and her statement

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To all concerned,

No, I have not spoken with and no I do not know what her

challenges are right now. However, we really need to be honest on

this forum about the thought of wanting to die!

I can not tell you the number of times that, since becoming so ill,

that I have wished death upon myself. It would ease the family's

having to deal with someone so sick and in so much need of support

and care. The economics of not working where, in a nation of need of

multiple incomes, one can not contribute financially to the family

and its ultimate economic success are very overwhelming. I dare

anyone here to tell me that they have never been concerned with their

economic situation and also thought about how hard their partner is

working and how much of a burden that is. Spiritually, I also ask you

to sincerely weigh how much this weighs on you and your family that

in being so ill that you have never questioned or have been burdened

with what your life's meaning is and what answers you can come up

with that are less than nominal. Also, those who are in chronic pain

and suffering, I ask you to honestly tell me that you NEVER wanted

this to just " end, " no matter if it even means the end of your mortal

being.

I understand also that events in our lives and the people in our

lives have been somehow twisted to a new focal point with this

illness. Such a view can mostly be viewed as " unhealthy " (pardon me

if you think this is a pun or a ply on words) and can never

contribute to the positive growth of our own self perception or well

being. This cuts and picks at us daily and no one can tell me that

this is a pretty picture. How many times have you been told by

someone that you will get " better " in time? How many " times " has that

time never come? Anyone living in this manner must certainly tender

their souls to one of despair!

I sense all of this in 's post. I am very sensitive to this.

Believe me, all of the prayers and the overreaction to her comment in

terms of asking her whether or not she really " meant " it are no more

than a lessening of her spirit and even more a lack of sensitivity to

something that everyone here has experienced. We can forever tell

others how we " got over " our internal crises; however, you must

admit, that it is forever knocking on the door of the back of your

minds. Are you really responding directly to HER or is it really

something inside of YOURSELF?

Sorry for this rant but I needed to get this off of my chest. In a

situation requiring empathy, all she got was retort. I defend her in

her statement and I let her live with it in her own way as each of us

has or refused.

Anyse