wanting to die

[Guest guest]

Anyse,

I know there has been alot of negativity towards your comment but I can agree

with how you feel. I was diagnosed in 2001 with CP and was happily married or

so I thought. In December of 2003 while I was recovering from surgery I found

out my husband was having an affair. I had already let my kids live with their

father (my 1st husband) because of the physical and verbal abuse I endured. It

was the last straw here I was on disability all alone my family lived in Indiana

and I was in Louisville, KY. I had no money, no job, only disability check

coming in. My medical bills were outrageous and I wanted the suffering to end.

I moved in with my parents (whom I haven't lived with since I was 18 and I'm 37

now). If it weren't for my Mom and Dad and their constant care I would probably

be worse off. I am not here to judge you and I can only say I know how you feel

because I have contemplated it before and even attempted it once. In the back

of my mind I do think of my children but

sometimes enough is enough. I want you to hang in there and continue to

converse with everyone on the board here. I feel it is therapy although I think

some should hold back on the negativity. Not one person can compare how one

person feels to their own. We all are not alike and some are able to deal with

stress alot easier than others.

Keep posting!! I care about you and I'm sure others feel the same.

Patty Duley

Corydon, IN

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