Always with the right words Fliss

[Guest guest]

You are so right. If I weren't depressed at the recent turn of

events, then something would be wrong. I have always been the one

touting how we as individuals with a chronic condition must accept

our miriad of emotions and to go with the flow, so to speak. Thank

you for reminding me of that.

Fliss, I am just so damn scared. said it would be a big

surgery and probably another smaller one to follow. I just cant take

any more. My body is so weak. It has gotten chilly here recently

and the other night I woke just shivering. So in the dark I stumbled

to the basket of clean clothesm (the ones I was too tired to put up)

and grabbed a long sleeve t-shirt to change into. I went back to

bed. The next morning Alison walks into the kitchen and says " My God

Mom you are getting too skinny " I laughed, me too skinny thats an

oxymoron. She said, " Mom you are wearing my shirt! " She wears a

small or extra small. Granted it was a bit snugger then a t-shirt I

would normally wear but it by no means cut off any circulation...LOL

I have a bad feeling about this Fliss and I am really scared. Maybe

he is wrong and I wont need surgery and the test will all come back

just honkey dorey. I am going to try to pray and focus my energy on

that.

Thanksf or the note and I am so glad your trip to Prague was

pleasant. Albeit not as exciting as you would have liked but I guess

sometimes we just have to smile and take our tradeoffs. Give my best

to Jim.

And as always,

Warmly,