Re: Just a quick note...

[Guest guest]

Donelle, Thank You so much for your update. I am always thinking of

you and and Praying for your strength and that Glenn does not

suffer.

You have let me know that God is answering some of my Prayers by

letting me know that Glenn is NOT in pain. God has his reasons and we

all understand this. In my heart I know he is answering some of our

Prayers.

God, Please keep Glenn as comfortable as possible. In Jesus's name.

Amen.

Donelle, Bless you for what you are going through!!!! God is at

your side too!!!!! Take some comfort from that!!!!

Your so amazing still caring for all out here even with the heavy

burden you are having to bear. You are such a warm, giving woman. I

know God will be there to help you through this. Love, Ingrid

>

> Just touching bases... the best news I have is that Glenn is not

in any pain

> and I'm still functioning and somewhat sane. He generally feels

like

> crap... says he " just doesn't feel good " is the best he can

describe it; nothing

> hurts, not nauseous. Still having diarrhea, but is able to make

it to the

> potty without incident. Doesn't seem to matter what he eats or

doesn't eat.

> He's so weak, he can barely speak and most times it's a

whisper...then every

> once in a while, he's a little stronger. His blood pressure is

slowly dropping

> 79/46 today, his temperature is 95.5/96 dropping, he's having a

little trouble

> swallowing, his hands and feet are cool to the touch, as compared

to his

> body, he's only awake 1-3 hrs. a day... altho he did good over the

weekend with

> his Mom and brother here, but Hospice Nurse told me to expect him

to sleep

> the next couple days and he's only been awake an hour this

morning.... I miss

> him!! The days just keep going by and I hate for each one to

end. I'm having

> trouble concentrating and remembering, but still functioning the 3

days I'm

> at work. The day I'm suppose to work from home, as in today, I

find myself

> not very disciplined. The days I go to work, I cringe as I walk

out the door,

> as my heart and tummy just knot up. I probably will have to start

staying

> home for my benefit, before Glenn actually needs 24/7 care. I'm

stretching

> it, b/c I need to pay my mortgage, etc. Someone comes each day

from Hospice

> that I'm not here. A neighbor has a key and my son. Glenn's old

Coast Guard

> friend is coming again tomorrow from PA to spend the day with him

(for me).

> A girlfriend is coming from TX next Monday-Fri, so she'll be with

him. And

> that's as far as we've gotten with any kind of plan... his

childhood friend

> from ILL hopes to be here the next week....if not, I'll be here.

>

> Love you all... pray for you all every night!!! For those of you

that are

> new here or just beginning treatments, please don't let this

message

> discourage you in any way...there is so much hope for

Survivors...Glenn has had many

> extenuating circumstances after his first yr when they found mets

to the

> liver, starting with the infiltration of chemo into his chest

cavity ( a big error

> on the nurses part), then the diabetes, then the colon shut-down,

then the

> horrendous Ascites (fluid build up) and weekly Paracentesis

(draining of fluid

> taking all the nutrients with it), then the Denver Shunt surgery

with a 1-3

> odds that he would make it.... he did and I'm sure God had a reason

and if it

> was to make amends with his Mom and brother, that has been done

this past

> weekend. So, you see, this is not the " norm " , altho I can't tell

you what the

> norm might be. Just please keep an open mind and fight this damn

disease

> with every ounce of energy you have!!!

>

> Lots of hugs and prayers, Donelle

> Caregiver to Glenn

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Good to hear from you Donelle. How badly I wish I could be there for you.

Though maybe just as well as I am terrible in situations like this but I

know what you are dealing with. So glad that you do have Hospice and

neighbors, friends of yours and Glenn's to help out.

Any way we are all with you in spirit even if we can't be there physically,

same for Narice.

Big Hugs and Prayers Jolene

_____

[Guest guest]

Donelle

You were a comfort to me when I went through this with Mom. I wish

I could repay that now. All I can offer is love and prayer.

Sharon

>

> Just touching bases... the best news I have is that Glenn is not

in any pain

> and I'm still functioning and somewhat sane. He generally feels

like

> crap... says he " just doesn't feel good " is the best he can

describe it; nothing

> hurts, not nauseous. Still having diarrhea, but is able to make

it to the

> potty without incident. Doesn't seem to matter what he eats or

doesn't eat.

> He's so weak, he can barely speak and most times it's a

whisper...then every

> once in a while, he's a little stronger. His blood pressure is

slowly dropping

> 79/46 today, his temperature is 95.5/96 dropping, he's having a

little trouble

> swallowing, his hands and feet are cool to the touch, as compared

to his

> body, he's only awake 1-3 hrs. a day... altho he did good over

the weekend with

> his Mom and brother here, but Hospice Nurse told me to expect him

to sleep

> the next couple days and he's only been awake an hour this

morning.... I miss

> him!! The days just keep going by and I hate for each one to

end. I'm having

> trouble concentrating and remembering, but still functioning the

3 days I'm

> at work. The day I'm suppose to work from home, as in today, I

find myself

> not very disciplined. The days I go to work, I cringe as I walk

out the door,

> as my heart and tummy just knot up. I probably will have to

start staying

> home for my benefit, before Glenn actually needs 24/7 care. I'm

stretching

> it, b/c I need to pay my mortgage, etc. Someone comes each day

from Hospice

> that I'm not here. A neighbor has a key and my son. Glenn's old

Coast Guard

> friend is coming again tomorrow from PA to spend the day with him

(for me).

> A girlfriend is coming from TX next Monday-Fri, so she'll be with

him. And

> that's as far as we've gotten with any kind of plan... his

childhood friend

> from ILL hopes to be here the next week....if not, I'll be here.

>

> Love you all... pray for you all every night!!! For those of you

that are

> new here or just beginning treatments, please don't let this

message

> discourage you in any way...there is so much hope for

Survivors...Glenn has had many

> extenuating circumstances after his first yr when they found mets

to the

> liver, starting with the infiltration of chemo into his chest

cavity ( a big error

> on the nurses part), then the diabetes, then the colon shut-down,

then the

> horrendous Ascites (fluid build up) and weekly Paracentesis

(draining of fluid

> taking all the nutrients with it), then the Denver Shunt surgery

with a 1-3

> odds that he would make it.... he did and I'm sure God had a

reason and if it

> was to make amends with his Mom and brother, that has been done

this past

> weekend. So, you see, this is not the " norm " , altho I can't tell

you what the

> norm might be. Just please keep an open mind and fight this damn

disease

> with every ounce of energy you have!!!

>

> Lots of hugs and prayers, Donelle

> Caregiver to Glenn

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Donelle, you are so welcome, there are plenty more where that came

from. I reckon you are getting a blast of hugs everytime you go near

your computer!

Glenn must so miss hugging you too, I hope though that despite being

so sore he is stll able to receive them. You would know best but if

he is willing and able to show his affection physically don't forget

to ask.

A " bone of contention " being left in the past sounds good.

Love, Fran

> Thanks Fran for your note of caring...and virtual hug. It means

so much to

> know there are those who care about others and are capable of

empathy. Nice

> warm hugs are what I miss the most from Glenn.

>

> Glenn " allowed " his Mom and brother to visit...and I think it was

good for

> all of them. Nothing was said about the bone of contention, but

I think in

> his heart of hearts,altho he wouldn't dare admit it, Glenn

realizes it wasn't

> right to deny his Mother and brother the right to say I love you

and

> good-bye...as well as allowing himself those same cleansing

emotions.

>

> Lots of hugs and prayers, Donelle

> Caregiver to Glenn

>

>

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