Re: Not giving up but learning to believe

November 23, 2005

Hi :

Where do you live? I wish all of us were closer to one another. This just

upsets me so much when I feel that you are feeling so alone and without hope.

We have to continue to fight this and I know it is hard. We need friends

and support. Two years with this? Did they ever resect your liver? Did you

have Avastin? Oxaliplatin? I went through a period of time when I would cry

at everything. I cried when I left Carmel, knowing I would probably never

return; I cry when friends bring dinner to me; I cry when I show up at the

oncologist's office for chemo; I cry at concerts as I relate to the lyrics of

the songs. I am now on an anti-depressant (sp?) called Lexapro or something

like that. I am only into my second week but I am not crying anymore. You

may need to get something to help you see through that dark cloud that is

hanging over us.

Please take care. I will write more later. I am going away for the holiday

and have to take care of some things before I leave.

Happy Thanksgiving.

In a message dated 11/23/2005 9:02:53 AM Pacific Standard Time,

geter1722000@... writes:

,

Sorry for not signing the post , my minds slips everynow and then. Yes , I

have have second options and treatments coming out of my ears. The cancer is

growning right along with all the treatments and I can't complain..I have out

done the doctors twice and willing to do it again . Sometimes with this fight

, I get so down and I guess like anyone else I let my gaurd down. Thanks for

you letter , I see that today is one of the days that I could have gave up.

You know I have a family here , but fighting this I feel so along . My

husband of 5 years doesn't know the first thing of the cancer in the way of

support. He plays on the peety that other give him. My two kids are dealing

with it

in thier own way .. they do support me to a degree.

I have been battleing this for almost 2 years now . I would have never

thought that I would have came down with cancer . And very much like the song

'Keeper of the Stars " I know who hold my hand. Things are being to look funny

and

it's as if I know that I need to take in all that I can . I can't explain it

... Just a strange feeling that has came over me in the past week.

Take care and yes I will keep my head up ...

Thanks again ..loving thought and prays be with you.

brencolinmom@... wrote:

You didn't sign your post, so I don't know who you are. But I want to ask

you why you have resigned yourself to not living beyond 3 months. An

enlarged

liver? I too had that with a 4 cm. tumor. But it is gone now. Where are

you in your treatment? Did you have surgery or chemo? No ones really

knows

when we are going to leave this earth until we are really in the throes of

dying. It sounds like you aren't there yet. Have you had a second

opinion?

Don't give up so fast.

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November 23, 2005

,

Sorry for not signing the post , my minds slips everynow and then. Yes , I

have have second options and treatments coming out of my ears. The cancer is

growning right along with all the treatments and I can't complain..I have out

done the doctors twice and willing to do it again . Sometimes with this fight ,

I get so down and I guess like anyone else I let my gaurd down. Thanks for you

letter , I see that today is one of the days that I could have gave up.

You know I have a family here , but fighting this I feel so along . My husband

of 5 years doesn't know the first thing of the cancer in the way of support. He

plays on the peety that other give him. My two kids are dealing with it in thier

own way .. they do support me to a degree.

I have been battleing this for almost 2 years now . I would have never thought

that I would have came down with cancer . And very much like the song 'Keeper of

the Stars " I know who hold my hand. Things are being to look funny and it's as

if I know that I need to take in all that I can . I can't explain it .. Just a

strange feeling that has came over me in the past week.

Take care and yes I will keep my head up ...

Thanks again ..loving thought and prays be with you.

brencolinmom@... wrote:

You didn't sign your post, so I don't know who you are. But I want to ask

you why you have resigned yourself to not living beyond 3 months. An enlarged

liver? I too had that with a 4 cm. tumor. But it is gone now. Where are

you in your treatment? Did you have surgery or chemo? No ones really knows

when we are going to leave this earth until we are really in the throes of

dying. It sounds like you aren't there yet. Have you had a second opinion?

Don't give up so fast.

November 23, 2005

There's a very good Web site at www.blochcancer.org that has a lot of

information for survivors and caregivers, and a lot of hope. Go there and find

the parts that help you most, and help your husband. It's understandable that

caregivers who are suddenly thrust along this path don't have a clue what to do

or how to act or feel. This site can really help.

And keep the faith. With hope, all things are possible.

" H. Edmonds " wrote: