Trisha.. Re: weight gain causing EXTREME sadness--long

November 13, 2004

You know... my weight loss in the last 11.5 months has only been 80 lbs... (

I know.. had a baby).. and I too see a much larger woman in the mirror.

Some days I don't even recognize myself... as it has been So very long since

I have seen a smaller version of me.

My biggest emotional issue right now is feeling so " disfigured " .

My scar from the Open RNY is beyond hideous... even my OB asked if I was

going to get it fixed. ( she had LAP RnY 1.5 years ago)

My belly is hanging down so low.. it literally disgusts me and depresses me.

Some days I rather be fat then so scarred and with that sagging belly.

I think it's time for me to get some help mentally as well... I am so afraid

that the skin thing will consume me much like the food issue itself.... and I

have 2 beautiful little boys that don't need a neurotic mother who has such a

bad self image.

Of course I am alway mad at myself for getting so fat in the first place...

damn you Ben & Jerry's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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K in Ft Lauderdale

mommy to:

Noah - officially 2!

Jonah - b. 11/1/04 - 6lbs 7 oz - 19.5 inches long

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