Re: weight gain causing EXTREME sadness--long - trisha

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you only gained 2 pnds??? and your 32 weeks???

>

> Ok tell me I am not alone!!!!!!! Had a doc appointment today and

was

> DREADING the scale.. Last night, I was HYSTERICAL because of my

> weight gain. My poor hubby did not know what to do with me.

Finally

> was able to fall asleep and woke up and hubby was alseep on the

> couch. Logically, I knew he slept on the couch b/c he was so

> congested and didn't want to snore and keep me awake (he does this

> periodically when he is congested). So, I knew he was being

> considerate yet when I saw him on the couch I was irrational and

> thought, " He knew I needed TLC and he didn't come to bed with me. "

> So, I started to cry and I snapped at him and couldn't stop crying.

I

> was eating breakfast (b/c I KNOW I have to eat for the baby) but I

> didn't want to eat. So, everytime I took a bite I would cry

harder.

> It isn't easy to eat when you are crying did you know that!?!!? lol

I

> had a very hard time getting myself under control and was on the

> brink of tears most of the day. In fact a few times I had to walk

> away and hide in the bathroom until I was under control. ON the

way

> to my doc appointment I was crying. Told the nurse not to tell me

> what I weighed (turned my back) and then cried with the doctor

too.

> She says I am doing fine and she understands I am weighing in

clothes

> and in the afteroon. So, before I left I got her to tell me the

> number. I gained 5 pounds this past 2 weeks. I weighed with my

> clothes on this morning and they weighed 3 pounds. So to make

myself

> feel better I am saying I only gained 2!!!!!!!!!!! I am 32 weeks

and

> doc says this is the time when baby really starts to grow. She

> insited that I am doing fine and I shouldn't worry. Hard not to.

> Doesn't help that my bowels are not regular. Doc says that may be

> some of the weight as well. Ok if you got this far, thanks! I

guess

> I am not looking for advice per say, just reassurance that I am not

> alone!!!! Thanks ladies for all you do!

>

> Trisha

> WLS 4.2.03--lost 153 pounds

> EDD 1.6.05 It's a GIRL! Riley Faye

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>

> you only gained 2 pnds??? and your 32 weeks???

Still, I KNOW exactly what Trisha is saying!!! I am 30 weeks, and at

my last appt I had gained 6 lbs in 4 weeks (I think 3lbs was water

weight as the day before I was 3 lbs less and chugged h2O for the

bloodwork). ugh!!!! I was 12 months post-op when I started pregnancy

at 237 lbs. I fell back into ketosis and dropped to 219 around week

18 I think and then gained it back kicking and screaming (and enforced

carb-loading on my nutritionists orders) and made it back to 227/229

for most of my pregnancy. went from 229 at week 24 to 235 at week 28.

Doc has said from week 18 on she wanted me to gain a lb a week but I

sure HATE that concept. I was trying anyway and eat constantly, I

mean from the time I wake up to middle of the night snacks when I get

up to tinkle.

The baby has measured on target each time (not the high side of

average, more like the lower end of expected size, but still) Each

bite in my mouth is forced because I know the baby needs it. That

fear tho that I will wake up and be 360 again, it gives me

nightmares. I will be no use to my son if I cannot get to goal and

stay healthy, or if I gain too much. My family is supportive but they

don't understand how I can be upset about the weight gain. only 1 lb

net gain at 30 weeks sounds fabulous to them, but to many of us, every

lb higher is 1 lb closer to the nightmare of health and emotional

issues we thought we'd left behind us.

If the scale goes higher, we are happy for our growing child, but sad

for our own bodies... if the scale goes lower or stays the same we are

happy for our healthy future but worried we are hurting our baby by

not eating enough. there is no happy joy joy feeling for any of the

weight changes. nothing but mixed emotions and fear for me. I am

trying so hard to stay calm and just focus on my wonderful growing son

and that is what makes me eat on schedule and get in all the calories

I can. If I am really struggling I take out a baby outfit or toy and

set it on the table in front of me to remind me why I have to stuff my

face

I am praying I do NOT gain another 12 lbs in the 10 weeks I have left

but my doc sure would be happier if I did. All I can do is eat on

time, eat the measured amounts and love on my big swollen tummy and

hope my baby is going to be just fine. My hubby hugs me and tells me

there will be plenty of time to torture myself about my weight after

is born and he has SWORN to exercise with me to make sure I get

back into shape and then some. He knows I still need to lose 50-70

more lbs after the baby is born and we also want to try again for

another baby 6 months after is born. he thinks we can make it

happen and I have to have that hope in my mind, but that evil evil

scale sure can torture us in the meantime!

hugs!!!!!

Colleen

Open RNY 5-9-03

361/236/160 (after delivery)

due 1-23-05

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Oh Deanna---don't I WISH!!!!!!! No I meant that I gained 2 pounds

since the last doctor's appointment 2 weeks ago! Overall I have

gained more for sure! OUCH

I gained 5 pounds this past 2 weeks. I weighed with my

> > clothes on this morning and they weighed 3 pounds. So to make

> myself

> > feel better I am saying I only gained 2!!!!!!!!!!! I am 32 weeks

> and

> > doc says this is the time when baby really starts to grow.

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owe ok trish lol gosh i was wiggin out i thought i was the porker of

the board here lol i gained 33 pnds in my pregnancy and i am 6 months

post partum now and still have 10/15 to lose..my baby was 5 pnds 13

oz i cant say that i have really tried to lose the weight but im

trying to motivate myself to do just that...the bad thing is the HIPS

gosh i never knew that having a baby could spread them soo much

omg ... anyways good luck and i know exactly what your going through

cuz i stressed soo much during my pregnancy i am even scared to have

another one because of the weight gain i had to eat 24/7 and eat junk

food that made me dump just to gain the 33 pnds ... i was 133/135 i

want to get back down to that ... well congrats to all the upcoming

and new mommies...this sure is a blessing to have lost weight and

have a baby too...

> I gained 5 pounds this past 2 weeks. I weighed with my

> > > clothes on this morning and they weighed 3 pounds. So to make

> > myself

> > > feel better I am saying I only gained 2!!!!!!!!!!! I am 32

weeks

> > and

> > > doc says this is the time when baby really starts to grow.