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If you wrote the following passage, please contact me so I can ask for permission to use it in my book. All of us have had those sleepless nights filled with despair. I just want to share what you posted, so us moms realize this is part of our membership dues for being in our A-Club. You said it better than anyone can.Best,Marcia Hinds 805 497-8202hindssite@... I feel like I have two different lives. The mom that cooks and cleans and runs the kids to school and pretends to her husband, friends and family that everything is ok, and the real me scared sh*tless that I'm never going to get him recovered.I am so scared...night and day..all the time. What if I never do it? I've never accepted that he's not coming back. Every time I think of that thought I immediately start go weak, can't breathe and in a panic run to my list on the fridge and read everything I'm doing for him just to reassure myself ......he's coming back. I have a couple memories of him before autism and I'm losing those too. It's like it's been so long I can't remember that well anymore. I’ve lived this life filled with autism with such passion and intensity I've lost myself, and I’ve been around the biomed block a couple times now that I don't know where I'm even going now. I've done everything.I’ll stop writing .......one of those nights ......