Re: Saw the surgeon today

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

Man Oh man is all I can say, again. I know you needed this news like a hole

in the head but you knew something was wrong by your increased pain. It sooooo

stinks that surgery is needed to correct the problem. You have come sooo far and

you will get through this too. You are a true fighter and one very strong women.

Yes, you lost it when you found out, but who wouldn't. You don't know how many

times I have cried to my MDs. I try real hard not too but when you get bad news

you kinda flip out. Well, at least I do. Or sometimes I start yelling at my MDs

that they are not touching me anymore and to take a flying leap. Then I storm

out of their office. Some I have actually smacked as I am yelling at them and

then I burst into tears. You don't know how many times I have had to apologize

for my outbursts. So you are not alone with your feelings. Hopefully THIS will

be your very last last last surgery. You have to hold onto that hope. Because if

you have no hope, then it takes the fight

out of you. You must fight so you can get better. When they fix the kink maybe

they can fix the hernia at the same time and you will be done. Your MD did tell

you all would be fine so you must go in and he will fix it. I haven't been

posting much myself as I am also dealing with the how much more is it going to

take to fix this so I can get back into the swing of things. Our deal is still

on and I am still aiming for the first half of 2006 as being our time for

getting back into the swing of things. So you better get going and get things

done so you can be on the other side of this surgery and on the mend for good.

We need you around here, you always help EVERYONE soooooo much. I hope you start

to feel better about the whole situation real soon so you can get into your

fighting mode. Do I need to come down there and kick your butt so you get into

the fighting mode????. Would be one funny fight with both of us being so strong

and all........... Talk to you soon and HHHuuuugggsss

and prayers are always coming.

Love,

w

wrote:

I saw the surgeon today, the one who did my Beger, and unfortunelty the

news was still not good. He feels that I have some twisting or

something along those lines of my small instestine and will require an

open surgery to straghten it all out. He wants me to have some testing

done next week, a barium swallow. I broke down in the office, sobbing

uncontrollabley, God I hate when that happens, and I tried so hard to

stay strong. I went in thinking " OK, I'll go for the laporascope for

the adhesions " He felt around my belly, and it hurt. I will go back

again on Wednesday after I leave radiology that morning. Hey Angie, if

you are reading this maybe we can meet for coffee. I think we will both

be needing something by that time.

What I wouldn't give for just one ounce of good news to come my way.

Just one thing. I really dont think I have it in me any more to hold

on to hope. He told me as he was leaving that I would be fine, that we

would get it all straightened out. I told him I have lost faith in

that. I sure do miss that faith, that purpose behind everything. Now

I am just trying to figure out what I did so terrible to deserve this

harsh a punishment. I dont know, guess I never will.

Hope every body else is having a better day then I have and is doing

the best they can. If the person who was asking about the Beger

pronouced " BAygur " needs more info, just let me know I would be happy

to answer all that I can.

Warmly,