draw the line a few days ago. It is like

gambling.....you can't leave the slot machine because you think

the next pull will be the jackpot and if someone else pulls it, you

will hate yourself for the rest of your life (well not really but you get

my drift)...that is the way it was with our watering. I kept telling

myself that I only have to do it one more day, then it iwll rain and if

I quit now, after all these weeks of watering and the plants die

just one day short of the rain I will hate myself. But it doesn't

work....just as the triple sevens never show up, neither does the

rain. It comes a point when you just say " enough " and accept

that nature always wins out in the end. And that things will

change. I mean, look at the dust bowl....that seemed

catastrophic but if you look at the area now, you couldn't tell

except for the good things that came from it (the reservoirs,

canals, etc). I just hate seeing my " babies " suffer. And now it is

at a point where the animals are too so I am trying to keep pans

of water around for the birds, bunnies and mice.

If you have the secret rain dance in your closet please drag it out.

It is time to put it in use.

As far as ....I am hoping that she sees the response

that people are posting so she knows how much we miss her,

are concerned about her and wish that we could make things

better for her, whatever she is facing. I hope that she has a

chance to take comfort in our group hug and recognizes that she

is part of our family.....and that like a family, we accept her

unconditionally.

laurie

[Guest guest]

Hi Jerry-

I have Zofran that I can inject into my thigh...that helps with the

nausea some...and I had a script for Toradol...but that doesn't seem

to help the pain at all in an acute attack. Sometime, if I can get

the vomiting under control and suck on an Actiq sucker I can avoid a

hospital stay...like I said, sometimes. I did have Demoral and

Nubain injectibles when I went to Mexico, but that was a one time

thing...and although I haven't really asked, I am fairly certain

that I couldn't just have those injectibles at my disposal to take

whenever I am having an attack...(because of course, that would be

too easy!) :-)

I would have to say that during my acute attacks...vomiting control

is nearly half the battle. Yep, the pain is still horrible, but the

pain and the vomiting is quite simply too much for me to handle.

BTW...I love reading your comments...you are funny!

Hugs,

Suzi B.

Colorado